Friday, October 3, 2025

pleading

Please Lord save me from the despair
Save me me from my life
Lost with the abyss bubbling at the brim
Broken bent tarnished so many words
What hurts the most, is the uncertainty 
I plea with Allah to save me from myself
To take me to serenity 
I surrender to him
Alone 
La illal ill Allah 
There is so God but Allah 
Guide my heart from the najs of the Dunya 
Bring me closer to the Deen 
Losing control 
Save my life oh Lord
I love you
With more heart for you than myself
Broken beyond mend 
Never lose hope
Never fall to the whispers
The voices scream in my heart
To make me bleed
This is insanity 
Is it meant for me? 
So plea
Surrender yourself
To save yourself
Only with Allah 

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

definitely distorted

Twitchy switch
With the wrists 
Do I understand
What will come if this
The disaster of the Dunya
Unable to control 
Twitching to a switch 
Pitter pattern 
Let's get at them
What are they? 
As I stare so plainly 
So blankly 
But my vision so distorted 
Twitching to the beat
Ticking and rocking
At the end
Break my will 
Will this be the end? 
Hoping for sanity 
To break free from distortion of mind 
To have freedom
Trying to hope
Inshallah
Always

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

Stellar

Stellar lights around 
A firework going off in your mind 
Bringing in peace, only to find the mad hatter
Unable to cope, to reason, to ask for help
How can one? 
Confusion, distorted mind
Born to been insane
Serenity lost, the Noor flickers
Depression near and dear
Comes for all
Schizophrenic maniac 
At the bend, screaming for this life to end
Stellar visions ahead
Sparkling shapes, ever so slightly 
Not here, hope for the end
Losing hope at the time
For a lost individuals
Blueprints for the mind
So scramble disaster 
Ready for this after 
To seek a 
To bring in disaster 
Having something other than insanity 
What is needed? 
What is wanted? 
Wanting something not getting 
Trying so hard too to be 
Losing self
Sanity off on the bend 
Insanity in the rift 
Disaster, hope, hopelessness, Faith 
Bringing in faith to this unsorted events
Eman in the heart, fighting the carnage 
Thinking wondering wanting needing not succeeding 
Trying so hard to understand 
Confusion distorted thinking 
Stinking the mind 
Causing doubt within 
Doubt in self
Shall they seek the light? 
Even within the Noor 
Carnage will never end 
Insanity will never be at the brim 
But forever reminding you 
That you are not there 
Am I here? 
Do I belong? 
What will come? 
So many questions barely any answers 
So logical. It's illogical 
Irrational being 
Rational human 
Hoping for something 
Not knowing what that is 
Losing self within the carnage 
Stellar sparkles of pitter pattern 
To seek Hope so you don't lose to the disaster 
Recovery is possible 
What a lie, does this define what is insane 
Surely not sanity 
No longer self either 
Someone else a stranger 
Save me from myself or the stranger that is
I call to Allah to save me
Even though I am disaster 
Deserving Mercy 
Is this a test? 
Am I failing this test? 
What will come? 
So many questions 
Not many answers 
Barely any sanity here 
Gripping on to Noor
Forever more

Tuesday, August 19, 2025

spectacle show

Havoc arises, boiling point bursts
To extend the emotions
As they turn and rotate a spectacle display 
Ridge Sharp emotions 
Moving through me
Unable to cope
What is reality?
Why this confused state? 
Here I am
Seeking refuge in Allah from accursed Satan
An attack, wounds all over
I shall conquer my emotions 
For Allah is by my side
Allahu Akbar 
Able to slumber, only to ride
Not well rested
The aftermath 
Is here 
Alhamdulillah  
To learn, not letting the burst to explode 
Ridges blades hit
Cris Cross my heart
To seek refuge to Allah
That is the key
To panic climaxes 
Love Allah, love self, love others
There will be peace of mind 
Inshallah

Friday, August 15, 2025

Destiny's sanity

Fading into the wall 
Falling for fate, for destiny in concerned 
Breaking the host
Who is the most sane?
I'm this solitude of the mind
Shot to the abyss
Will I dismiss?
Instead I wallow
Wow is me 
Let me breathe
Have some freedom from the najs
Seeking solitude with thy Lord
Have faith always, do not break
Be on the mend
Striving here and there
Hope for something, missing it
What is it? 
Allahu allim 
Only time will tell
One two three
Start again, holding to sanity
Losing my grip 
Insanely here, stuck to wallow
I swallow whole with a voice of the mind and emotion 
Shifting mixing ripping blades of emotional vibes
Not even my own
But affected such
Sadness 
Despair 
Those monster's calls for me 
Snickers 
Calls some more
I have Eman, I shall not break
Not Bend, but stay steadfast in the Deen
I may be alone with the Snickers of them 
I call to thee
Allah I love you
Save me from the Snickers 
From the despair 
Bring the Noor in with every breath
Break not, for Allah guides me
Bring hope, saving grace
Let me be free
Yet stuck in insanity 
Still human, just not free
Let me be
Allah save me always


