surfing insanity

Screaming insanity, wondering what this blessing is

Unable to cope, where to go 

Hell bound heaven unable to go

Surfing the lava

The fire calls me

Unable to cope

Ruptured 

Hatred 

Chaos 

What will come 

Upon a time to tell

Once this girl 

Cried until chaos came 

The darkness seeks 

The desire of her despair 

What will come of this chaos that is 

On a time to tell 

What will come

Cutting up the skin

Burning to be prepared 

For the hell fire

It calls me

To die until the hereafter

Bless my soul

Burn my spirit 

What will come of this game

This hatred brings me close 

Shall I choose, what will it be

To live in misery 

To end it all only to be resurrected 

Upon thy lord, I plea

He doesn't hear my heart

Upon this insanity 

Allah what will I do

This is but the matrix 

What is this illusion

To The delusion 

What am I supposed to do 

Destined for the fire

Forgotten 

Lost

Broken 

Hurt me

I plea

Ruptured soul 

Hatred of the heart

Blessed is me, upon this insanity

Destined for inspection of the mind

Lobotomy seeking

Only to be denied 

Save me, cure me

Allah I call upon you

The whispers that be

Call me and call me again and again

For I am lost 

Will I cope

Unable to breath

Suffocating disease 

Upon this deed

Sinning always me why would Allah help me

For designed this chaos of heart 

Let me be free

If this destruction of the heart 

Destroys the soul 

Ruptured is me 

Well this insanity be 

Far from me 

To seek the Lord indeed 

Allah the almighty 

Seeking this serenity 

Always far from me

Let me breathe

The final breath

Please come for me

That will be all

Until next time that be's