5
Start this time
Time again
Through the pain
And regret
There was once happiness
Smiling with true glee
Having my true love near me
Wandering though the thick mist
To dismiss, with the qadar
7
World ends, darkness is the mend
Love lost, to never return
Till dusk comes now
Upon this time to tell
Sadness trust
Trusting with certainty
Depression starts
Lost with the darkness
8
Hold the clippers tight
Grasp the metal of the blade
Crimson hope
10
One of the grand has gone
What's left of the heart that beats
Falls far into the abyss
I shall not dismiss
Lost in worthlessness
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Made it this far
Astonished to the max
Thinking destined for failure
But striving on
Not letting the big one take you down
Letting The whispers stay behind
20
Made it finally, to the top
Many laughed, holding their judgment above their heads
Proud with this forgotten glee
Accomplished so much yet. So little
Lost within abyss
Finding hope
Beyond the delusions
Seeking for truth
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Through thought and meditation
Through Carnage and hope
Through darkness to light
To find something so pure
Found me Allah Almighty
Set me Free
To fight the darkness
And leave it at the bay
To allow noor
Flicker within the darkness
Something starts once again
Finding purpose
That is Hope
Having worth, to not break
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Pitter pattern. Let's get at em
The monsters come
Vision corrupted
Hope is lost
There is no cure
What to do
Look for Hope
Losing faith
Covering the truth
Haunting emotions
Whispers come
Nothing mends
Darkness consumes
Mania comes
Insanity starts
Crimson hope
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Barely sane
I find my Lord
Again once again
To have some hope
That a cure may be found
For God promised
Allah does not corrupt
But soothe the unworthy
The fools within the world
To open your heart
Find Faith again
To lose once more
To find again
To practice hope
To fight the darkness
To conquer the light
My journey begins once again
Within the dunya
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Last visit for a while
Those walls that stare
With boredom comes confusion
For the first day comes
When sanity is here
Insane in the membrane
The units are gone
Never again
I can conquer all
With Allah Almighty
He beats the darkness
And brings the Noor
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Made a mistake
Half the deen
Comes to an end
Start another and be on the mend
To open up fully
To stop the blade, for the crimson calls me
Up down all around
But with eman
Truly is not lost
For Islam is the best medicine for the heart
Finding hope for the future
Hoping more for worthlessness to leave
Having hope and not be hopeless. That is the task
The task at hand