Monday, July 28, 2025

glorious heaven

Upon the light 
The world came to be 
Stunning perfection 
The year starts on 
Spring has come 
Snow is gone 
Melting disaster 
Weather warming 
Seeds are sowed 
To the soil, of the Earth 
Soon comes the showers 
To bring life 
To give us a gift 
As the water tapers off 
Here comes the flowers 
That bring us greenery
To feed the Earth 
Glorious is this world
Alhamduillah 
Fruits of bliss 
Greens for the heart
To grow big and strong 
The creatures that be
For humanity needs
Care for our world
We only have one in the dunya 
Summer breezes 
Flowers of the season 
Creatures frolic within the Meadows 
Dancing to serenity 
That the lord gave 
For perfect perfection at last 
Wonderful nights to cure the heat 
Glorious sunsets to the peak 
Time gets going 
Autumn is near and dear
Red and gold sways within the wind 
Gently comes down 
Giving thanks 
To Allah 
For this Grace of the world 
Soon comes 
Winter is here 
Blanket of whiteness snowfall Bliss 
Spectacle creations of perfection 
Individual snow flake 
Brr for the cold 
Hibernation for the creature 
Under the snow there is life 
Waiting for the spring to come 
Start again 
Upon this time 
Spring has sprung once again 
To start again 
Perfection



Sunday, July 27, 2025

Life

5
Start this time 
Time again
Through the pain 
And regret
There was once happiness
Smiling with true glee
Having my true love near me 
Wandering though the thick mist
To dismiss, with the qadar
7
World ends, darkness is the mend 
Love lost, to never return
Till dusk comes now
Upon this time to tell
Sadness trust
Trusting with certainty 
Depression starts 
Lost with the darkness 
8
Hold the clippers tight 
Grasp the metal of the blade
Crimson hope
10
One of the grand has gone
What's left of the heart that beats
Falls far into the abyss
I shall not dismiss 
Lost in worthlessness 
16
Made it this far
Astonished to the max 
Thinking destined for failure 
But striving on 
Not letting the big one take you down 
Letting The whispers stay behind 
20
Made it finally, to the top
Many laughed, holding their judgment above their heads 
Proud with this forgotten glee
Accomplished so much yet. So little 
Lost within abyss 
Finding hope 
Beyond the delusions 
Seeking for truth 
23
Through thought and meditation 
Through Carnage and hope 
Through darkness to light 
To find something so pure 
Found me Allah Almighty 
Set me Free 
To fight the darkness 
And leave it at the bay 
To allow noor 
Flicker within the darkness 
Something starts once again
Finding purpose 
That is Hope 
Having worth, to not break
26
Pitter pattern. Let's get at em
The monsters come 
Vision corrupted 
Hope is lost 
There is no cure 
What to do 
Look for Hope 
Losing faith 
Covering the truth 
Haunting emotions 
Whispers come 
Nothing mends
Darkness consumes 
Mania comes 
Insanity starts 
Crimson hope 
31
Barely sane
I find my Lord 
Again once again 
To have some hope 
That a cure may be found 
For God promised 
Allah does not corrupt 
But soothe the unworthy 
The fools within the world 
To open your heart 
Find Faith again 
To lose once more 
To find again 
To practice hope 
To fight the darkness 
To conquer the light 
My journey begins once again 
Within the dunya
34
Last visit for a while 
Those walls that stare
With boredom comes confusion 
For the first day comes 
When sanity is here 
Insane in the membrane 
The units are gone 
Never again 
I can conquer all 
With Allah Almighty 
He beats the darkness 
And brings the Noor 
38 
Made a mistake 
Half the deen 
Comes to an end 
Start another and be on the mend 
To open up fully 
To stop the blade, for the crimson calls me 
Up down all around 
But with eman 
Truly is not lost 
For Islam is the best medicine for the heart 
Finding hope for the future 
Hoping more for worthlessness to leave 
Having hope and not be hopeless. That is the task 
The task at hand