Wednesday, February 28, 2024

Upon Reality

Upside reality
Dare I dream upon
The Stars that's cast across the sky
As a shining light drifts, with chaos
Coming to an end
Shall I bare what seems to drive my soul
Upon insanity drifting within the heart
What do I see?
Shifting the patterns
They stare, wanting nothing but to break
Break reality
Is this what's destined?
I breathe finally
Will I be free?
Or
Will I break!
Thought in mind
Where to go?
The sky is falling
Disaster here
Delusional upon the mend
Hopeless within the heart
Confused with what reality is
Is this what a dream?
Upon what we think what reality is
Knock knock who's there
Faith, lose not hope
Scraping to the surface
To finally breathe, what's destined for me
Paranoia on the bend
The illusions will truly mend
Losing self to the end
Where will I go?

Tuesday, February 27, 2024

I'm low and I'm high
What does that define
Within time shall I die
Unknown is the world this time
Up and down and all around
Insanity on time
What does it mean?
When will I be free
Stuck in the infinity circle
Infinite emotions that hit me midnight ponder on time
Wondering within the night
If I should've fleed from this
Stuck in the best
Sucking in all the hot air
Blowing out the candles, make a wish or two
Hope for something more
Hope to be on time
The emotions are set
What shall be next?
Upon time shall tell

Friday, February 16, 2024

Currents of Emotions

The current moves
Flowing within time
The current moves
Wishing and washing upon the sky
Emotions spread out
To let them flow
Seeking hope, finding absolute disaster
Wanting, and needing
Finding what, but the solitude
Fallen to the ground
Weeping upon the hourglass
The sand moves, glistens, and sparkles
Catching my nafs
Leaving the najs at Bay
To hold onto sanity
Is this greed?
Wanting nothing but peace
Looking for all the medication
1 2.....something more
To take the deadly deed
To be full of insanity
What will save me from myself?
I'm trying to conquer my desires
Trying my best
Truly I am but a mess
Disaster here and dear
Feeling emotions on the spot
Surely I shall not dawdle
To reach for the Noor
Grasping what sanity is
Well I finally overcome
Or shall this be my destiny
To be content
To be happy even within the darkness
To find the light
To acquire hope
Wanting something more
Seeking something
That shall cure the emptiness
I'm so empty inside I want to die
I just want to feel alive
Not letting the mania take control
Schizo to the max
Well I overcome such
Seems to be a lifetime thing
As time goes on, the insanity flows
With the current that goes
With all the emotions that flow
Finding something, that is peace
Finding self to acquire hope
I am me
Free destined for insanity
The chaos is amuck
Allowing the light to consume
I can upon light, hope, charity
Who or what will answer me
To hold onto save
Finding nothing but Allah
The authority of all
He answers all, even when you have no words
Having hope
Not losing self identity
Muslim perfectly imperfect what am I but humanity
So pray, seek another day


Tuesday, February 13, 2024

bound to collide

Motionless in the timeless space
Stars collide, tearing the Galaxy into pieces
Frozen unable to comprehend
Ripped in two
For the Jekyll in the hyde
Surrounds my bearing
I am but motionless
Bearing nothing but emotion
As they collide with one another
Ripping my soul into pieces
I am but lost 
Dare I say on the mend
Casting the first stone
Causing the ripples to disperse
The chaos is deemed
What's right for me
I shall not give in
To the darkness that knocks
Dragging your Eman
Knocking at the shackles
I am but free
Free to choose
To conquer the light
To hold on to the darkness
To keep it at Bay
To let it slumber
To let the light in
To bring the hope
Wanting something more
Reaching for sanity
Surely I will breathe
Bringing nothing but lovely deeds
To strive for good, conquering the darkness
Blessed be full of insanity 
I am but me

Tuesday, February 6, 2024

the chaos of confusion


Drifting upon a time to tell
Chaos of the heart
To find peace in serenity
Only for something to boil over
The lava within the soul
Swells within time
As the anxiety seems to be
Bringing nothing but confusion of the mind
Unable to comprehend even words of serenity
As I Fall to my knees 
Pleading with the Lord 
To save me from this chaos
I'm overflowing
The emotions that bear
Anxiety to the max
Depression to the blade
Wanting to cope
Failing and falling for destruction
Where shall I go?
Upon a time to tell
As I stand at a fork at a road
To follow the darkness
To drift with insanity
Is this what Destiny is?
I strive always
Resulting in disaster
I am but chaos
But a dreamer of this world
Where to find Bliss?
Where to find serenity?
To fold my knees, bowing my head to the ground
Seeking the truth
The way
The hope within the hour
To save but a second of a moment
To be free of the insanity
But for the moment
I shall pray even when the confusion
Penetrates my mind
I am but a glass shattered
As millions of emotions bear me
I scream ever so silently
The tears run down my cheeks
Burn my soul
Am I broken
Beyond repair
Used goods
Worthless
 Useless thoughts these are
Broken not but rebuilding
Construction of the heart
Blueprints to the light
Seeking serenity
Finding the one and only
Allah I call upon my Dua to you
Where to Go from here?
I breathe only to find depression
Breaking point
Start again
The serenity is the end
That is Peace of mind
To hold onto hope
Fovever more

Sunday, February 4, 2024

Against the tide

Let there be peace
To the chaos of the heart
As the shadows collide
Shimmer here and shimmer there
Pitter patter and get at her
Patterns here and patterns there
Up and down all around
Shift gear shift there
On a collide to the Stars
I just want to die
But here I am striving on
Against the tide
Ripping the current into my soul
Undoubtedly the best way to do it
To ponder if it's right to be
To be free of insanity
But the shadows have collided
The patterns are here
The voices seek an audience
What to do?
But seek light
Find peace
Strive against the tide
Emotions rise
Perhaps it's time
To define
What I need
That is clarity
So do the deed
The smallest are the best 
We truly need
To humble ourselves
To not give in to the insanity
Is it time to let go?
Time to plead to God
To let me strive on
To pray on time
To never waiver within the deen
As time has come to tell
Another story to come along
Forevermore nevermore

Friday, February 2, 2024

the words that be

Words to keep me from solitude
Words to guide me
Lost ones
Hoping, wanting, and needing
The light shines bright
A path towards sanity
The words that call me
Bring peace
Save me from my nafs
Daring to survive
What is Peace?
Bringing hope
Words that call me
To Kingdom come
Happiness attainable
Sadness with despair
Near and dear
Striving to hope
What will come?
What is next?
Actions before the reactions
Deeds for the Dunya
What we need
That is Islam
Finding hope
With the words
That turn my heart
Words that love
Where to find?
From someone's tongue
From the scripture
We have perfection
That is the Quran
The words that guide
That is what is needed
To bring peace to the mind and heart
To lighten the mood
To worship one
The glorious, the mighty, the great
Allah
That is perfect harmony