the chaos of confusion

Drifting upon a time to tell

Chaos of the heart

To find peace in serenity

Only for something to boil over

The lava within the soul

Swells within time

As the anxiety seems to be

Bringing nothing but confusion of the mind

Unable to comprehend even words of serenity

As I Fall to my knees 

Pleading with the Lord 

To save me from this chaos

I'm overflowing

The emotions that bear

Anxiety to the max

Depression to the blade

Wanting to cope

Failing and falling for destruction

Where shall I go?

Upon a time to tell

As I stand at a fork at a road

To follow the darkness

To drift with insanity

Is this what Destiny is?

I strive always

Resulting in disaster

I am but chaos

But a dreamer of this world

Where to find Bliss?

Where to find serenity?

To fold my knees, bowing my head to the ground

Seeking the truth

The way

The hope within the hour

To save but a second of a moment

To be free of the insanity

But for the moment

I shall pray even when the confusion

Penetrates my mind

I am but a glass shattered

As millions of emotions bear me

I scream ever so silently

The tears run down my cheeks

Burn my soul

Am I broken

Beyond repair

Used goods

Worthless

 Useless thoughts these are

Broken not but rebuilding

Construction of the heart

Blueprints to the light

Seeking serenity

Finding the one and only

Allah I call upon my Dua to you

Where to Go from here?

I breathe only to find depression

Breaking point

Start again

The serenity is the end

That is Peace of mind

To hold onto hope

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