Thursday, July 24, 2025

yin and yang

Crystal clear vision 
Upon this division 
Of the heart that you see 
That I wear on my sleeve 
Torn between two worlds 
Following cloud 9 
Not knowing if this is right 
Hoping that this is the right path 
Hoping that it doesn't turn into a disaster 
Kaleidoscope vision 
Pitter pattern here and there 
Unable to tell what is right 
Will I know this fight 
Upon a time to tell 
Once upon there was a soul who was free of this 
But July comes once again 
The end of the ends 
The never-ending depression 
I'm not as bad as what I was 
For the blade has not touched my skin for some time 
The flame is now just for The Herb 
Not the flesh 
The real challenge will be to stop completely 
19 months of bliss 
Only for it to be dismissed 
8 months of serene serenity 
Calling in for the chaos to come 
Something familiar 
Insanity at the max 
I hope I am doing the right thing 
Only time will tell 
Tick tock on the clock 
What will come next 
Suffocation to the max 
Or Bliss to serenity 
What will be what will be 
Even if it's full of insanity 
But is that not the norm 
Of this crazy world we live in 
You tell me

Saturday, July 12, 2025

all over the place

Define as it seems 
This illusion is surely a delusional thing 
Up we go 
Not knowing what to do 
Lost to the patterns in the vision
Does it define what sanity is
Is such at a loss
Glittering disaster 
What to do
Upon this time to tell
Shall I reap my soul
To the almighty Allah
Bring me to peace 
Content with the chaos
These chains hold my heart
Hoping for serenity 
Let this be inshallah 
Unable to cope 
Will I loose hope 
But what it is be truly
Calculated chaos 
Everything comes to one
Seems I cannot bear
Insanity is here. Near and dear
Having somewhat this hope
Hoping for something more
Holding onto the chains that bare my soul
As I think of I was cured would I truly be me
As flaw do you see, so plainly
Bring solitude for the heart
The to hope of loneliness 
Seek the truth always 
Even when you can't grasp reality


Thursday, July 3, 2025

dreaming of you

You message
I miss
I send text or two
You ignoring my heart and soul 
I want you to
Acknowledge me
Bringing hope to me
I think I love you
For this is a lifetime to come
Will you love me back 
I hope so
To take me from the darkness 
I want to serve you
To hope for you
Will you
Listen to me
I just want to be in your arms
I think I need you
Am I fool 
To believe this
Am I delusional 
Is this a hallucination 
To this nation
Is this attainable
I hope so
One can dream on