Old habits

Tap tap tap goes to start 

Trapped in the jukebox 

With a million songs around 

Unable to cope 

Going back to old habits 

Cutting up the world 

Chaos of the heart 

Wondering what to do 

If this is meant to be 

Stuck in the insanity 

Of the mind and the Sea 

The illusion of the heart 

The ocean of abyss 

The emptiness that consumes 

The loneliness that reaps 

Conquering this 

Wondering what to do 

Coping. Hoping loving needing 

Everything being 

A slip to the heart 

The pain that is 

Eternal in the heart 

A thousand needles 

Stuck into me

Labels that be 

Only time will tell 

To start again 

One more time 

In this abyss 

But I shall dismiss 

For the light is near 

Hoping so anyways

Sorrows come and go

Down streaming, the cloud's coming

Bringing the sorrow, upon the tears that drop

Burning so slightly, shall I do the deadly deed? 

The night is near but never great l fear 

The great power is near 

He hears all, knows all

The merciful the Lord

He calls me

The night coming to an end

Will this be possible 

To bend and not break

Losing my mind to the confusion 

Now break up, leave the bad deeds 

Finally I breathe those deep breaths 

My slumber comes to an end

For the call comes 

With dawn to start 

Have I been good

I wonder....

I offer my Salah to the Almighty

The Lord calls me

Stuck in the chaos of the mind

Will the reciting save me

I shall bend not breaking

Offer my my self

To you Lord of lords 

Help me break free

Shahadah 

There is no God but Allah and his messenger is Muhammed

Breaking free from najs

The days come and go

Running out of time

Will this end, bring peace

To overcome the nafs

Come and go

Bringing peace of mind

Allah always will guide me

Echo's

Lift my emotions up

Seeking cloud 9

Isn't it Divine to be in this time

Feeling the Echo's of anxiety 

Hold me close

Oh Allah the Almighty, the most Forgiving 

Feeding me to the wolves of the soul 

Ravished am I 

Hoping for something more

Surely spectacular 

Pitter pattern 

Chaos of the heart 

The beast breaking free

To rawr as emotions flood my every being 

Turning to the Lord

To wash away the sins

My mind can't expand more

I'm drowning in my nafs

Working hard for hell 

Seeking the light

Will I break free, is this destined for me

To truly be full of insanity 

Holding my breath

Hoping for life to consume

To seek the Almighty Allah 

In the times of need

But not only that

Alhamdulillah  for everything

Even the patterns 

Locking on

Let me breathe those breathes 

To save me from the chaos 

Seeking love, finding hate 

The never ending insanity vibes

It seeks me but I will break free I'm from the najs

Pleading with Allah

To save me from myself

Break free from the shackles that be

Just breathe, let's get ready

For a new day, bringing hope

For now anyways 

Seeking the Noor, consuming me

Hey let it be

Just be free

Seeking the good

Falling from time to time

Not broken but rebuilding 

Smile always

Alhamdulillah  

Letting me be

Broken stars in the nights sky

Shining once to blighty 

To fade into the abyss 

Does this dismiss 

What's to come, break

Unable to cope, pen to paper

Breaking insanity 

Can I breath

Suffocating on Bliss 

Days go by

Smile it's ok

Even when hate resides on my side

Breaking in this bend surely will this be on the mend

Smile softly 

Always watching the patterns glow

Will I ever be free

From this insanity 

Fighting kicking and streaming 

The tears roll 

Am I on the mend

Trying always to be here

Breaking stars across the vision 

What is real 

Pitter patterns let me bare 

Slightly better

As the words release me

Let me be