Hoping for Peace

 The joys of emotions

As the time truly comes

Reckon its right in the darkness

Unable to cope

Will I conquer my nafs?

Upon a dirty deed what will some of me

Shall I bleed?

For the mercy upon my destiny 

Is but within solitude

Wondering within the doom

What come of this?

Shall dismiss, what shall I do?

Follow the noor

Basking in the light of the glorious diety

Seeking something more

Having willingness to be free

God said Be

So here I am wrecked beyond the bend

Seeking something

I am but a being

In this insanity

Of the world

What must come of this?

Dua is needed for only Allah brings them to miracles

Dhkr is needed in this life to keep on remembering

Keeping the heart light, full of noor

To dismiss the darkness

To enter the shadows, and silence the whispers

No more snickering for the destruction

Is done

For I am but a being in this temporary disaster of a worlds

I will truly grasp hope

Hoping for this insanity in my head to end

Will there be peace?

Only with Islam

So let it be, the light that resides in me

To be free

Always

galaxies of emotion

I am broken, I am burnt

Where to go from here

Is the Galaxies shift together

Every emotion comes to me

Within the millisecond it has changed so rapidly

Unable to cope

Unable to puff

Where to go from here

Do I fall to my knees

Calling to Allah

The Lord and Almighty

Am I free?

To be a disaster

Confusing to the max

Forgetfulness

Anger

These are the emotions, most felt

What will relieve me of these symptoms?

The word they say

What is this

Blinded by the insane membrane

I must find a way

Where to go, but to the beginning

Where it all started

Repeat go

Emotions up and down

All around, lock me up

Throw away the key

Do I deserve freedom?

I called to thy God

Hoping for a relief to this mind

Where to go from here?

Up or down

Up up up up to Cloud nine

Does this define

Down down to the ground

Worshiping the one and only

Allah the most merciful and just

He knows all your secrets

He sees the unseen

He knows your heart

So surrender yourself to him

Perhaps you can save yourself

From the desire of disaster

But here an I am

Being in this world of fools

Acquiring knowledge where I go

Well this truly be what destined for me?

Time can only tell, patience is needed

Don't forget to seek the truth

You will find your way

keeping up with clarity

Stained my life with uncertainty

Emotion hidden from the sanity

Keeping up with The darkness

Allowing The emptiness to consume

Finally down but not right dead

Will I conquer this?

 A challenge comes to mind

For the insanity consumes

Suffocation at the max

The desire to chase the high

The desire to consume insanity

Will clarity come to my mind?

Perhaps to follow serenity

Showing you the way

Guiding you to Hope

Hoping for a better day

As we live for today and tomorrow never comes

To set a goal, hoping that you can conquer it so

To live high but flying clean

Perhaps to live clean and desire to be clean

Instead of chasing the dragon

Confusion to the max not knowing what to do

Logic comes decipher it so

It's time to do the challenge

To move forwards to serenity

The move is mine?

Shall I take the step?

Perhaps the challenge needs to be met

Positively Confused

Where to start

To break away from the burden

Shall I be free?

Like a dashing star

Hoping for something more

Finding solitude with this excitement

Running down the stairs 

To not have a care

So what is this within 

What is destined?

Holding on to happiness to be taken

From the uncertainty

For hoping for more

Around to go

Hop stoch on the spot

Waiting for freedom

Hoping for this to stay

What may be?

What we need?

For the solitude, needs to stay at the bay

Let me be free

To chose

Hoping for nothing more, but Peace

Confused to the brink

Hoping for clarity

One must find answers

Be then with the clarity

To bring hope

Hope for today so tomorrow will not fade

Grasping Hope

Feeling the depression

Fully in grasp

Tender my heart, surely to crash

Upon the mood of the disorder

What is this indeed?

As emptiness bows to the darkness

Surely depression is here

Upon the mood

Does the it has to be a kaleidoscope

Moving so rapidly

Upon the deeds to come

Well there right or left

Upon my mind I surely am

Broken beyond the mend

Gathering my emotions

To not tumble 

To carry some courage

Trying to hope

For the darkness is near

As the light consumes

I fall so suddenly

Upon the deeds

Right or wrong

This life is a test 

Trails indeed

What we need, with the deeds

What will be next?

Upon the light to tell the tale

Something bright

Flickering within the night

The flame surely Burns

Upon the time to see

What is destined for me?

