What is this?

Where do I stand upon this mind
That see's beyoung what is reality
Is this deemed for me
Bless me
Here I am
Destranged upon the sanity

I am scared
By what society has deemed me
In this day to come
What is meant to be to see
Well this is inanity
My mind is distranged beyond the bliss
I scream
What am I meant to be
So I plea and plea
With God almighty

I waiver who doesnt
we all do
and some more than most
I call upon Allah to help me conquer my heart
I bleed and scorned to be upon the blissed
This is whats meant to be
For me anyways
I wish I could Think diffiretly
But this is me
Yes no lie
This is me
I hurt more than most
Am i strong
only with you
Allahu Allhu
with me
inshallah
dont be afraid
For God is all knowing
All mericful
Bismillah arhaman arheem
Thats enought for me

Deen

Oh Allah
I thankful for what has to to be
Inshallah
IT will help me
To conquer the darkness and aqquire the light
My heart beats so rapidly
I still am strained
But
Inshallah
I will conquer the darkness
And share the light
That noor is meant for all
Man and Jinn akind
Nature will you pray
Show me the way
As the mountain offers their salah
I stand and bow and protrate
For you Alone
Alhamduillah
Boy am I full of noor
For my eman is higher than the past
I suffer
But I am Free
To be
For Allah said
inshallah
Let peace be brought to heart and soul
To conquer the darkness
And let the light shine
Inshallah
We all will fight darkness
in this time and day
Its our fate
For the ummah within the dunya in the deen
Thank you
Ukhti and Akhi
For helping me
Showing the sunnah
The way
As we pray as the prophet SAW
Alhamduillah for him
To be the seal and to bring perfect perfection
The Quran
The true and final word of God
inshallah
We suffer
But never lose hope
I suppose I am worthwhile
Allahu allim
We were meant to be
For Allah said be
So say with me
Alhamduillah
For islam
The true deen

Stray

As the mind twists and turn
I feel so alone and lost within the abyss
But here I am being
Just as it was said to Be
To ponder upon the nights sky
To define what is in the eye
Bliss deemed for all
I am good
I am  Bad
Alhamduillah I love you
I truly love Allah with my heart and soul
But I drift and shift and turn
Beyond that bend
Does this define what is behide the bliss
When it withers
Sun soaked bliss
Of everlasting light
So come with me tonight
As I slumber waiting for dawn
Hoping to submit to the one and only
That is Allah
Do you know what haq is?
yes but  I stray
I return to bliss
And let it define you as it did me
Never loose hope
Allah is always with you
Never alone
To conquer the darkness
perhaps tonight