Tuesday, April 7, 2026

Sorrows come and go

Down streaming, the cloud's coming
Bringing the sorrow, upon the tears that drop
Burning so slightly, shall I do the deadly deed? 
The night is near but never great l fear 
The great power is near 
He hears all, knows all
The merciful the Lord
He calls me
The night coming to an end
Will this be possible 
To bend and not break
Losing my mind to the confusion 
Now break up, leave the bad deeds 
Finally I breathe those deep breaths 
My slumber comes to an end
For the call comes 
With dawn to start 
Have I been good
I wonder....
I offer my Salah to the Almighty
The Lord calls me
Stuck in the chaos of the mind
Will the reciting save me
I shall bend not breaking
Offer my my self
To you Lord of lords 
Help me break free
Shahadah 
There is no God but Allah and his messenger is Muhammed
Breaking free from najs
The days come and go
Running out of time
Will this end, bring peace
To overcome the nafs
Come and go
Bringing peace of mind
Allah always will guide me


Wednesday, February 4, 2026

Echo's

Lift my emotions up
Seeking cloud 9
Isn't it Divine to be in this time
Feeling the Echo's of anxiety 
Hold me close
Oh Allah the Almighty, the most Forgiving 
Feeding me to the wolves of the soul 
Ravished am I 
Hoping for something more
Surely spectacular 
Pitter pattern 
Chaos of the heart 
The beast breaking free
To rawr as emotions flood my every being 
Turning to the Lord
To wash away the sins
My mind can't expand more
I'm drowning in my nafs
Working hard for hell 
Seeking the light
Will I break free, is this destined for me
To truly be full of insanity 
Holding my breath
Hoping for life to consume
To seek the Almighty Allah 
In the times of need
But not only that
Alhamdulillah  for everything
Even the patterns 
Locking on
Let me breathe those breathes 
To save me from the chaos 
Seeking love, finding hate 
The never ending insanity vibes
It seeks me but I will break free I'm from the najs
Pleading with Allah
To save me from myself
Break free from the shackles that be
Just breathe, let's get ready
For a new day, bringing hope
For now anyways 
Seeking the Noor, consuming me
Hey let it be
Just be free
Seeking the good
Falling from time to time
Not broken but rebuilding 
Smile always
Alhamdulillah  

Friday, January 9, 2026

Letting me be

Broken stars in the nights sky
Shining once to blighty 
To fade into the abyss 
Does this dismiss 
What's to come, break
Unable to cope, pen to paper
Breaking insanity 
Can I breath
Suffocating on Bliss 
Days go by
Smile it's ok
Even when hate resides on my side
Breaking in this bend surely will this be on the mend
Smile softly 
Always watching the patterns glow
Will I ever be free
From this insanity 
Fighting kicking and streaming 
The tears roll 
Am I on the mend
Trying always to be here
Breaking stars across the vision 
What is real 
Pitter patterns let me bare 
Slightly better
As the words release me
Let me be

Tuesday, November 4, 2025

hello you

Hello illusion, I do not dare 
To decide what to do 
Pitter patter let's get at er
Rocking nothing but destruction 
Time will tell where to go 
Hello delusion, what shall you bring today 
Hey insane membrane 
Don't you tempt me to do 
The darkness that resides in my heart 
To do the deadly deed 
To rupture one's mind 
Leaving nothing but bruises by 
Breaking rebuilding breaking down 
Hitting the ground 
Hello illusion are you here been my will 
Currently wanting to live 
Is it worthwhile 
For the insane world at is
Why is it one? Medication is so much money 
That the medical will not even cover it 
So I'm here staring so blankly 
So bravely upon time to tell 
Hello delusion, what is it but happiness is the illusion of the delusion 
Artificial Bliss shall I dismiss 
To seek refuge in the Lord 
Granting me serenity 
Giving me the courage 
And the wisdom to know the difference 
But I'm here. Pondering 
What will come of this 
To seek your faith with the Lord 
To keep The whispers at Bay 
But those patterns here and there 
Is that what sanity is 
Unable to hold on tight 
Losing my grasp 
To break free upon this insanity 
Nothing stops the patterns from coming 
Only one thing that one cannot acquire 
So seeking the Lord upon this insane membrane 
Look here 
Pattern that surely is near 
Tempted by the blade 
Called by the flame 
To rip and tear 
The devourer is here 
Holding tight 
To not lose my grasp to the light 
Follow me upon this insane membrane 
Pattern here pattern there. Hello here! Hello there 
Does it make sense this confusion of the mind 
Breaking point now 
Do I dare to do a deadly deed or do I power on and seek serenity 
Am I ready to bleed 
Shall I be on the mend 
Slipping away from sanity 
Twisting and turning my heart 
Where will I go from here 
Tomorrow never comes 
For tomorrow will be today 
So hope for another day 
So one does not fade away

