something dear

Starting fights, where to go

Flee the near

Very far from a dear

I look into the mirror, a stranger stares straight back me

You self deny who you remember

You have changed, soon to come

The lack of understanding

Help me not, nothing it seems

Stuck in this chaos

Yes it deemed

To find serenity and loose it so

Up and down

I gave up

So a zap here, a zap there

4 more times, something happens

Dreading anyone think

Drop dead for 15 

Yes it seems

Since then I'm not me

My mind you see

No one understands me

There is no help

Just meant for me

Far off in the past

There was me

Now I'm not

Losing self

Wanting what was lost

Here

I

Am

Fading away, what is next?

Anew

Here I surrender

Upton time and time again

My path withers only to seed

To grow anew

Alhamduillah

Staying each day

With fajr

Living self so one can understand

To desire to want more than basic feelings

The balance can be found in many ways

Alhamduillah

Where do we stand, on the edge

Wandering so slightly more

As the time moves along

We but are bounded by our nafs

Worry not for Allah is by your side

Allahu akbar

Alhamduillah

Finding life in this dense world

Lost in emotions, busting at the brim

Not all walk through the sand

Some do through the coals

Hurting the heart more and more

Making something hard bitter

Not so sweet, what will help

Maybe dua, inshallah

Forget not the dkhr

Remembrance of Allah

Alhamduillah

End the day

Going for another peaceful day

In Islam...

help

Help me

Chaos is here

Never letting go

As the light disappears

Sure food and beer are allowed

But those who need the community

Are shunned

No ago

No ssa

No help for the mentally

I'm buried in my feelings, ready set go

On mania let it flow

Striking daring do I say

Beyond what we need

For help us so

Conquered in the chaos

Is this what deemed for me?

No help

Radio for the final breaths so I need

I can't stand the carnage

This leads to devourer

Don't let this desire go

Got to be in a cage, with the darkness within three light, for it will always coexist

We the people be deemed too

Hello with this

Going stray on the bend of books with the chaos

The eye of the storm

I don't want to give in

Unfortunately these be hard times