hello you

Hello illusion, I do not dare 

To decide what to do 

Pitter patter let's get at er

Rocking nothing but destruction 

Time will tell where to go 

Hello delusion, what shall you bring today 

Hey insane membrane 

Don't you tempt me to do 

The darkness that resides in my heart 

To do the deadly deed 

To rupture one's mind 

Leaving nothing but bruises by 

Breaking rebuilding breaking down 

Hitting the ground 

Hello illusion are you here been my will 

Currently wanting to live 

Is it worthwhile 

For the insane world at is

Why is it one? Medication is so much money 

That the medical will not even cover it 

So I'm here staring so blankly 

So bravely upon time to tell 

Hello delusion, what is it but happiness is the illusion of the delusion 

Artificial Bliss shall I dismiss 

To seek refuge in the Lord 

Granting me serenity 

Giving me the courage 

And the wisdom to know the difference 

But I'm here. Pondering 

What will come of this 

To seek your faith with the Lord 

To keep The whispers at Bay 

But those patterns here and there 

Is that what sanity is 

Unable to hold on tight 

Losing my grasp 

To break free upon this insanity 

Nothing stops the patterns from coming 

Only one thing that one cannot acquire 

So seeking the Lord upon this insane membrane 

Look here 

Pattern that surely is near 

Tempted by the blade 

Called by the flame 

To rip and tear 

The devourer is here 

Holding tight 

To not lose my grasp to the light 

Follow me upon this insane membrane 

Pattern here pattern there. Hello here! Hello there 

Does it make sense this confusion of the mind 

Breaking point now 

Do I dare to do a deadly deed or do I power on and seek serenity 

Am I ready to bleed 

Shall I be on the mend 

Slipping away from sanity 

Twisting and turning my heart 

Where will I go from here 

Tomorrow never comes 

For tomorrow will be today 

So hope for another day 

So one does not fade away

to not despair

You are my hope my only hope 

To bring me to Serene serenity

Who are you? Who calls my heart 

To the noor of all that lives

It shakes inside my heart 

Take me from the despair 

Bring in serenity near and dear 

Hoping for something more 

In this place so many want to die 

But here I am not alone 

For the almighty is on my side 

He sends the Angels to watch over his creation 

He grants protection to his slaves 

Allah The one and only 

I call you to my heart 

To break my will 

So you can guide me with qadar 

Is this Destiny to bring in the Hope 

To never despair

For the one that Snickers is on our case 

What will come from this chaos of the heart 

What will bring me close to you oh Allah 

But to stand to the Lord and call upon him to save you from the insanity 

You offer your prayer to him 

The only the one Allah 

You are the light to the darkness 

Even if it flickers 

That candle light that's in your soul 

For shaytan tries to blow it out 

With his whispers and his deviance 

Will I find serenity 

With Allah in my heart 

Tumbling down the stairs 

Wanting everything to end 

But I here I am, bending my will 

To not follow the nafs 

To keep me clean from the najs

Promise me I say to myself 

That I will not break my eman 

To seek the Lord always and time that despairs 

To bring my heart close, closer than it's ever been 

Lord I call upon you 

Allah the Almighty The greatest of all

Allahu Akbar 

Call upon serenity 

For God to grant us Serene thoughts 

To keep those who conquer our souls 

To those who wants to deviate our path 

What to do but worship the Lord 

Almighty Allah bless my soul

Soothe my heart

Take me from the darkest moments 

Granting me peace, of this serenity 

To seek the Lord Almighty 

To bring Allah close 

All you need to do 

Is to call to him to allow you to follow the path of the Sunnah 

Is it written for you and I 

Glorious Lord, I call upon you 

Save me from myself 

Bring in hope 

And never despair 

For Allah is with me always 

Even when you are alone, Allah is always by your side 

So bring in the peace of mind 

Away from the confusion. 

