Upon Reality

Upside reality

Dare I dream upon

The Stars that's cast across the sky

As a shining light drifts, with chaos

Coming to an end

Shall I bare what seems to drive my soul

Upon insanity drifting within the heart

What do I see?

Shifting the patterns

They stare, wanting nothing but to break

Break reality

Is this what's destined?

I breathe finally

Will I be free?

Or

Will I break!

Thought in mind

Where to go?

The sky is falling

Disaster here

Delusional upon the mend

Hopeless within the heart

Confused with what reality is

Is this what a dream?

Upon what we think what reality is

Knock knock who's there

Faith, lose not hope

Scraping to the surface

To finally breathe, what's destined for me

Paranoia on the bend

The illusions will truly mend

Losing self to the end

Where will I go?

I'm low and I'm high

What does that define

Within time shall I die

Unknown is the world this time

Up and down and all around

Insanity on time

What does it mean?

When will I be free

Stuck in the infinity circle

Infinite emotions that hit me midnight ponder on time

Wondering within the night

If I should've fleed from this

Stuck in the best

Sucking in all the hot air

Blowing out the candles, make a wish or two

Hope for something more

Hope to be on time

The emotions are set

What shall be next?

Upon time shall tell

Currents of Emotions

The current moves

Flowing within time

The current moves

Wishing and washing upon the sky

Emotions spread out

To let them flow

Seeking hope, finding absolute disaster

Wanting, and needing

Finding what, but the solitude

Fallen to the ground

Weeping upon the hourglass

The sand moves, glistens, and sparkles

Catching my nafs

Leaving the najs at Bay

To hold onto sanity

Is this greed?

Wanting nothing but peace

Looking for all the medication

1 2.....something more

To take the deadly deed

To be full of insanity

What will save me from myself?

I'm trying to conquer my desires

Trying my best

Truly I am but a mess

Disaster here and dear

Feeling emotions on the spot

Surely I shall not dawdle

To reach for the Noor

Grasping what sanity is

Well I finally overcome

Or shall this be my destiny

To be content

To be happy even within the darkness

To find the light

To acquire hope

Wanting something more

Seeking something

That shall cure the emptiness

I'm so empty inside I want to die

I just want to feel alive

Not letting the mania take control

Schizo to the max

Well I overcome such

Seems to be a lifetime thing

As time goes on, the insanity flows

With the current that goes

With all the emotions that flow

Finding something, that is peace

Finding self to acquire hope

I am me

Free destined for insanity

The chaos is amuck

Allowing the light to consume

I can upon light, hope, charity

Who or what will answer me

To hold onto save

Finding nothing but Allah

The authority of all

He answers all, even when you have no words

Having hope

Not losing self identity

Muslim perfectly imperfect what am I but humanity

So pray, seek another day

bound to collide

Motionless in the timeless space

Stars collide, tearing the Galaxy into pieces

Frozen unable to comprehend

Ripped in two

For the Jekyll in the hyde

Surrounds my bearing

I am but motionless

Bearing nothing but emotion

As they collide with one another

Ripping my soul into pieces

I am but lost 

Dare I say on the mend

Casting the first stone

Causing the ripples to disperse

The chaos is deemed

What's right for me

I shall not give in

To the darkness that knocks

Dragging your Eman

Knocking at the shackles

I am but free

Free to choose

To conquer the light

To hold on to the darkness

To keep it at Bay

To let it slumber

To let the light in

To bring the hope

Wanting something more

Reaching for sanity

Surely I will breathe

Bringing nothing but lovely deeds

To strive for good, conquering the darkness

Blessed be full of insanity 

I am but me

the chaos of confusion

Drifting upon a time to tell

Chaos of the heart

To find peace in serenity

Only for something to boil over

The lava within the soul

Swells within time

As the anxiety seems to be

Bringing nothing but confusion of the mind

Unable to comprehend even words of serenity

As I Fall to my knees 

Pleading with the Lord 

To save me from this chaos

I'm overflowing

The emotions that bear

Anxiety to the max

Depression to the blade

Wanting to cope

Failing and falling for destruction

Where shall I go?

Upon a time to tell

As I stand at a fork at a road

To follow the darkness

To drift with insanity

Is this what Destiny is?

I strive always

Resulting in disaster

I am but chaos

But a dreamer of this world

Where to find Bliss?

Where to find serenity?

To fold my knees, bowing my head to the ground

Seeking the truth

The way

The hope within the hour

To save but a second of a moment

To be free of the insanity

But for the moment

I shall pray even when the confusion

Penetrates my mind

I am but a glass shattered

As millions of emotions bear me

I scream ever so silently

The tears run down my cheeks

Burn my soul

Am I broken

Beyond repair

Used goods

Worthless

 Useless thoughts these are

Broken not but rebuilding

Construction of the heart

Blueprints to the light

Seeking serenity

Finding the one and only

Allah I call upon my Dua to you

Where to Go from here?

I breathe only to find depression

Breaking point

Start again

The serenity is the end

That is Peace of mind

To hold onto hope

Fovever more

Against the tide

Let there be peace

To the chaos of the heart

As the shadows collide

Shimmer here and shimmer there

Pitter patter and get at her

Patterns here and patterns there

Up and down all around

Shift gear shift there

On a collide to the Stars

I just want to die

But here I am striving on

Against the tide

Ripping the current into my soul

Undoubtedly the best way to do it

To ponder if it's right to be

To be free of insanity

But the shadows have collided

The patterns are here

The voices seek an audience

What to do?

But seek light

Find peace

Strive against the tide

Emotions rise

Perhaps it's time

To define

What I need

That is clarity

So do the deed

The smallest are the best 

We truly need

To humble ourselves

To not give in to the insanity

Is it time to let go?

Time to plead to God

To let me strive on

To pray on time

To never waiver within the deen

As time has come to tell

Another story to come along

Forevermore nevermore

the words that be

Words to keep me from solitude

Words to guide me

Lost ones

Hoping, wanting, and needing

The light shines bright

A path towards sanity

The words that call me

Bring peace

Save me from my nafs

Daring to survive

What is Peace?

Bringing hope

Words that call me

To Kingdom come

Happiness attainable

Sadness with despair

Near and dear

Striving to hope

What will come?

What is next?

Actions before the reactions

Deeds for the Dunya

What we need

That is Islam

Finding hope

With the words

That turn my heart

Words that love

Where to find?

From someone's tongue

From the scripture

We have perfection

That is the Quran

The words that guide

That is what is needed

To bring peace to the mind and heart

To lighten the mood

To worship one

The glorious, the mighty, the great

Allah

That is perfect harmony