something dear

Starting fights, where to go

Flee the near

Very far from a dear

I look into the mirror, a stranger stares straight back me

You self deny who you remember

You have changed, soon to come

The lack of understanding

Help me not, nothing it seems

Stuck in this chaos

Yes it deemed

To find serenity and loose it so

Up and down

I gave up

So a zap here, a zap there

4 more times, something happens

Dreading anyone think

Drop dead for 15 

Yes it seems

Since then I'm not me

My mind you see

No one understands me

There is no help

Just meant for me

Far off in the past

There was me

Now I'm not

Losing self

Wanting what was lost

Here

I

Am

Fading away, what is next?