Beyond the dirty deed

Soaked beyond the wreckage

The flicker burns on

To follow the darkness, and ignite the light

What am I but a fool destined to burn

Falling for hope

Well this consume?

The emptiness of doom

Time shall surely tend to this

If one can hope for the future

Then perhaps upon the day you'll seek something that's needed

Be that light, be God just something meant for me myself and I 

To the seek the truth

Do not determine to leave the trail

Upon the truth I'm truly wrecked

The light consumes ever so brightly ever so warm

It brings my heart up and high

Perhaps this is time to breathe 

Even within the insanity

calculated rage

There's something that dwells inside

As it rips and turns your heart inside out

Has The echoes of insanity have conquered you

The warmth to the heart 

The fire within the soul

Moving to anger

Hurting oneself

The calculated chaos will never end

Will my wound surely mend

I fear the fire will burn 

Scorch me the whispers are here

Snicker here snicker there will it ever end

The fire has burned me for I'm ever so scarred from the insanity of life

Will the chaos ever end?

It seems that days go by

Your mood is fed up

Where to go from here

The fire rages on

Only for the rage to consume your soul

Wondering what will come of you as you held your fist high

To not Punch walls to not punch people but to only punch oneself

Crying on the mend

Will this ever end?

Upon time to come will tomorrow ever come

And yesteryear I was but full of serenity but this year is insane and the anchor inside has the rage going

Only to collapse from all the complicated things

Unknowing the future to be

Will I be full of insanity?

Will the rage still be here?

So many questions and no answers

Unable to cope

Shall I burn?

Perhaps I shall take the blade

But instead I take the rage in my fist

To my head for the insanity is here

And as each punch hits the temple you wonder

This be the end of all the suffering

You worry if you can mend at all

Chaos is near and dear

Upon Insanity do you hear

The whispers of chaos coming near

Breathe truly breathe

Within this Destiny we shall be

Something but insanity

Will I ever truly be free

Seeking wanting something more

Light and darkness mixes together

Causing nothing but an equal equality

Needing to be full of this insanity

If not, who am I?

I am but a perfectly imperfect being

Full of flaws within this humanity

And one truly needs that hope inside

The great supreme, all knowing, the most merciful

Who is this indeed?

Allahu the great and Almighty 

What has he set for us

But a test

A pain, happiness, and carnage

But what have we done but forsaken ourselves

A twisted turn for humanity

Truly is this what's meant to be

Perhaps because life is not easy for it is a test, and are not easy

Let me Be Happy

Let's have a hope 

Is truly needed for you and I, and humanity

Bickering with self with all the voices inside

One does not know what to do

So seek refuge in the heart

Sincerity is the key

Life is full of insanity

But I truly breathe

To feel my destiny

Day by day I breathe ever so deeply

I truly need to seek refuge in the Lord indeed

I find myself withered away

Truly I am within the light

For I have not given up on life

I strive to have hope

I survived to please

Who but Allah the great and Almighty

Let It Be that I find serenity

To seek hope to truly breathe

Within this life of insanity

I am but being

On the path

I am happy for this time

Walking towards serenity

I am good like the sun that shines on this world

I am but fresh air to a stale room

The chaotic state of the mind

Bends and turns within this time

Disaster soon to come

I am sad, I am mad

The rage that burns within my mind

The chaos that rages within my heart

The darkness that consumes the soul

Is this me disaster about?

Time to be

Within this destiny

Working towards certainty

Acquiring hope, on the mend

The mind is consumed by Bliss

This time I shall not dismiss

Serenity on the path, chaos put at bay

Hoping for something more

I am happy I am glad

Even when I'm sad

For I have hope

Enough for now

Hoping for more

Seek the good, nothing more

Truly Breathe

Disperse the seeds of anxiety

Unable to bend to resort

Working towards happiness

The kindness with us

To let me breathe so fully

Even within the storm, hurricanes of emotions 

Tumbling down mania on the bend

Truly one seeks to mend

Unable to cope, but surely can still hope

Desires to deeds

Within this insanity

Is this truly what is destined?

Is this truly me

Let me breathe, ever so deeply

To be free, to truly need

Working towards recovery, on the mend

I must bend to not break

Rebuilding on the mend

Truly trying is spent

Within this world

Disperse the seeds of anxiety

Working for serenity, to truly breathe