Diffusion illusion delusion of the mind

Allah save me always

the mist of insanity

Help me

Save me

End me

Devil in white

Pure insanity 

Snickering 

Breaking thy will 

Hope for today

For tomorrow never comes

Is life a gift

But a dew drop 

Reckon he's right

They must be

Full of this insanity 

Let my will break

Falling into the abyss

Surely to dismiss

My soul

Gone and lost

Tarnished 

Desperately seeking

The light, to conquer 

Will the Lord be on my side

What will come

If tomorrow is gone 

What must I do

I'm lost in the mist

Who will be my guide

Insanely wanting more

Something that is hope

whispering rage

Boiling point reach

Feeling uncertain 

Bend my will

Take moments to burst

Tears roll down

Unable to stand

This moment that he demands

Flooding of emotions

The whispers no longer slumber

Tag your it says one 

Another says choke them all

There's one that is quiet 

Barely speaks

Dial 911

Help and save me 

From the disaster 

Leave it at bay, the quiet one open up

Saying to destroy, but who

Myself for I am tarnished 

Breaking my will 

Bending to break 

Tick tock on the rock

Something more to be

But this disaster stands upon me

Let the rage consume everything

Leaving me soulless 

I'm a blank canvas 

Blend the red into the blue 

For it shall consume

Tarnished soul

Worthless one

What will break

But my will

Talk talk talk again

Listen to the beats 

To make it quick

Try not to drown in the flood that comes

Break free from the insanity 

surfing insanity

Screaming insanity, wondering what this blessing is

Unable to cope, where to go 

Hell bound heaven unable to go

Surfing the lava

The fire calls me

Unable to cope

Ruptured 

Hatred 

Chaos 

What will come 

Upon a time to tell

Once this girl 

Cried until chaos came 

The darkness seeks 

The desire of her despair 

What will come of this chaos that is 

On a time to tell 

What will come

Cutting up the skin

Burning to be prepared 

For the hell fire

It calls me

To die until the hereafter

Bless my soul

Burn my spirit 

What will come of this game

This hatred brings me close 

Shall I choose, what will it be

To live in misery 

To end it all only to be resurrected 

Upon thy lord, I plea

He doesn't hear my heart

Upon this insanity 

Allah what will I do

This is but the matrix 

What is this illusion

To The delusion 

What am I supposed to do 

Destined for the fire

Forgotten 

Lost

Broken 

Hurt me

I plea

Ruptured soul 

Hatred of the heart

Blessed is me, upon this insanity

Destined for inspection of the mind

Lobotomy seeking

Only to be denied 

Save me, cure me

Allah I call upon you

The whispers that be

Call me and call me again and again

For I am lost 

Will I cope

Unable to breath

Suffocating disease 

Upon this deed

Sinning always me why would Allah help me

For designed this chaos of heart 

Let me be free

If this destruction of the heart 

Destroys the soul 

Ruptured is me 

Well this insanity be 

Far from me 

To seek the Lord indeed 

Allah the almighty 

Seeking this serenity 

Always far from me

Let me breathe

The final breath

Please come for me

That will be all

Until next time that be's

breaking

Stuck in the abyss

Raging this moment

Ruptured my heart

My soul reaks of despair 

Up up down down

All around

Doctors and nurses

Chaos

What will they say

Frustrated mind

Break me

The powers that be

What is destiny

Let me breathe

Unable to cope

Just fester like your nothing 

Missing something

What is serenity 

Let me be free

Hang me

Cut me 

Let me bleed 

Suffering always

Rupture my head

Pain without sanity 

Just to end it all

What is life

But have patience

Break my rage in half

Betting that the tips will cure me

1 pill 2 pills 3 or so more 

Will this chaos break

Help me, save me

Break free

from finish line to the end

From start to finish 

What will come 

Upon a time 

In a secluded room 

And one takes their head penetrate their mind 

What is it like to be but to just survive 

Upon a time to tell 

Hope is gone 

Lost within the abyss 

The raptured feelings shall I dismiss. 

What will come of the game 

The insanity of pain 

For the rage goes on but not for others 

But for self 

I don't call to the Lord in times of needs 

Am I a lost sheep within the mist 

Waiting for my shepherd to guide me so 

Wanting the light to consume myself nothing will bring peace

Had throbbing mind 

Concussion here it comes 

Will I break free from this 

Hate and love for oneself. A confusion that's mixed 

Shall I dismiss 

What has it meant to be 

But to survive the powers of be that be 

What is my destiny 

How well I overcome this insanity 

Let me breathe those deep breaths 

Insanity in the membrane 

Take a plate and slip one's throat 

Take a fist and rupture the head 

Ready the flame for a disaster 

So many resources. Not enough answers 

What will come from this disaster 

What will bring me close to the Lord 

I tarnish soul ready to die

Will I if I ever survive this hate in this world that I have for myself 

Destiny is here and near and cannot change 

To suffer is purpose 

To save oneself, one cannot do 

For I am tarnished 

Just break me for I am fragile 

I am the illusion of the delusion 

Delusion to the break what Destiny's meant to be the purpose of life but to survive suffer evermore ever less ending more