just breathe

From the darkness that creeps

Is it from within? 

Will darkness take over the light

For the noor is fading

I feel lost, way past the bend

Far from the mend 

What will hit me next? 

Emptiness I rather have than overbearing emotions

My face is burning from the tears from other the years 

These crimson emotions costume

What will come of this?

I call out to my Lord

Will he save me? 

For I am tarnished, worthless, and unworthy of any love from him

To sink into the abyss

Will I finish dismissal to the darkness

Seeking the light

Calling to the Lord

To save me

Even though I'm worthless and unworthy

Can I save myself?

With these words that I scribe 

Bring me close

Oh Allah

Help me help myself

With writing the heart out

Feeling everything

But being empty 

What a feeling? 

Ok let's start 

1 breathe in 2 breathe out

Repeat until the darkness it dismissed 

To fall for you Lord

What am I? But tarnished 

To see the crimson 

To let it flow 

To write your heart out

Feeling uncertainty 

Help me be redeemed 

I call upon the light that is Allah

Complete noor

For the unworthy

Just let me breathe

These deep breaths

Just breathe

And be

chaos reaps

Why the burning

Pleading to the Lord

To save me from the destruction

Pitter tatter where to go?

They stare so plainly

They be not of good nor bad 

Let the emotions flow 

The crimson breeze 

I breath the chaos

I just need to be

Away from the destruction 

I am what I reap 

Yes you come here

The whispering shaking the soul

Golden light tries to break the darkness

Let the whispering disappear 

Calling to Lord, to save me from myself

I love sure love, not really not very much

Self love waivers as the chaos reaps

With Allah with me, will I break free? 

Will the insanity fail at acquiring hope

What is this?  What will this mean?

Stuck in this mood

Dare I speak, just be

Stuck in chaos 

I'm not afraid

The burning emotions roll down

My Mannequin face 

For if pitter pattern real

Hoping for crimson breeze 

But even failing at that

Leaving it all behind

Even if the shadows plea with the whispering 

Surely never free

Reaching out

Is this the last time? 

Break free

saving self

Screaming to save my life

What to do? 

Where to go?

Hurt here and there

Slice the blades go

What to bring? But devastation 

Should I let the monster go

As it seems my soul

You rip and tear 

Bringing durastrous deeds 

Can someone save me

Only I can save myself

Following the dragon no more

Suffocation to the climax 

Falling into the abyss

Sure let's go, chaos of the soul

The snickering voices 

Pitter pattern 

Come and go

Let's go

Bringing hope to all

Not just me

Saving my life

Save myself

In this devastation of a world 

Trying to break free

Failing always

Fighting always

Reserve my rights 

To decide what is needed 

To not let the darkness reside 

To let the noor in

Saving self

Ok let's go

helping saving

Help me and save me

Oh Allah the most beloved

Love the Lord, with all your might

Bring in the fight 

For your never alone

Even when your soul drops

Down to the darkness

When the hope weithers

Worry not for the light is not diminished 

For the noor never does

Not since love came into my heart

I yern for the most beloved and Almighty 

La illah il allah

Save me from the darkness within my soul

What should I do

My hope is with the Lord 

Worship one and only

To breathe deep breaths 

To center my soul

Beimg perhaps seeking something 

Will I hone to what I know

The Peace and Noor

Conquering my nafs

That divert me from it

Oh Allah guide me always

Even if one is tarnished 

Hope for today for tomorrow never comes

Old habits

Tap tap tap goes to start 

Trapped in the jukebox 

With a million songs around 

Unable to cope 

Going back to old habits 

Cutting up the world 

Chaos of the heart 

Wondering what to do 

If this is meant to be 

Stuck in the insanity 

Of the mind and the Sea 

The illusion of the heart 

The ocean of abyss 

The emptiness that consumes 

The loneliness that reaps 

Conquering this 

Wondering what to do 

Coping. Hoping loving needing 

Everything being 

A slip to the heart 

The pain that is 

Eternal in the heart 

A thousand needles 

Stuck into me

Labels that be 

Only time will tell 

To start again 

One more time 

In this abyss 

But I shall dismiss 

For the light is near 

Hoping so anyways

Sorrows come and go

Down streaming, the cloud's coming

Bringing the sorrow, upon the tears that drop

Burning so slightly, shall I do the deadly deed? 

The night is near but never great l fear 

The great power is near 

He hears all, knows all

The merciful the Lord

He calls me

The night coming to an end

Will this be possible 

To bend and not break

Losing my mind to the confusion 

Now break up, leave the bad deeds 

Finally I breathe those deep breaths 

My slumber comes to an end

For the call comes 

With dawn to start 

Have I been good

I wonder....

I offer my Salah to the Almighty

The Lord calls me

Stuck in the chaos of the mind

Will the reciting save me

I shall bend not breaking

Offer my my self

To you Lord of lords 

Help me break free

Shahadah 

There is no God but Allah and his messenger is Muhammed

Breaking free from najs

The days come and go

Running out of time

Will this end, bring peace

To overcome the nafs

Come and go

Bringing peace of mind

Allah always will guide me

Echo's

Lift my emotions up

Seeking cloud 9

Isn't it Divine to be in this time

Feeling the Echo's of anxiety 

Hold me close

Oh Allah the Almighty, the most Forgiving 

Feeding me to the wolves of the soul 

Ravished am I 

Hoping for something more

Surely spectacular 

Pitter pattern 

Chaos of the heart 

The beast breaking free

To rawr as emotions flood my every being 

Turning to the Lord

To wash away the sins

My mind can't expand more

I'm drowning in my nafs

Working hard for hell 

Seeking the light

Will I break free, is this destined for me

To truly be full of insanity 

Holding my breath

Hoping for life to consume

To seek the Almighty Allah 

In the times of need

But not only that

Alhamdulillah  for everything

Even the patterns 

Locking on

Let me breathe those breathes 

To save me from the chaos 

Seeking love, finding hate 

The never ending insanity vibes

It seeks me but I will break free I'm from the najs

Pleading with Allah

To save me from myself

Break free from the shackles that be

Just breathe, let's get ready

For a new day, bringing hope

For now anyways 

Seeking the Noor, consuming me

Hey let it be

Just be free

Seeking the good

Falling from time to time

Not broken but rebuilding 

Smile always

Alhamdulillah