Holding to Fight

Knock knock

At the hearts door

I stare so blindly at my destiny 

Was this meant for me

Shall I open a  verse and recite thee

I'm drowning hoping that Allah will save me so

Auuthoo Billah mina shayton ajeem

I seek refuge in God from the accursed Satan

I'm barely here, That breath but that life you wrote for me

Does it set me free

I am tarnished

Am I still muslim

I pray to thee lord destined not just for me

But for every being that was To BE

I'm still barely holding on to my sanity

Those patterns follow me

In my sight barely being

they are a reality as i see them but only to me

Swallow this

Jinn if you ever being in me

To hold against the deen in this dunya 

I scream so silently but worry not for Allah hears all our cries and knows all our fears

I fear you 

Oh Allah almighty and the one to save humanity and jinns to be

I fear your might

Almighty merciful Allah that sees all hearts follow our nafs

Which a good 

Which are bad

We have the Words to tell us so

Follow me i'm floating up to surface

And here I am

Still followed by the faces that are patterns

I plead and will plea until the day of judgement

Then you have eternal right to deem me where

But please dont lose me

I'm trying hard to not float along

But to fight against the current

That is my jihad for me you and them