The path

Voices echo inside our hearts
To those we have lost
Within addiction that crushes those souls
Unable to grasp the light of recovery in time
Do we pray to our higher power
To have his ultimate Grace upon these lost ones
What do we do from here
But to ask God as we understand him
To heal our hearts and or spirits
For those we lost
We move forward
To carry the messages of recovery to other addicts
So we don't get lost in our own paths
Remember your not alone

Confliction of the heart

Where do I go from here
I sit upon the screen
Pondering what will become of me
So I write and write to you thy Lord
Will you guide me from the darkness
I'm trying hard to not give me to it
Cutting is the major diaster of my life
Smoking that good ole herb
Is past time to me
I struggle with my addiction to both
So I write to you
What will become of me
If I open my heart to you
Put my soul to you
Making it lighter
But conflict arises
Confliction in the heart
You made me this way
Gay as I can be
Proud of who I am
Even with the badges on my arms
Heart on my sleeve
People love to take advantage of my good heart
And I let that happen within my insanity
Lord aid me in this fight
Please
I beg you
Let me be ruler of my insanity
That turns to clarity
Heart that high up to cloud nine
With out the high of drugs
Without a cut to my soft skin
Lord let this prayer
Dare to inspire
Anyone who suffers from above
In your name I pray
Amen

Goodnight

Clouded is thy mind
Unsure is outcome
Swallow the darkness or the light
Medication is a must
Swallowing the light
Take me away
Suffocation is in the nights air
I gasp
It's Nearly dusk
Am I suffocate in the light or the darkness

Why do I do this to myself

Light conquers darkness any day
But the light fades in the night
Stars shine bright
Will they shine upon me
Star shine I all you too guide me from night to Dawn let the mother sun shine bright
Taking away the darkness
Fight don't just fight but conquer
I'll admit
That Darkness dances upon my emotions as the sun sets
Please I been free me from depression
Medicate me if you must
Insomnia is not my friend
It kills me as the night goes on
Tick tock goes the clock
I tremble as I hide under my covers
Will the monster get me

I break as the night runs it's course

Insomnia kills

Why must I toss and turn as the demons run through my head
I'm scattered and scared

Running out of time the sun is Nearly in the nights sky
I'm running out time to kick the demons out my head and get a nights rest
Dear human
I'm dead not yet in the ground
Well this mental health ever be tamed
Illness runs it's course
Venom ruins through my veins
Even as I curse
Spitting blood out
As I cut slice the night away
Trying to get the venom out

Bones show their way

Cut with the knife
Burn away the night
It's time to swallow the darkness
It's won
I'm nearly dead
Time to bring life apart from this night
Goodnight human

Got life

Where am I
But on the path to serenity
If so why is the chaos in the heart Rock's my world
Chained down to this Earth
Unable to conquer the heart
No longer on cloud nine
Addiction runs through my veins
My mind can't expand
I'm stuck
Standing at the edge of reality
Wanting but a taste of insanity
But I got tempted by serenity
She bonds my heart
What to do from here
But to walk
Got to crawl before you can walk
Running and tripping trying to gain balance
My addiction runs ruin to my heart
It's like Poison
It runs a little bit of confusion
Irrational I am
Wanting to make the right choices
Shall I revert to the old ways
Picking up the blade
Severing my veins
Precious skin
So tarnished
Wear my badges on my arm
So you can see the real me
You can't hurt me
I beat you to it
This is the true addiction
Cut burn devour my soul
So called path of serenity
Please
Am I on the cycle of chaos
Wanting only to be
Imagining that serenity
Has penetrating my soul
Only too tricked by the old devil
He Snickers because I fell for it
Chaos is his
I beg God to save me from my insanity
Nothing left but to walk the Walk as I talk the talk
Here I am pouring spilling my blood
For nothing but temporary satisfaction
What is there left to do
Insane in the membrane
But at least I'm clean from some of the addiction
Clean as I can be
One day two day three four
Keep counting
I'm nearly dead
I saw the light
In my heart
Thump thump thump thump
Roll to the rhythm
Here I am
Perfect as I can be
Even with my insanity
Look to the bright side
God blesses me
Because I'm still here
And I'm clean
And free to be
Just be