Flicker

Pain everlasting
I hurt on inside and outside
So much I must take the flame to the flesh
It's different
Something is wrong
As the flame from the lighter flickers against the skin
A small whimper well tremble from my lips
That old friend is here
Darkness emptiness depression
The Trinity works together
Causing you to be numb
Unsure what to do you resort to the old ways
Blade to skin letting the blood explode
Dripping down the skin into a pile on the hardwood floor
You know I know
That I should reach out
but I am engulfed in the trinity of disaster the cycle of chaos
chaos recklessness everything else
Which way is right
Hurting self to get better
Or to just being me
I chose me
Engulfed in Chaos
I small reap on another day
Back to the old ways
Cut devour burn
Find me in the number 34