what binds

Darkness that harness my soul

The Noor that binds my heart

Conflict from the najs

Something binds me

Unable to breath

What is keeping me

I hear the call

The light inside

That conquers all

Allah Allah help me so 

Bring in the light

To keep it tight

Conquer the najs

Allah the most beloved

Allah the Almighty 

Let me breath

Lightly it seems

Heavenly breaths

Deep breathing 

Bring hope inside

The heart that resides

To fight the darkness 

To bring in the light

To breathe easy

Call upon my heart

Allah I need

Allah the most forgiving

Forgive me

deemed smoke

I am a smoke screen 

Looking at me

You see the illusion

That's deemed for me

Upon a time to tell

I am powerful

I am strong 

Needing to be free if insanity 

I am a beautiful disaster 

Wanting something more

Something that life needs

Smile here

Nervous to be fully self

I am free

But smoke screen 

Fully dreaming

Illusion deemed 

Break free

Of the solitude 

What am I?

Naming what needs

To be me

Fully defeated 

Victor of the night

Breathing easy

Finally free

Just to be me

Smoke free

Destination deemed 

Finally here there everywhere

I am me

Steadfast

Allah you are my light

Without you I'm truly lost

Guide me through the darkness 

Hold my soul tight 

You are my Noor

Bring me hope for tomorrow

For you are the greatest

Oh Allah, I love you

The almighty 

Allah

I fall to my knees and beg you to save me

From the traps, of this world

Bringing peace to my heart

Guide my soul

I shall not break

My Eman is here

Steadfast 

Strong willed 

I'm lost without you

Allah give me shifa

Guide me through the Dunya 

Hold my heart tight 

Embrace my solitude 

I love you Allah 

Allahu Akbar

Help me conquer my nafs

I stand tall

Not breaking

Make me steadfast 

With my will 

Oh Allah Almighty

Bring me peace of mind

Allah the most beloved 

You are the best of the best

Guiding me so

That is peace

Islam is best for me

breaking sight

Twinkle twinkle on the time

Flicker here flicker there 

Every reflection 

Every time they come

Breaking my mind

My sanity fades 

Will this be the time

A rip my eyes out

Time fades 

Patterns here

Banging on my heart 

I begin to fade 

My heart thumps

Every so fast 

Will I just fade into the wall

Drifting every direction

Breaking my sanity

Shall I end this way 

Patterns coming 

Breaking my heart

Pleaing with my Lord

To save me from myself

Why oh why shall this be

Reaping the deadly deeds

Twinkle comes

Patterns here

What will be will be

Insanity at the brim

Self fades into stone

Falling from grace

What will be will be 

Insanity destined

Heavenly saved for another time

holding on to being

Waking up, holding tight the air from within

Breaking my hand 

It sure is a demand 

Upon faith to start

Oh Allah Grant me serenity

Holds me tight 

Bring me hope 

Away from the darkness 

Holding air tight 

Suffocating to the max 

Unable to cope 

Hoping for something more 

Upon a time to tell 

Destined to be 

Let me plea with my Lord indeed 

I fall to my knees and plea and plea 

To conquer the darkness 

To allow hope to consume 

To bring happiness 

That is what is sought 

A smile here. A smile there. A smile everywhere 

Where to go from here? 

Wanting something more 

Follow the light into the hole 

Where the rabbit follows you so 

Or are you following the rabbit instead? 

Crazy Beyond sanity 

Darkness here and light over there 

Where to go from here? 

On and on again 

Will that depend? 

Have some hope 

Gather the strength 

Bring the peace 

Oh Allah 

Where to go from here? 

Where to want to be? 

Allah said be be 

So here I am full of insanity 

Running on the treadmill to Hope 

Holding on to something 

To the light that resides in my heart 

To conquer the darkness 

To conquer something more 

Where to go from here?

Let it be let it be fully full of insanity 

I guess that is me 

Destined to be

Walking into the Abyss

Walking on sunshine 

Open your eyes

The patterns appear 

Causes nothing but anxiety 

One have another gave more

They stare so insanely 

Will this nightmare end

Happening from nothingness 

Pattern here 

The illusion of the delusion 

Wanting peace near 

Finding nothing but darkness 

Wanting nothing but hope 

Illusions why are they here? 

Will the cure come with hope? 

To plead with the Lord Allah 

Wanting nothing but it to end 

Up down all around 

Nothing but the delusion of the illusion 

Hoping for something more 

Reaping with the soul desires 

Nothing but an end 

To the insanity that bends 

The mind that sees 

Nothing but the illusion that he's

Jump! Hooray! Yippee! 

Lost within the insanity 

Is this truly what Allah wants me to be? 

Up down all around 

Pitter pattern. Let's get at it

Glimmering hope 

Carnage on it's way

Hoping for an ending

Let it be let it be

Even within this insanity 

Will I be free? 

Ever here ever more

Pleading with fate

Lightly here

Ponder until the chaos breaks

That cool and calm

Serenity gone

Nothing but disaster ahead

Falling to knees

Pleading for insanity to start at Bay

Lord oh help me

Conquer the illusion 

Please

I know I am not right

And fall for the najs

Tears reap my soul

As the patterns 

Are breaking my heart

Here to stay 

Will this end soon

I plead with you Lord 

Allah the only one for me

I plead

Insanity breaks me

What to do from here? 

Tears well up

Patterns stricken the sight

Unable to cope

Wanting the flame

The blade

Is this fate?

So here I am being

For Allah says be

Even within the illusions

That be

Serenity give me the strength

To conquer the nags

Patterns go from me

Let me be free

Please oh Lord Allah

Save me from myself

Me my oh my

What to do

But plea 

To conquer the najs

Will it free me

Let it be

Full of insanity 

Just be