where do I stand

Slumber slumber into the night we go

Ecstasy for the high

Pulling myself down

Depression to the max

Solitude for the mode

Unable to comprehend why

Unable to cope

Wanting something more

Here wanting finding

The journey goes on

Two stars collide causing a climax

As the ripples within the water rumble

To hear the roar

Of the chaos of the heart

Wanting something more

The darkness sweeps in

Swallowing the light

I can hardly breathe

Suffocation attire

Will I have freedom?

The torments of my mind

Burden my heart so

I take the flame

To cover the flesh

Corrupt to the heart

Here I am a disaster

Coming from all directions

The darkness sweeps in

Unable to cope

This night is a torment

Has the water drops down

Heaps of tears roll down

Why must I be this way?

Can I not find peace

Something to conquer

All The nasty desires

Unable to comprehend

Here I am wondering the night sky

The Ecstasy of the night

Shall I truly breathe my final breaths?

I truly want to slumber into the eternal night

To be ripped two

For the light is here

Do I fall, do I climb?

Climbing the stairs

The hardship of the desire

Holding on to hope

The disaster is near

The light it shines so brightly

That darkness begins to dim

As the sheets of light consume me

Am I free?

Free to be me, full fledged schizoaffectic maniac freak

Let me scream, shout out

Can I be free of the desires?

Follow the light they say

Keep the light close

My heart yearns for more

The everlasting slumber calls me

I fight with all my heart

Not to give in to the darkness

To seek the light always

Even when the darkness wants to consume

The light shall come knocking

To tear down any doors

That lead to destruction

So come with me

Let's fall to our knees

Doing dua

Asking for the supplications

Hoping for something more

Finding peace of mind

Will peace be free?

Or is peace unlimited

I shall stand tall against the darkness

Bringing in the light

Breathing in deep breaths

Hoping for something more

Acquiring hope, acquiring the light

This is peace

Hopefully it will last

Uncertain of what to do next

Please let me conquer what is to come

Standing tall

Breathing in peace

Allowing the light to consume

Finding solitude

Finding peace

That is what truth is

something more

Once upon a star 

I call to you

Will you feel my emotions?

Will the end come?

Keeping my mind on the hope

Something more something needed

The light consumes me

Everlasting bliss

Will this last?

I ponder too truly wander

Today I breathe

Tomorrow I suffocate

Falling star

Wishing for the dream to come true

Happiness is what I want

Walking the distance

Hoping for sanity

Wondering what will come tomorrow

Arise to a new day

With different emotions do they sway

Once upon a Time

According to the star that shines

Happiness is but an illusion

Delusion of what is to be

I follow the light

To bring my soul to the clear path

Shall I slumber?

A sleepless night to come

Upon the stars that shine

Upon the time that be

Hoping for happiness

Getting the results

Up and not down

All together now

Emotion here and there

Everywhere

To follow the path

To the fork in the road

The right or to the left

I follow the way

I follow the light

What path that takes me to

Will it bring happiness?

I call upon the stars that be

Will you save me from my insanity?

I finally breathe

Followed by a smile

To bring hope

To bring happiness

Never separating

Shall I bend down to pray?

Upon this time I shall be

Thanking the stars that be

To save me from my insanity

Let me pray

To the one and only

Where hope is found

Where happiness resides

Upon the time to tell

As time goes on

I shall pray

Forever lasting light

Forever and ever more

uncertain destiny

Walking down the path

Waltzing to Destiny

Can I feel my way through?

Stop drop emotion

Where to go from here?

Running on a railroad

Wanting everything to end

Stuck in the cycle

Chaos of the heart

Uncertainty is here

To bring it near

Upon this time to tell

1 2 3

Four five six

Running on the railroad

Coming to an end

Shall I die?

Does this define time

Wasted as it be

Uncertainty takes me

Will I finally breathe

Will I finally need

Ready set Go

It's time to let the river go

To run down the stream

Truly I shall scream

What is happening to me?

