Sunday, July 12, 2026

splendor perfection

Spring wonder 
Amazing bliss
Shall this be dismissed?
The Sun shines on the dime 
Wondering if it's too be
Full of uncertainty 
Let breathe
Wonders of the day
To conquer there solitude 
Splendor that the conqueror brings 
To be consumed by Bliss 
It shall not be dismissed 
Until the time comes 
When the sun arrives from the 
East 
To the Sun that brings the heat 
And what it brings. Wonder when it sets in the 
West glorious is the sky in the night 
The Moon shines bright 
To bring the tide in 
And out it goes 
Splendor indeed 
What shall it be 
The night that comes to see 
The speckling Stars 
Shining bright 
The spring is gone 
The summer has come 
The heat of the night 
Shall not dismiss 
The wind comes and brings Bliss 
The deer wanders 
Avoiding the carnivars 
The carnivores look and seek the meat that they need to survive 
This is how the circle of life goes 
And comes the summer and brings the Bliss 
Something I truly miss 
For God calls upon 
All the flowers of May 
The flowers of June 
The apples of the Fall 
The leaves that sway in the deep 
Gold and red and yellow 
Swaying in the wind 
Piling on the ground 
Sweeping up the Bliss 
Bringing in the cold 
Setting up for Burr the night 
The stars are here and there 
Winter is come here. We stare 
Winter winter when will you go 
The blanket of snow 
The shivers of the night 
Moving on as the wolf howls at the moon 
The blanket of night has come to bring doom 
Only a long slumber has the spring has been. It was slumber no longer come March 
And shall we be dismissed in this 
No for the seasons shall be Bliss 
What did I miss 
Glorious is God and all his wonder 
The seasons to come 
The nature that be 
Es this is what perfection is


Wednesday, July 8, 2026

just breathe

From the darkness that creeps
Is it from within? 
Will darkness take over the light
For the noor is fading
I feel lost, way past the bend
Far from the mend 
What will hit me next? 
Emptiness I rather have than overbearing emotions
My face is burning from the tears from other the years 
These crimson emotions costume
What will come of this?
I call out to my Lord
Will he save me? 
For I am tarnished, worthless, and unworthy of any love from him
To sink into the abyss
Will I finish dismissal to the darkness
Seeking the light
Calling to the Lord
To save me
Even though I'm worthless and unworthy
Can I save myself?
With these words that I scribe 
Bring me close
Oh Allah
Help me help myself
With writing the heart out
Feeling everything
But being empty 
What a feeling? 
Ok let's start 
1 breathe in 2 breathe out
Repeat until the darkness it dismissed 
To fall for you Lord
What am I? But tarnished 
To see the crimson 
To let it flow 
To write your heart out
Feeling uncertainty 
Help me be redeemed 
I call upon the light that is Allah
Complete noor
For the unworthy
Just let me breathe
These deep breaths
Just breathe
And be

chaos reaps

Why the burning
Pleading to the Lord
To save me from the destruction
Pitter tatter where to go?
They stare so plainly
They be not of good nor bad 
Let the emotions flow 
The crimson breeze 
I breath the chaos
I just need to be
Away from the destruction 
I am what I reap 
Yes you come here
The whispering shaking the soul
Golden light tries to break the darkness
Let the whispering disappear 
Calling to Lord, to save me from myself
I love sure love, not really not very much
Self love waivers as the chaos reaps
With Allah with me, will I break free? 
Will the insanity fail at acquiring hope
What is this?  What will this mean?
Stuck in this mood
Dare I speak, just be
Stuck in chaos 
I'm not afraid
The burning emotions roll down
My Mannequin face 
For if pitter pattern real
Hoping for crimson breeze 
But even failing at that
Leaving it all behind
Even if the shadows plea with the whispering 
Surely never free
Reaching out
Is this the last time? 
Break free

Friday, June 19, 2026

saving self

Screaming to save my life
What to do? 
Where to go?
Hurt here and there
Slice the blades go
What to bring? But devastation 
Should I let the monster go
As it seems my soul
You rip and tear 
Bringing durastrous deeds 
Can someone save me
Only I can save myself
Following the dragon no more
Suffocation to the climax 
Falling into the abyss
Sure let's go, chaos of the soul
The snickering voices 
Pitter pattern 
Come and go
Let's go
Bringing hope to all
Not just me
Saving my life
Save myself
In this devastation of a world 
Trying to break free
Failing always
Fighting always
Reserve my rights 
To decide what is needed 
To not let the darkness reside 
To let the noor in
Saving self
Ok let's go

helping saving

Help me and save me
Oh Allah the most beloved
Love the Lord, with all your might
Bring in the fight 
For your never alone
Even when your soul drops
Down to the darkness
When the hope weithers
Worry not for the light is not diminished 
For the noor never does
Not since love came into my heart
I yern for the most beloved and Almighty 
La illah il allah
Save me from the darkness within my soul
What should I do
My hope is with the Lord 
Worship one and only
To breathe deep breaths 
To center my soul
Beimg perhaps seeking something 
Will I hone to what I know
The Peace and Noor
Conquering my nafs
That divert me from it
Oh Allah guide me always
Even if one is tarnished 
Hope for today for tomorrow never comes

Monday, June 1, 2026

Old habits

Tap tap tap goes to start 
Trapped in the jukebox 
With a million songs around 
Unable to cope 
Going back to old habits 
Cutting up the world 
Chaos of the heart 
Wondering what to do 
If this is meant to be 
Stuck in the insanity 
Of the mind and the Sea 
The illusion of the heart 
The ocean of abyss 
The emptiness that consumes 
The loneliness that reaps 
Conquering this 
Wondering what to do 
Coping. Hoping loving needing 
Everything being 
A slip to the heart 
The pain that is 
Eternal in the heart 
A thousand needles 
Stuck into me
Labels that be 
Only time will tell 
To start again 
One more time 
In this abyss 
But I shall dismiss 
For the light is near 
Hoping so anyways

Tuesday, April 7, 2026

Sorrows come and go

Down streaming, the cloud's coming
Bringing the sorrow, upon the tears that drop
Burning so slightly, shall I do the deadly deed? 
The night is near but never great l fear 
The great power is near 
He hears all, knows all
The merciful the Lord
He calls me
The night coming to an end
Will this be possible 
To bend and not break
Losing my mind to the confusion 
Now break up, leave the bad deeds 
Finally I breathe those deep breaths 
My slumber comes to an end
For the call comes 
With dawn to start 
Have I been good
I wonder....
I offer my Salah to the Almighty
The Lord calls me
Stuck in the chaos of the mind
Will the reciting save me
I shall bend not breaking
Offer my my self
To you Lord of lords 
Help me break free
Shahadah 
There is no God but Allah and his messenger is Muhammed
Breaking free from najs
The days come and go
Running out of time
Will this end, bring peace
To overcome the nafs
Come and go
Bringing peace of mind
Allah always will guide me