struggling

Feeling lost beyond the bend

I offer my Dua to clear my heart

To allow Allah to bear witness to my pain

To perhaps bring an ease

To this Insanity

Finally does everyone see

That with this my darkness wins

To cut and bleed

Devouring for insanity

This is me

I want to stop quivering

May this happen if it's deemed d

If not

I no longer want to fight the fight

As I am me

Nicely seemly free

The abyss is here

Ready to drag you in

The darkness follows

Do you know

That emptiness is here

Beyond Bliss

Do not worry

For Allah is by your side

Drifting

The desire is near, is it time to blame?

Reckon what is right within the light

Time to say, with the chaos of the heart as we hear doom

Are we ready?

I feel lost with the abyss, ready the blade

To suffer, blustering to the brim

To scream for blackness reckons me

Happening now then everywhere

Illusions of the heart terror Bliss hope worry

Am I lost?

I feel so

I want to be free but I find myself a slave

The devouring

Ripping The reality

The addiction to the artificial bliss

Here I am wanting nothing but pure sanity

I am lost, not knowing the known