Dare to conquer

off to galaxy of stars
i am limitless
my mind can expand
I spent my time pondering
for my time was tiresome for some time
on ponders of doom

no more
for i am free
the old patterns are gone from me
there is only good times ahead
limitless in the galaxy
the ocean of emotions is finally at balance
I wont lie
I still enternally feel the darkness
but my light is ever lasting
its not a flicker but shines brightly
AS my words bring others to dare to inspire

I am strong
I am worthwhile
I am free
I am am a light
aslways have been
even though darkness tried to consume my path
and emptiness consumed me
i tried to end it all
but
i did the right light steps
I made the path to enlightenment my path to serentity
so my friend
do not think light of the path ahead
the sea of tears
is over flowing but
do not fear
of drowning
you can be afloat of a boat
and have a paddle
you have the blueprints and your crew
craft your ark
Finally
I am free
from my fear of emotions and be at peace

So
Dare to inspire

Today FEb

sitting at home at the moment for a few more hours
as time flows by
i feel the demons creep inside my soul
my salavtion is gone from me
i was purified but i want to take that blade
and slice down the the life line
ive done distractions
im writing arent i
but as las im still at home i havent returned to the unit
perhaps ill go awol
im tired of this fight with self the fight against bored
ponders of doom
please save me
there is truth to what i write
im not delusional
im not in consant old pattern tripping up each time i write
this is an outlet
so dear human will you listen to me
breath with me
shall i return to the unit be
or cut the life line to my destininy
at least its safe on the unit
the stress is is killing me
im frustrated what im done to myself
i stare at my arms and scars stare back at me some have faded
and some still puffy formed like new
yet they be years old
my arms hurt
from the pinched nerves from cutting
i fucked up years ago
my heart hurt not not mentualls but physically
so i shall return
to the safe place
until i find serentiy and salavtion for my soul
even if i find my salavtion im still far from serenity for i still want to end it all
run away far away and be nothing
so will live another hour or day another day

Dear human

I'm Borderline
hard to explain
not really if talking to a educated person in the health of humanity

I have scars
you see them
they burn
hard to say if I'll ever stop that blade
slipping down the skin
across the bridge
down the river
it seems to never end

What to do with this internal pain its twists and turns
I have my supports
but they be not burdened by me
and woe beware

I am far from who i am
Am i?
or is that illusion bidded to me by fate
Fate is real
probably not
I believe i weld the blade from my own mind

I need help
Help me so

I scream
Silently as though I'm nothing on the inside

Why cannot i find innner peace
instead all this despair all this pain
tears roll down my skin
gently burning my eyes so
sorrow is here
unbearable

What to say he she them
on the first day of session

Hi I'm Borderline
let the labels flow

Hi I'm full of anxiety I'm depressed
Hi I'm labeled so

Remember don't let the labels rule you

But how am i suppose to them to understand me
do i really need to explain everything

I'm black no blue
blue Mondays Saturday through to Friday
fully whacked up

Care not for my spirit is low
I'm labeled so
I don't want them to rule me
to own me
But i got down and not right
Let the blade set me free
across the life line
as a cough blood from that bridge
never let me go

Never lose me
my supports i know its tiresome
year after years

I guess i should live and let go
I shouldn't burden my supports so
I need them to let me go
spread my wings wide like eagle fly superman fly

I'm an angel now
blood soaked clothes
I didn't do the deed
no more than the labels burden me
I'm soon to go
never letting it go

Please i beg you
never let me go
even if i push you so

I know its tiresome
but I'm worth it
I'm special
I'm super

Super dreadful at this moment in time
so shall i share this
what would that human think of this
Stable or not
sane or insane

never letting go
Ill hold on stubbornness
never letting go
even if you are ripped my supports from me

I'm here
I'm me
never fully leaving spirit in place
never letting go my soul will be here as long as you remember

Please don't forget me...
you need me...
I'm superman
not so super anymore

who would look to the skies at a coward unable to face tomorrow

but
remember me...
please...

