Please for your sake and mine

This is dedication to our God
All of our meaning to worship believe and want to be with our God
Who is that but Lord and Savior Jesus the holder of everlasting light that shall overcome the snicker of shaytan
It saddens me that we rely on so much that is away from the church away from the bible
That some need to promise stuff to the believers for then to follow
So be generous to your temple mind body and the church
For our temple hold our mind soul and spirit
Its on loan to us

So respect it
I know what you think when you look at me for i wear my scars on the outside but you see our Lord has forgiven me for that Thank the almighty

So my friends do you love your church family more than selfish desires
smile shakehands invite to coffee to prayer meeting
For the sake of your heart and sanity

he walks...

Do not let sin rule you
I want to know you
God Abba Father jevohah God of new and old Jesus my Lord and savior basking in the light the noor of the holy spirit
Where are you
I need your guidenesss
Shall you leak your everlasting fruits to me but only for secs thats all i need
Leaving me in awe speachless of your glorly
I fall to my knees in prayer
I can feel it
The holy spirit has his works in me a light shines on my darkness lightened my path to God
Can you carry me during dire times my father of everlasting light for you limitless
Not that you are crutch that i am using i never abuse you like that
But without you i am truly lost for your connected to my hope and without hope your truly lost with your insantity
But also without hope how could we know God and love of God leaves us all in awe
So please brethen bask in his holy light as he walks in all of our paths

Forget about it

Pride can ruin even the most pious of people
Ruin is a right of term in ruin is the lord of your house
If you rely on Pride to swell in your heart it rather goes to one head than to our lord
You think our Lord and Savior Jesus was prideful when with the lepars or rather was he humble to be amoung when he was saving there souls.
IF you have to much pride than surely that devil has his hands on you
Andif you dont believe in either Lord your Savior Jesus as your God vs the lacking in of the faith of that snickering fowl devil.
Because i know for a fact that devil fears the sons and daughters of our Father has faith and giveth faith upto us to conquer evil and with Jesus the light shall not shine upon your path
God is almight he doesnt need us, he does need praise or worship
we need him more than he needs us
May his glory wash over us all

For the father sent his son to die for our selfish sleves and sins are forgiven because Jesus truly died for me
So I shall not rely on petty things such as pride to guide me but i want to bask in the light of our savior.
So Lord guide meaway from petty things allow me follow in the path of prophets and men of God men amoung God
In glouris golden parasdise of heaven

Dont get me wrong I have had my doubts here and there mostly because of the past things
I have lost a life line but found enternal life with our Lord
But my vile past vile ways
But that doesnt make me want to sin more and more his whisper his snicker in my ear he is one shaytan he wants you to suffer in hell fire

I try my best to make my covenvent with God
Name his Abba, God, Jevohah but more importantly Jesus

Itry more and more to go to church live my life according to God and his message
but that snicker isnt far from me and he trys hard against me and my fault my past present but he shall not my future.

The father has his heart upon me and its open to me sending me a family the ummah within Jesus Lord and savior.
Lord I thank you for my friends who had guided me to you may you grant him hightest place in our paradise in the name of our lord and savior Jesus
Amen

Fight the good Fight

We are in a bad way these days
we are partying in the church
where we know very well its not meant for that
Do not mistake such behavior to be Christ like or for God
The Church is meant for worship, prayer a sanctuary for those lost souls
Growth in our knowledge for our Lord, and growth in our love for God and fellow humanity

Walls separate us in Christ
Between the deviant divisions
misguided they seem to some
but for most they people see them as on the right path
hence forth they follow and reach out to churches that are more so busy with entertainment
rather than worship

These deviant ones are misguided surely we the people who seek to be pious
Shall set forth in example to the misguided and show them the way as Christ did for us
Following desires instead of his word, but after all we but sinners
In no means am i saying that i am better than those who have fallen for shaytans plan
But seek out Jesus our Lord and savior, because without him we are surely lost from the light

And the light shall over come all darkness that it faces
So then there where shall i rest my soul
after these mortal body has perished
I would only wish for the golden gates to open for me
so i can bask in glorious light that omits onto our Lord

So what do now but where to rest my body and soul
but rest on the shoulders of thy Lord
I surely wept my share of tears but not for self but for my Savior
For how could he take such a burden from the creation and take it as his own
What greatness was uncovered with his birth

For he died for us
For our sins beginnings and endings

Do what the Bible says we should do for ourselves and our salvation

Fight the good fight
and keep your word with God

But remember Church is for the sinners, to praise, worship, and seek out knowledge from the words of our Lord.
Do not let shaytan whisper his words into your mind and heart
he does not belong here

So my friends, my siblings in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ
Ponder upon this, ponder upon the bible the word
Praise it
For its the lifeline to the heart and soul

