another time

Up another night

Holding back the burning tears

Yet this time is here

Shall I redeem myself

To plea to God Almighty

I believe I truly do

But bitter with Allah I am

For I'm so flawed

Will this moment ever end

Tears overcoming the mind

Falling so lightly

Tick tock on the clock

Time is but limitless

Moving on

Happiness can lead to despair

Mania on the mend

Will I ever mend?

Stuck in this chaos

Calculated Bliss

I shall dismiss

Drifting in and out of Dreamland

Will I awake tomorrow

Will my pleas be heard

For this heart to just stop

So all the pain of this world will be gone

So please

Here Now

Falling into grace

Perhaps it's not in this place

The emotions burn as the tears fall

Separate the feelings

I don't want to feel this 

It burns not so softly

Whisper here and near

Perhaps we shall escalate

Hoping for sanity

Hitting rock bottom

With my emotions

They say to heal

To speak

To share

Perhaps it will get better

I twist so violently

What is next for me

The emotions breath within me

For I am being

Following the leader

Harden soul meets the end

Falling through them looking glass

Follow that white rabbit down that hole

To the most of the abyss

Falling, screaming until no end

My heart rhythmed to the beat

Empathy for all, but not for me

I want happiness but it never comes

Down and what not

What will become of me?

Wondering if this insanity is meant for me

Is this Destiny?

Let me breath, I'm suffocating from all the rapid emotions

Ready set go

Up up up to cloud 9

Blissful deeds

Energy for me

Smile once smile twice

Happiness is that what I need

To fight on

Too break the desire

Devouring disorder

Will it end?

Unthinkable

Let us ponder