Hardly There

Hard hitting emotions

Unable to think

Where to go

Happiness but an illusion

For it never stays

It's just a stage

Upon time to come

Reaping my humanity

As I lose myself

Within the carnage

And it's burns

The rage bearing in my heart

Where to go

Up to Cloud 9

To escape time

For time hurts the most

As we lose so much

But fear not

For we gain even more

To be full of insanity

Dusting off the shelves

Setting everything in its course

Unable to want more

To content even when

Hatred conquered my soul

Not be hate for others

But myself

I'm broken

Beyond the bend

What will my destination be?

Stuck in insanity

Save me from myself

Screaming so silently

I want more 

I'm not satisfied

I want happiness

Shall I reap in the happiness of emotions?

Perhaps in heaping amounts

What will come of my being?

Stuck here pondering

Hopelessness

Hatred

Love

Hope

Kindness

All around

Here in my mind

Destruction being stopped at the bay

I write my heart out

To save myself