glorious heaven

Upon the light 

The world came to be 

Stunning perfection 

The year starts on 

Spring has come 

Snow is gone 

Melting disaster 

Weather warming 

Seeds are sowed 

To the soil, of the Earth 

Soon comes the showers 

To bring life 

To give us a gift 

As the water tapers off 

Here comes the flowers 

That bring us greenery

To feed the Earth 

Glorious is this world

Alhamduillah 

Fruits of bliss 

Greens for the heart

To grow big and strong 

The creatures that be

For humanity needs

Care for our world

We only have one in the dunya 

Summer breezes 

Flowers of the season 

Creatures frolic within the Meadows 

Dancing to serenity 

That the lord gave 

For perfect perfection at last 

Wonderful nights to cure the heat 

Glorious sunsets to the peak 

Time gets going 

Autumn is near and dear

Red and gold sways within the wind 

Gently comes down 

Giving thanks 

To Allah 

For this Grace of the world 

Soon comes 

Winter is here 

Blanket of whiteness snowfall Bliss 

Spectacle creations of perfection 

Individual snow flake 

Brr for the cold 

Hibernation for the creature 

Under the snow there is life 

Waiting for the spring to come 

Start again 

Upon this time 

Spring has sprung once again 

To start again 

Perfection

Life

5

Start this time 

Time again

Through the pain 

And regret

There was once happiness

Smiling with true glee

Having my true love near me 

Wandering though the thick mist

To dismiss, with the qadar

7

World ends, darkness is the mend 

Love lost, to never return

Till dusk comes now

Upon this time to tell

Sadness trust

Trusting with certainty 

Depression starts 

Lost with the darkness 

8

Hold the clippers tight 

Grasp the metal of the blade

Crimson hope

10

One of the grand has gone

What's left of the heart that beats

Falls far into the abyss

I shall not dismiss 

Lost in worthlessness 

16

Made it this far

Astonished to the max 

Thinking destined for failure 

But striving on 

Not letting the big one take you down 

Letting The whispers stay behind 

20

Made it finally, to the top

Many laughed, holding their judgment above their heads 

Proud with this forgotten glee

Accomplished so much yet. So little 

Lost within abyss 

Finding hope 

Beyond the delusions 

Seeking for truth 

23

Through thought and meditation 

Through Carnage and hope 

Through darkness to light 

To find something so pure 

Found me Allah Almighty 

Set me Free 

To fight the darkness 

And leave it at the bay 

To allow noor 

Flicker within the darkness 

Something starts once again

Finding purpose 

That is Hope 

Having worth, to not break

26

Pitter pattern. Let's get at em

The monsters come 

Vision corrupted 

Hope is lost 

There is no cure 

What to do 

Look for Hope 

Losing faith 

Covering the truth 

Haunting emotions 

Whispers come 

Nothing mends

Darkness consumes 

Mania comes 

Insanity starts 

Crimson hope 

31

Barely sane

I find my Lord 

Again once again 

To have some hope 

That a cure may be found 

For God promised 

Allah does not corrupt 

But soothe the unworthy 

The fools within the world 

To open your heart 

Find Faith again 

To lose once more 

To find again 

To practice hope 

To fight the darkness 

To conquer the light 

My journey begins once again 

Within the dunya

34

Last visit for a while 

Those walls that stare

With boredom comes confusion 

For the first day comes 

When sanity is here 

Insane in the membrane 

The units are gone 

Never again 

I can conquer all 

With Allah Almighty 

He beats the darkness 

And brings the Noor 

38 

Made a mistake 

Half the deen 

Comes to an end 

Start another and be on the mend 

To open up fully 

To stop the blade, for the crimson calls me 

Up down all around 

But with eman 

Truly is not lost 

For Islam is the best medicine for the heart 

Finding hope for the future 

Hoping more for worthlessness to leave 

Having hope and not be hopeless. That is the task 

The task at hand

calls me

I scream so silently

Let me breathe

But the insanity calls me

Holds me tight 

Cannot rationalize 

Darkness at the brim

Blank expressions 

What to do? 

Hold on to the emotions 

So 

Carnage on my soul

Can define me

Where to go? 

Following the delusional view 

Grasping for serenity 

Allah hold my soul 

Bring in the noor

To soothe the flame

For the eruption of the mount

Needs to conquer this trap 

What the dunya holds 

To hold on to hope

Seeking something

Is that insanity or serenity?

Perhaps I need to read

The word

Of Allah Almighty 

Allahu Akbar 

God is the greatest

For Allah shall guide my soul 

Away from the darkness

To breathe in the noor

Not to follow those deadly deeds

To seek serenity 

Holding onto hope 

Open up my eyes

Oh Lord of all

Allahu 

I love you

Will I love myself enough? 

Truly that is the question

Of the ages of my life

Allah save me from myself

I leave my heart to you

For I seek you always

Allah hear my silence 

Holding me dear

But I am deaf and blind

To the call of serenity 

Help me save my sanity 

Let me breathe

And bring in the peace

To set me free of the nafs

yin and yang

Crystal clear vision 

Upon this division 

Of the heart that you see 

That I wear on my sleeve 

Torn between two worlds 

Following cloud 9 

Not knowing if this is right 

Hoping that this is the right path 

Hoping that it doesn't turn into a disaster 

Kaleidoscope vision 

Pitter pattern here and there 

Unable to tell what is right 

Will I know this fight 

Upon a time to tell 

Once upon there was a soul who was free of this 

But July comes once again 

The end of the ends 

The never-ending depression 

I'm not as bad as what I was 

For the blade has not touched my skin for some time 

The flame is now just for The Herb 

Not the flesh 

The real challenge will be to stop completely 

19 months of bliss 

Only for it to be dismissed 

8 months of serene serenity 

Calling in for the chaos to come 

Something familiar 

Insanity at the max 

I hope I am doing the right thing 

Only time will tell 

Tick tock on the clock 

What will come next 

Suffocation to the max 

Or Bliss to serenity 

What will be what will be 

Even if it's full of insanity 

But is that not the norm 

Of this crazy world we live in 

You tell me

all over the place

Define as it seems 

This illusion is surely a delusional thing 

Up we go 

Not knowing what to do 

Lost to the patterns in the vision

Does it define what sanity is

Is such at a loss

Glittering disaster 

What to do

Upon this time to tell

Shall I reap my soul

To the almighty Allah

Bring me to peace 

Content with the chaos

These chains hold my heart

Hoping for serenity 

Let this be inshallah 

Unable to cope 

Will I loose hope 

But what it is be truly

Calculated chaos 

Everything comes to one

Seems I cannot bear

Insanity is here. Near and dear

Having somewhat this hope

Hoping for something more

Holding onto the chains that bare my soul

As I think of I was cured would I truly be me

As flaw do you see, so plainly

Bring solitude for the heart

The to hope of loneliness 

Seek the truth always 

Even when you can't grasp reality

dreaming of you

You message

I miss

I send text or two

You ignoring my heart and soul 

I want you to

Acknowledge me

Bringing hope to me

I think I love you

For this is a lifetime to come

Will you love me back 

I hope so

To take me from the darkness 

I want to serve you

To hope for you

Will you

Listen to me

I just want to be in your arms

I think I need you

Am I fool 

To believe this

Am I delusional 

Is this a hallucination 

To this nation

Is this attainable

I hope so

One can dream on