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

to not despair

You are my hope my only hope 
To bring me to Serene serenity
Who are you? Who calls my heart 
To the noor of all that lives
It shakes inside my heart 
Take me from the despair 
Bring in serenity near and dear 
Hoping for something more 
In this place so many want to die 
But here I am not alone 
For the almighty is on my side 
He sends the Angels to watch over his creation 
He grants protection to his slaves 
Allah The one and only 
I call you to my heart 
To break my will 
So you can guide me with qadar 
Is this Destiny to bring in the Hope 
To never despair
For the one that Snickers is on our case 
What will come from this chaos of the heart 
What will bring me close to you oh Allah 
But to stand to the Lord and call upon him to save you from the insanity 
You offer your prayer to him 
The only the one Allah 
You are the light to the darkness 
Even if it flickers 
That candle light that's in your soul 
For shaytan tries to blow it out 
With his whispers and his deviance 
Will I find serenity 
With Allah in my heart 
Tumbling down the stairs 
Wanting everything to end 
But I here I am, bending my will 
To not follow the nafs 
To keep me clean from the najs
Promise me I say to myself 
That I will not break my eman 
To seek the Lord always and time that despairs 
To bring my heart close, closer than it's ever been 
Lord I call upon you 
Allah the Almighty The greatest of all
Allahu Akbar 
Call upon serenity 
For God to grant us Serene thoughts 
To keep those who conquer our souls 
To those who wants to deviate our path 
What to do but worship the Lord 
Almighty Allah bless my soul
Soothe my heart
Take me from the darkest moments 
Granting me peace, of this serenity 
To seek the Lord Almighty 
To bring Allah close 
All you need to do 
Is to call to him to allow you to follow the path of the Sunnah 
Is it written for you and I 
Glorious Lord, I call upon you 
Save me from myself 
Bring in hope 
And never despair 
For Allah is with me always 
Even when you are alone, Allah is always by your side 
So bring in the peace of mind 
Away from the confusion. 
Diffusion illusion delusion of the mind
Allah save me always

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

the mist of insanity

Help me
Save me
End me
Devil in white
Pure insanity 
Snickering 
Breaking thy will 
Hope for today
For tomorrow never comes
Is life a gift
But a dew drop 
Reckon he's right
They must be
Full of this insanity 
Let my will break
Falling into the abyss
Surely to dismiss
My soul
Gone and lost
Tarnished 
Desperately seeking
The light, to conquer 
Will the Lord be on my side
What will come
If tomorrow is gone 
What must I do
I'm lost in the mist
Who will be my guide
Insanely wanting more
Something that is hope

whispering rage

Boiling point reach
Feeling uncertain 
Bend my will
Take moments to burst
Tears roll down
Unable to stand
This moment that he demands
Flooding of emotions
The whispers no longer slumber
Tag your it says one 
Another says choke them all
There's one that is quiet 
Barely speaks
Dial 911
Help and save me 
From the disaster 
Leave it at bay, the quiet one open up
Saying to destroy, but who
Myself for I am tarnished 
Breaking my will 
Bending to break 
Tick tock on the rock
Something more to be
But this disaster stands upon me
Let the rage consume everything
Leaving me soulless 
I'm a blank canvas 
Blend the red into the blue 
For it shall consume
Tarnished soul
Worthless one
What will break
But my will
Talk talk talk again
Listen to the beats 
To make it quick
Try not to drown in the flood that comes
Break free from the insanity