Fallen but not graced

Unable to comprehend

The cycle goes on

The chaos of the heart

Let me need, levitate me

Shall I truly be free

Speak to me, guide me

Down the path I go

Uncertain to the max

Down the path I go

Wondering what will come of this

As the flame wanders on

Scorching what the darkness wants

I follow the path

Uncertain as it may be

Uncertain as I need to be

Well I truly need serenity

To follow the path

Finding certainty on serenity

Let me breathe those lovely breathes 

Shall I be truly free

Does this define me?

Finally just breathe, be free

Fade

The mood of the room

Feels despair, where to go

Upon this time to tell

Once upon the twine

Shall I mend to feel

All these emotions

Running through me

Like a sheet of icicle

Ripping, ramming what is this destiny

With me, am I free

Am I suppose to dream?

Will I consider the emotions

Shall I surrender?

To the will, of who

Intertwined with my will

My Lord comforts me

It's the race mirage at bay

Where you go, but to the light

Don't dread of the najs deeds

For I redeem myself

Am I supposed to be able to conquer all?

I'm falling down to the ground

Pledging my loyalty

That there is one

Only one

That is Allah

For he shall save me

These emotions that run at me

To keep them at bay

With but a plea, a dua

To breathe finally

To be free, to want something more

Following the Noor

Hopscotch to the Bay

For the light shall surround darkness

Leaving life full of uncertainty

Of the times that be

Have some hope

For tomorrow shall never fade

being of Destiny

Running on the railroad

Not knowing what to end

Follow the Dragon to never never Land

Climb the ladder, define Cloud 9

Wanting nothing more but for serenity

The internal chaos that seems

What but an Infinity

As it shines brightly

Forming one another

Glimmering light it seems

Switching the vision to be

Pattern here and there

Light that reflects all

Pattern near truly not so dear

Dread to the max

Unable to cope

What you do from here?

Screaming in my head

What to do from here?

Pleaing with the Lord 

The needy that I be

Stuck in the chaos

The circle that goes on

To ponder upon Time

To point logic at this source

Am I here?

Do I matter?

Will I ever have serenity?

To keep on striving

To fight the good old fight

In the everlasting war

Destined to be, solely but purely unique

I am destined to be, stuck in this insanity

Shall I be content with this?

One can only hope, that something comes from the disaster

Has the pieces seem to fall in place

After all the harm has been done

One hopes

One needs

I truly desire, something that makes my mind clearly

So I seek the truth 

Always in my heart

What is but peace

Bringing serenity

What I truly need

So let's have destiny

For God said be, and that's all I can do but be

Full-fledged maniac

Supercalifragilisticex schizophrenic

A breath of fresh air

Sweeping in the darkness blowing out the light

Surely this is his might?

To seek refuge always

Life may be what it seems

Lose not hope

That is needed

Be free to choose to be content

Thanks to God we are here

Even within the schizophrenia

I am but being within this destiny

Destined Bullets

Blissful is the day, to be taken down by the nafs

Rolling by like bullets on the drive by

Self-inflicted emotional damage

Side by side does it define

Bursting at the brim

Simmering ready boil

Ready not done

Blowing the top

Construction to the heart

The blueprints burnt to a crisp

Holding on to the insanity

Craving for the chaos

Waiting for Destiny

Shall I be free? 

From this insane insanity

Let me breathe

Those deep breaths

To conquer the najs desires

To hold it tight, that light

The Noor to hope

Holding tight is my breath

Fear of the suffocation

Hoping for serenity

To heal the heart

To conquer the anger

To seek the wisdom

To want peace

Everlasting peace

This is what is destined

Dare to Desire

 stop drop mania

on the bend

ready to mend

time to send

upon dismay

shall I pray

upon this plea with insanity

will this be

Let me see

the deeds that be

whatever I need

shall be for me

despair of a desire

To want to overcome

to bring the bend

to the mend

upon a time to tell

will I be free

destined to be free

bliss filled meadows

calling me

sweet melody 

blessed I be