He slumbers within me
and he breaths with me
each breath i draw he is with me
i fall to my knees
screaming insanity
Hoping for no more
Unfortunate to carry the blade
Slice and dice
Heat up that the flame
burn that flesh
prepare for hellfire
the stairs go downwards
not for me
heaven knows I'm miserable now
unable to cope so i cut rip and burn
I reach out
I am destined for disaster
I'm a burden so
everyone grows tiresome of me
within this humanity
Why
must
I
Drown in emotions
They rip and tear through me
I'm done
I'm finished
ready the blade
I scrabble up the stairs
To the kitchen i go
Shall I do the dirty deed
and rid myself of the insanity
Hes awake now
and he whispers
and if i cover my ears he gets close
and screams inside my head
Is he the God for me
I want to stay on the path
of righteous
but here listening to the GODHEAD
i confess i never worshiped him
but he is not comforting
hes been here a long time
and nothing stops him
hes sleeping
one med two med three more
swallow the darkness
because the light burns you
tarnished i am
What will i confess to yet
do i believe
i do indeed
in the one God indeed
Allah the all merciful
Why must i suffer within the insanity
is it a jihad just for me
its destroying me
unable to cope
as the emotions run in and out
my sanity is near
within salah dua dkhr
but i did this once before its only temporary
Cut
Rip
Burn
repeat
Cut
Burn
Rip
one cut two cut three and four
More and more badges on my arms
what will i do
I'm so lost
even within your divinity
I'm forsaken
I'm beautiful
even in the burden of a mind
Hes close
i scream
but I'm silent
tied to the bricks
within my mind I'm stuck with him
unable to reach out
so i write
and write that heart out
bring peace to me
even within the insanity
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