Slice Am I free
Cut burn deemed for me
Is this serenity?
Chaos of the nafs
Will this be reality once again
Reach out
Why?
Is it worthwhile?
I scream
As the blood drips down me
So silently
As the crimson bliss
IS ready for me
That's right
Get Ready
You old dirty devil
I'm hell bound
Will his snicker and roar wait for me
I that whats meant for me
I thought I was right in my haq and deen
Will this dunya save me
Quiet
As one recites true serenity
Is meant for us
Lost long forgotten and forsaken
Only one is meant to be worshiped
Even in times of deadly deeds
As one takes a blade
To go down the river
Fuck that
Zig Zag
Deep
Rip and tear
Oh God
Save me
From this insanity
I want love
To love me
Is it possible
to go
7months with one cut nor a burn to claim
Noor is waiting
On another side of the bliss
Fear
But love conquers all
His love for his creation
Bismillah ar rahman ar raheem
Yes its ready
Finally
Free to be
What is next?
Lets close our eyes
Ready for a new canvas
to blend and morph
Yes something old and forgotten
Remember the good and forget the hurt
Its pending
My soul deemed for thee
Am I ready to see?
Finally
Am I free?
Monday, January 13, 2020
More to vent
Labels:
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confession,
heaven,
hell
Next let Go to be Free
Falling in to the well of doom
Drowned in emotions to assume
It dank and dank down here
So something long forgotten lurks here
I thought I was free
Silly me
Far from thee light
I'm drifting
Wandering upon the dreams that come to thee
Here
Do you see
Beyond whats needed
Outside the box
Soaring upon the bliss
Wait this is but millisecond
I can hardly breath
Puff Puff Pass
Why cant I be free
Does the depression conquer the heart?
OR have the lungs die?
Both are the killer
I am me
Stuck beyond reality
Illusions here there everywhere
Visionary Yes its Scary
I am strong
But even weakness is here a tad to dear
Something is wrong
Within the nights mist
Snowing bliss
Here I am
Puff Puff Puffing
once again
for something other than the so called medication
Time to say
What needs to be said
I scream within my illusion hoping it to be my reality
Are you listening?
Do you hear me?
What is next?
Beyond the deadly deeds
I scream as insanity is what is clear to me
So let it be
Even within this destiny
Drowned in emotions to assume
It dank and dank down here
So something long forgotten lurks here
I thought I was free
Silly me
Far from thee light
I'm drifting
Wandering upon the dreams that come to thee
Here
Do you see
Beyond whats needed
Outside the box
Soaring upon the bliss
Wait this is but millisecond
I can hardly breath
Puff Puff Pass
Why cant I be free
Does the depression conquer the heart?
OR have the lungs die?
Both are the killer
I am me
Stuck beyond reality
Illusions here there everywhere
Visionary Yes its Scary
I am strong
But even weakness is here a tad to dear
Something is wrong
Within the nights mist
Snowing bliss
Here I am
Puff Puff Puffing
once again
for something other than the so called medication
Time to say
What needs to be said
I scream within my illusion hoping it to be my reality
Are you listening?
Do you hear me?
What is next?
Beyond the deadly deeds
I scream as insanity is what is clear to me
So let it be
Even within this destiny
Thursday, January 2, 2020
Reckoning
Burnt to a 1000 degrees
Is this meant for me?
Reckon this may be the light I truly need
To just be
Star sprinkled light
Time is running out
I am me
Even within this destiny
Shall I just be
I feel broken
I cant pick up the pieces
Glass shattered shards
Blasted into the sand in the hour glass
It me
Sanity
Ready
Start
Go
I know I'm not alone
I feel as though
This solitude
Reckons
My heart
Will I conquer the shadow?
Is this meant for me?
Reckon this may be the light I truly need
To just be
Star sprinkled light
Time is running out
I am me
Even within this destiny
Shall I just be
I feel broken
I cant pick up the pieces
Glass shattered shards
Blasted into the sand in the hour glass
It me
Sanity
Ready
Start
Go
I know I'm not alone
I feel as though
This solitude
Reckons
My heart
Will I conquer the shadow?
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