Fight the good Fight

We are in a bad way these days
we are partying in the church
where we know very well its not meant for that
Do not mistake such behavior to be Christ like or for God
The Church is meant for worship, prayer a sanctuary for those lost souls
Growth in our knowledge for our Lord, and growth in our love for God and fellow humanity

Walls separate us in Christ
Between the deviant divisions
misguided they seem to some
but for most they people see them as on the right path
hence forth they follow and reach out to churches that are more so busy with entertainment
rather than worship

These deviant ones are misguided surely we the people who seek to be pious
Shall set forth in example to the misguided and show them the way as Christ did for us
Following desires instead of his word, but after all we but sinners
In no means am i saying that i am better than those who have fallen for shaytans plan
But seek out Jesus our Lord and savior, because without him we are surely lost from the light

And the light shall over come all darkness that it faces
So then there where shall i rest my soul
after these mortal body has perished
I would only wish for the golden gates to open for me
so i can bask in glorious light that omits onto our Lord

So what do now but where to rest my body and soul
but rest on the shoulders of thy Lord
I surely wept my share of tears but not for self but for my Savior
For how could he take such a burden from the creation and take it as his own
What greatness was uncovered with his birth

For he died for us
For our sins beginnings and endings

Do what the Bible says we should do for ourselves and our salvation

Fight the good fight
and keep your word with God

But remember Church is for the sinners, to praise, worship, and seek out knowledge from the words of our Lord.
Do not let shaytan whisper his words into your mind and heart
he does not belong here

So my friends, my siblings in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ
Ponder upon this, ponder upon the bible the word
Praise it
For its the lifeline to the heart and soul

Follow that pious knowledge

sacrifice to one another for our lord and savior did so
The apostles of God gave so much to their king
So what is is it to spare but a few moments of worship and prayer
perhaps a few loonies for the church even if thats all you can afford
But be generous for God's sake and even your own sake

Sought not your wisdom from the fools with deviant ilm knowledge nor evil doers
Seek the pious people those who have come to be humble with their travels
Knowledge ilm can be found everywhere but remember not all of that knowledge is good
it can corrupt ones heart
And if our heart is corrupted then how canwe surrender our heart to him
For "He" is good, God is good

There will be the deceivers all around that will take Gods word and corrupt it
Take it as their own
Claim to be from him
Claim to be new found prophets
but remember with the correct light
heavenly light upon our gaze we shall not fall for the deviants deceivers

Give thanks for our joy is found with fruits of the holy spirit
for God loves us he was able to send his son to die for our sins
So our hearts are open to you oh lord
Guide my heart
I surrender my heart giving glory to the king

Our hearts though are open to desires the good and bad
That old dirty devil will not shake his grasp
he snickers
But he cannot stop us
from releasing such evil doing desires
because remeber Jesus decided to die for us
for our sins he took for us
So becloser to God
We have redeemed and delivered from the helllfire
for I want to bask in Gods holy light
I need Gods love so much
So be delivered from that hellfire to reside in the holy light with out Abba Father and Son Jesus Christ.

have a clear spirit and mind for our lord
Without such how are we to seek out a pious teacher
look to elders, pastors, bishops, leaders, youth, children
they are everywhere
that knowledge you gain shall help you
may the knowledge of the pious move within us such as the holy ghost

Today

i find myself
here once again
is it my fault
because i slipped up on purpose
medication why is it needed so much
i cannot last a day without it before i mental break down
but then again the day was good
so Thank God that im not dead by my own hand yet
i refused to let myself grab those blades
to buy them from the store
honestly i was worried what the clerk would say when she saw all my scars
when i would go to the check out with blades
so i put them back
i defeat shaytan once again
he whispers so often
but
I have Christ in my heart
He is my guardian
I will be honest its been a long time since i felt emptiness
maybe this new found faith relationship
is what is meant for me
Thank God for friends
True friends
I lost so many
when i left islam
they cursed me and called me deceiver
am i one
i think not
im just being truthful
i dont go to masjid and cause trouble
i have kept my distance
its not my home anymore
Thank God
from a friend who found me tight knit church
lately i been feeling such a good feeling when i go
after all
i go to church three times a week
nothing better to do
afterall ilm is found on all corners
but no corners on this world for we are limitless in this glaxacy of milk
I hope you found your path
i know i have found mine
I just need to keep on the medication
so that old dirty devil is kept at bay
but i fear when i will lose control
and the emptiness will return
but as long as i keep faith
in Abba
Jesus
Holy Spirit
then indeed i shall conquer onwards
in the soul of the mind
i am limited
but the lord almighty in limitless
so worry not for me
im in good hands
for my heart lies in the hands of our lord and savior