Infections

Feel me, breath with me
I am superman
Rather super you cannot define me

Let your mind expand
past what we see
Past those words that define me

I am super
Watch me roll to rhythm
past here and done let those labels roll on by causing no doubt here

For when those labels expresses their puss filled wounds I'm am vulnerable

Don't test me
I'm Superman
Catch me by a millisecond
Don't let the infection run its course
Corrupt you
making you blue

Blue Monday's
They are upon us
Lets SCREAM
Ahhhhh
Mondays as just dreadful Wednesday's
but I'm Super
you cant stop me

I'm stronger than the labels they don't rule me
I'm stronger than anything you through at me
Because I have my supports

They help me rather rule over me
no oppression here
No more mistakes
no sins
I'm trying to be rational

Irrational people let the labels rule them
under oppressive states of their minds

Let your mind expand
I'm Superman
Cant you tell
I have the strength to over come all
No label rules me
I may be Super but I'm ME
ME
cant stop me
I'm stronger than oppression

Labels don't define me
Labels don't rule me
Lastly

I think of world without this oppression of labels
For we who suffer are Super
For we are who are
Don't let the oppressions of societies rule you

You are stronger than the label
Monday through Friday
Saturday Sunday
Holidays
365 days no lie
no labels for you and I

BE Super
be me
Don't let labels control you

You are strong
You are super
Free to be you
Without that puss filled labels

I'm superman no infection for me
Remember you are free to be you
Labels be everywhere
just don't them affect you

Spirit

Where am I
but a star bouncing across the ocean within the galaxy
I like to think I have some sort of fate
This star who I am soon shall form

I am Spirit first
I am the Warrior within you
I am your strength
I will protect you

Who am I but soul
Different but for millisecond
Soul is here to stay it will wither over time
only to make room for new souls

But when the Great spirit resides in your heart you feel the call for body mind soul and spirit

You never know when he will come for you
Choose your  path lightly
Do just acts
Don't let the anger control you
Don't let the Rage consume you

Joy will come to you as soon you has expressed her self and just like her sister sadness she will feel left out and just want to join in the fun and games

Do not worry sadness will give strength is dire time
in those times refer to your strengths
your heart
and Spirit
Your smile the great kindness

Don't be afraid of that monster inside us all
we will tame them him her them they have no gender just like spirit but they hurt me slowly you say

I know this
Look at me
I'm tarnished
scarred beyond repair on the inside and out

Stop the labels
Remember the light will shine bright
Beat your war drum
paint your face
Ready your spears

Its time
To tame the beast inside us all
Its our struggle
some will saw you will never win

But Fuck them
they don't know how strong you are
don't get me wrong
I don't know you

But i know spirit
I know the beast
I know this war far to well
for my scars show it
I may lose a battle one or two from time to time

That doesn't mean i lost the war

Beat that drum

Ready your spear

Ride that beast across the ocean of emotions
for we but pebbles that cause ripples

Be
just be
A ripple wanting nothing more but to strive

because you beyond all this pain and hurt
You were a victim
you were vulnerable

Survivor you are
Till you find you path
And when you harness you beast be that
and dance across the ocean

you will be ready to be that WARRIOR

Ready your spear
It keeps you balanced

Upon this war you now ready to reap the spirit realm of evil

For the great spirit that has seen your battles the fallen and the risen above all
he she them sees now
you are ready for the spiritual battle

Be that pebble
upon the ocean
cause ripples upon ripples
in our societies

Want Need and Will Have

Sometime we find our selves wanting to be with the closing sun under the distant harvest moons light over the glistening bay of water under the sunset.

Here one would think to find serenity, tranquility, Peace.
Even if a Rainbow was to appear, that would symbolize Hope within my mind.

I want to be able to have a full slumber as deep breaths snoring Zzzzzzz....
Without having to scream out in pain and agnony either from those distant memories that are hurting me so

Jabs of sharp pain hits the skin, what can I comperhend from this but hurt tears screaming reaching for help.