Follow that pious knowledge

sacrifice to one another for our lord and savior did so
The apostles of God gave so much to their king
So what is is it to spare but a few moments of worship and prayer
perhaps a few loonies for the church even if thats all you can afford
But be generous for God's sake and even your own sake

Sought not your wisdom from the fools with deviant ilm knowledge nor evil doers
Seek the pious people those who have come to be humble with their travels
Knowledge ilm can be found everywhere but remember not all of that knowledge is good
it can corrupt ones heart
And if our heart is corrupted then how canwe surrender our heart to him
For "He" is good, God is good

There will be the deceivers all around that will take Gods word and corrupt it
Take it as their own
Claim to be from him
Claim to be new found prophets
but remember with the correct light
heavenly light upon our gaze we shall not fall for the deviants deceivers

Give thanks for our joy is found with fruits of the holy spirit
for God loves us he was able to send his son to die for our sins
So our hearts are open to you oh lord
Guide my heart
I surrender my heart giving glory to the king

Our hearts though are open to desires the good and bad
That old dirty devil will not shake his grasp
he snickers
But he cannot stop us
from releasing such evil doing desires
because remeber Jesus decided to die for us
for our sins he took for us
So becloser to God
We have redeemed and delivered from the helllfire
for I want to bask in Gods holy light
I need Gods love so much
So be delivered from that hellfire to reside in the holy light with out Abba Father and Son Jesus Christ.

have a clear spirit and mind for our lord
Without such how are we to seek out a pious teacher
look to elders, pastors, bishops, leaders, youth, children
they are everywhere
that knowledge you gain shall help you
may the knowledge of the pious move within us such as the holy ghost

Today

i find myself
here once again
is it my fault
because i slipped up on purpose
medication why is it needed so much
i cannot last a day without it before i mental break down
but then again the day was good
so Thank God that im not dead by my own hand yet
i refused to let myself grab those blades
to buy them from the store
honestly i was worried what the clerk would say when she saw all my scars
when i would go to the check out with blades
so i put them back
i defeat shaytan once again
he whispers so often
but
I have Christ in my heart
He is my guardian
I will be honest its been a long time since i felt emptiness
maybe this new found faith relationship
is what is meant for me
Thank God for friends
True friends
I lost so many
when i left islam
they cursed me and called me deceiver
am i one
i think not
im just being truthful
i dont go to masjid and cause trouble
i have kept my distance
its not my home anymore
Thank God
from a friend who found me tight knit church
lately i been feeling such a good feeling when i go
after all
i go to church three times a week
nothing better to do
afterall ilm is found on all corners
but no corners on this world for we are limitless in this glaxacy of milk
I hope you found your path
i know i have found mine
I just need to keep on the medication
so that old dirty devil is kept at bay
but i fear when i will lose control
and the emptiness will return
but as long as i keep faith
in Abba
Jesus
Holy Spirit
then indeed i shall conquer onwards
in the soul of the mind
i am limited
but the lord almighty in limitless
so worry not for me
im in good hands
for my heart lies in the hands of our lord and savior

deep down

I hate it sometimes
This feeling deep down
that surfaces
and i left to feel it
its just brings me into depression
Wanting nothing more to cut
cut out the feeling
but now im surpressing even the self harm
im starting to not care again
wanting to end it all
i dreamed that i died and then i awoke
how did i die in my dream but by my own hands
that is shall it be
but you shouldnt think this way
afterall God is on your side
so dont lose your Hope
But how can i grasp such hope
when feeling in utter darkness soon the smptiness will come
everyone is mad at me i feel
maybe this isnt the right situation
perhaps i need to find a diffirent one
but i cant
I just want to give up
as a stare into space thinking about how to end it
maybe its time to visit my doctor
afterall my own sister said to me if gets worse
there is always the hostipal
to sit in the little white room and ponder about depression
i dont seek that but at least im somewhat safe
what if though
what if they admit me
what if im sent to away
no i dont want to go
ill just face the emptiness
and let the blood flow one way or another
but please dont cut
dont worry myself i wont
because the scars arent worth it
i found another way
that hurts much more
and it worthy of this soul
to take the flame against the flesh
but one cannot devour
i dont care i just want this depression gone
dont forget you have God on your side
he died for you
so dont self harm
i only pounder about it
i havent done any yet
but thanks for the concern
i think if the days keep going like this
ill end up somewhere
either the hostipal or ...
welll best not dwell
in you life of sorrows
Hold on to your Hope for your sanity is near it
and without you are truly lost
and without God
Blessed Father
please capture this darkness from me
for you are my shields and Jesus is my sword
We together shall conquer the emptiness
one can only hope