Holding to Fight

Knock knock

At the hearts door

I stare so blindly at my destiny 

Was this meant for me

Shall I open a  verse and recite thee

I'm drowning hoping that Allah will save me so

Auuthoo Billah mina shayton ajeem

I seek refuge in God from the accursed Satan

I'm barely here, That breath but that life you wrote for me

Does it set me free

I am tarnished

Am I still muslim

I pray to thee lord destined not just for me

But for every being that was To BE

I'm still barely holding on to my sanity

Those patterns follow me

In my sight barely being

they are a reality as i see them but only to me

Swallow this

Jinn if you ever being in me

To hold against the deen in this dunya 

I scream so silently but worry not for Allah hears all our cries and knows all our fears

I fear you 

Oh Allah almighty and the one to save humanity and jinns to be

I fear your might

Almighty merciful Allah that sees all hearts follow our nafs

Which a good 

Which are bad

We have the Words to tell us so

Follow me i'm floating up to surface

And here I am

Still followed by the faces that are patterns

I plead and will plea until the day of judgement

Then you have eternal right to deem me where

But please dont lose me

I'm trying hard to not float along

But to fight against the current

That is my jihad for me you and them

Uncertainty

Yes I'm loud and proud to be queer even in this deen of uncertainty to be free

I'm no better then another

But yes please be with me

For laughs

Cheer and sure beer up a pint

I care not to partake

But know a good time either way

Guess what love is what we need

For me you and yes them

Be good kind and do the deeds to better the ummah and humanity

I am standing at the bar

All the people are laughing

With the delusion of good cheer

My nafs are strong as I fall to my knees

Wondering what come of me

Stuck in addiction

Puff Puff Pass

It destroys life

I breath ever so deeply

I wander in society

Is this what's meant for me

Keep on saying as Salaam alaikum

Keep praying to Almighty the Lord

Allahu Allahu do you hear me

I plead what I been guilty with

Please Allahu forgive what I do

I'm stuck in my addiction

Ready to kneel and submitting my heart

To Allah

Lord Almighty forgive those who wander

Surely your flock wanders

I am ready

Let's go

Smile a Kindness

Happiness where do we find it?

Where but in people, they hope

Have willingness to be

Some of us suffer more than most

But that little light of mine shines in the darkness

Never wilting

I am me

Even within all this insanity of the world that's deemed for all

Crazy world we live in so many labels and judgements to go for all

But that little light of mine came a knockin

here I am

Smiling brightly because its a kindness and good deed

Best worthwhile to please another with a deed surely like this

Some of the best of deeds are the smallest

Help humanity

Respect the earth

Be peaceful

It's not a race

We may feel frustrated beyond the bend

Society is cruel

Do not judge them all

For hope is on our side

Some don't understand

It's up to us to educate

Dare i say share the knowledge in which you acquired

Here to stay in this world

I hope that you will join me hand in hand

Defining hope

We cannot do it alone, but we can with support from friends and family

Don't give up

You feel as though your lost

We all do from time to time

Just be

Breath deeply and lightly exhale

I'll say one more thing before this comes to an end

Smile dare you too

not just with you mouth but your eyes fro one can reflect a soul by their eyes

Smile on the inside before the outside

And that will save you from some of the insanity deemed for you and I