Take My breath away

Stuck here quivering my soul

Complicating if suicide is the way

To finally set me free

From this chaotic Bliss indeed

To dance so fragile ready to break

As every emotion siphons and rips through me

Here I am wandering into Bliss

To allow the crimson desire to burn

And I'm ready to play with my right hand to cut away the darkness

To feel pain instead of rapid emotions

The chaos is here near and dear

Care to stare

Dare you stare and judge me so

You never walked in my shoes so do not despair

I reckon I'm right with the blade

I went a year without so

But here I am holding the blade in my hand ready to let go

What shall I do what will come of this day

Is the chaos destined for me

I want eternal Bliss

To let the insanity take control

Once again in the cycle of chaos that Infinity circle of Doom

Mania on the brink

Rage banking at the desire

Dare to shout out and scream

Instead I went for within the solitude of silence

I cannot break away from these desires

So I write

And write

Wondering this is meant for me

This chaos that I seem to feel constantly

One pill two pill three pill more

The fall came and went and so did 95% of the meds too

Am I betterless medicated

Stress stress here I come

What will come will it ever end 

Will tonight be the night

Perhaps there is no end

Trekking on in the cycle of chaos

So let's not pretend