What I want to feel is puffy white pink orange blue purple clouds in a light sunrise perfect for the day start.
Start each day with harmony a hum to keep you balanced do ra mi far see do

We are millions upon millions of ripples from the casting pebble across the Ocean of emotions that is within the reality of galaxy of spirits. Beyond this we cant comprehend what is there often do we find humanity pounder with their Gods Theology Philiosphy and Science.

With my travels as a wonderer upon the salty sand in a dune of of sand, trecking slowly as the mind is timeless each shard of sand that drips down endless it seems in this hour glass.

Emotion is here it hard to explain but with who or rather what i am i feel as though even in the emptiness that is caused by rapid emotions rip my skin a small stream of light red darkness drips down my arms.

Freedom your silly mind thinks but for milasecond before regret sinks in

Becareful that you dont do away with self that you devour everything but skull and bones leave the soul tarnished and twisted no longer is it roots wrapped around Gaia mother earth she doesnt allow corruption here.

As you wither and scirm Spirit is here to collect what is due
But worry not

You and I live on as long as a glimpse of what you did is still in a memory a deed not to small for any kindness

Remember the silence of a smile but the kindness it can bring.

I think from the skin coloured scars all around my arms would indicate that passed all that
but would be but a lie as i still yearn for this but I been starting over.

I am not withering but reaching for the sky as my wood base and long tree trunks burst into the sky.
It is not to long before little branches appear with green buds of leaves.

Soon the fruit will be bared to the our world for who or what we are shall it be sweet and everlasting
or bitter with the world around it.

I am not such a person to the second statement stay but a glimpse of the disorder

Dont let the labels rule you dont let the disorder own you

You yourself me i yes maybe that can be true
yes but it is for with my reality
This is what I understand

But im not in cement shoes in this ocean current remember were it will rapidly take you.
I leave what is written on soul as words are ever flowing out of me as long as i draw deep breaths.

Believe in me for I believe in me and I am everlasting as long the deeeds are forwarded

One can only hope for Today so we have Tomorrow...

Trans day of rememberance

Here are Today
A memorial for those who have fallen over the years even in the present
I weep as think of those who are gone
Who strive to over come their oppression
Its sad we have come to this such hate for self
I not transgender but my friends are but i know what it like to feel as though your not in the right body
to have such inner hate for you look like
To struggle to have self doubt
But I have strength
From those around me
I a co leader in society in pride of youth
We all be youthful in out hearts for humanity needs it to live
I lead so i can make a path for the younglings i see their strength as i teach them what i have learned

Dont get me wrong i was a wall flower once buet now i am but a Fyrefly
Going to Camp fyrefly helped overcome ansirthe fdarkness in heart when it came to being a bisexual women but now i have growed up i releaze that im not but a pansexual as i dont see the gender anymore but more the person.

What do we have to do to remember all those who have fallen under depression from not being born into their right bodies.
Is this from a God of some sorts
is it a test
We all transition in life
Some mpre such a transgender or transsexual man or women

Lately we have been seeing alot of reconision for this issue in the media
Today in Red Deer we celbrate not the fallen for even if gone from suicide or acts hate
their spirits still live on within us in LGBTQ+ communities around the world

I am so lucky to have such wonderful people who are going through their battle with self and battle with society
Often do i find people who say to me you can change your mind your body but change you dna
Thats just hater speaking but speak to them with hate in return but love and understanding
Power to you all
My love for humanity grows stronger as i see role models of tomorrow grow in my little group
So the LGBTQ+ pride youth group of red deer want to welcome you to share you stories with us in transgender person or persons you have known to surivive this world or to die for their freedom
Share you experience how you have over come hate
And conquered oppression
We all have
be you gay straight lesbian bisexual transsexual intetrsexed asexual pansexual or just plain you
Stand tall
your not alone
you never will be from now on
Because people have fought for our rights we have now and rememeber to not give up for it truly gets better.