saving self

Screaming to save my life

What to do? 

Where to go?

Hurt here and there

Slice the blades go

What to bring? But devastation 

Should I let the monster go

As it seems my soul

You rip and tear 

Bringing durastrous deeds 

Can someone save me

Only I can save myself

Following the dragon no more

Suffocation to the climax 

Falling into the abyss

Sure let's go, chaos of the soul

The snickering voices 

Pitter pattern 

Come and go

Let's go

Bringing hope to all

Not just me

Saving my life

Save myself

In this devastation of a world 

Trying to break free

Failing always

Fighting always

Reserve my rights 

To decide what is needed 

To not let the darkness reside 

To let the noor in

Saving self

Ok let's go

helping saving

Help me and save me

Oh Allah the most beloved

Love the Lord, with all your might

Bring in the fight 

For your never alone

Even when your soul drops

Down to the darkness

When the hope weithers

Worry not for the light is not diminished 

For the noor never does

Not since love came into my heart

I yern for the most beloved and Almighty 

La illah il allah

Save me from the darkness within my soul

What should I do

My hope is with the Lord 

Worship one and only

To breathe deep breaths 

To center my soul

Beimg perhaps seeking something 

Will I hone to what I know

The Peace and Noor

Conquering my nafs

That divert me from it

Oh Allah guide me always

Even if one is tarnished 

Hope for today for tomorrow never comes

Old habits

Tap tap tap goes to start 

Trapped in the jukebox 

With a million songs around 

Unable to cope 

Going back to old habits 

Cutting up the world 

Chaos of the heart 

Wondering what to do 

If this is meant to be 

Stuck in the insanity 

Of the mind and the Sea 

The illusion of the heart 

The ocean of abyss 

The emptiness that consumes 

The loneliness that reaps 

Conquering this 

Wondering what to do 

Coping. Hoping loving needing 

Everything being 

A slip to the heart 

The pain that is 

Eternal in the heart 

A thousand needles 

Stuck into me

Labels that be 

Only time will tell 

To start again 

One more time 

In this abyss 

But I shall dismiss 

For the light is near 

Hoping so anyways