deep down

I hate it sometimes
This feeling deep down
that surfaces
and i left to feel it
its just brings me into depression
Wanting nothing more to cut
cut out the feeling
but now im surpressing even the self harm
im starting to not care again
wanting to end it all
i dreamed that i died and then i awoke
how did i die in my dream but by my own hands
that is shall it be
but you shouldnt think this way
afterall God is on your side
so dont lose your Hope
But how can i grasp such hope
when feeling in utter darkness soon the smptiness will come
everyone is mad at me i feel
maybe this isnt the right situation
perhaps i need to find a diffirent one
but i cant
I just want to give up
as a stare into space thinking about how to end it
maybe its time to visit my doctor
afterall my own sister said to me if gets worse
there is always the hostipal
to sit in the little white room and ponder about depression
i dont seek that but at least im somewhat safe
what if though
what if they admit me
what if im sent to away
no i dont want to go
ill just face the emptiness
and let the blood flow one way or another
but please dont cut
dont worry myself i wont
because the scars arent worth it
i found another way
that hurts much more
and it worthy of this soul
to take the flame against the flesh
but one cannot devour
i dont care i just want this depression gone
dont forget you have God on your side
he died for you
so dont self harm
i only pounder about it
i havent done any yet
but thanks for the concern
i think if the days keep going like this
ill end up somewhere
either the hostipal or ...
welll best not dwell
in you life of sorrows
Hold on to your Hope for your sanity is near it
and without you are truly lost
and without God
Blessed Father
please capture this darkness from me
for you are my shields and Jesus is my sword
We together shall conquer the emptiness
one can only hope

are we worth it?

Stubborn towards God doesnt do any good
Just takes us away from our Lord
We think we are better
How wrong are we
WE arent worthy of his mercy that he gives us
But God is merciful and forgiving
We are lucky to have a master as such as him
His grace sent his son to sacarfice to his self for us
for our sins so for now we are sinners
but us sinners have our champion that fights for us
what shall we do for our Lord
Repent for we truly need it
Hold yourself still for grasp of desperation
a desprate breath as we shake before our creatior
For Abba hold you tight from shayton on the final day
if you truly worthy that is
only are you if you live and breath for your Lord
So i leave you to ponder upon which step you shall take next
All praises to our lord and savior Jesus christ

Warmth

I reach out to the sky
Only to feel warmth unto me from our savior
his sweet whisper
my heart overflows
What did he say?
Rather what did i feel
Warmth to bring unto others to witness the good news
I am learning first hand what Christ had taught
I hope I have a home
within the kingdom of God
My leader who passes the knowledge onwards
His heart has the right intention
To praise God, to follow him into the light
Preach the word
So my pastor I pray that you stand tall against shaytan
that you shall not weaken in your faith
That you only kneel to our savior and lord Jesus
In Jesus name amen

The word

be this word that was left
swallow me whole
my heart but weeps joyus tears to the heart and soul
thank you oh lord for guiding me to this place of worship
Oh Abba holds me tight
from the clutches of satan
For satan tries to break Gods grasp on me
it but lingers in the mist of deseption
my faith shall not waiver
again i hear that fowl snicker of the old dirty devil
but not here
not in this place of worship and praise
Remeber to keep faith in God
Trust our lord and savior Jesus
For he died for our sins
so we could go on living in this world of fools
so read that word read the new the good news
for it was given to us by out Lord
Worry not for God is on your side
Trust in God always