Journey

Here we are again, wandering into the night sky

Wondering if this is upon the day, to come hoping for something that the master seeks us for and we are beckoning that we are ready 

Firstly you will see the actions, by the Prophet Mohammed we will peace be upon him

At times I feel so broken and burden to the Lord 

Tarnished until I break falling to the ground and failing to meet reality lost within the abyss 

Trying to levitate within the mist to find the truth, once again as it slips as each time you go into a non lunacy phase

I feel that as the Lord, is testing me 

Allah you are right to do so for life is just many tests for us to understand, to be humble to another to let the love flow

We do as the prophets before us have done, what had the messages truly said to be kind to one another, and do it on to those  would do to yourself

We're coming to the rise the sunrise and as we do would do we get through ready to do our Fajr, before we pray to God.

Saying Oh Allah I offered thee my prayer please accept my salah

Not giving up having some hope, climbing out of the pit even if this lucid mind is but limited.

Maybe I will rise another time more motivated to be simply free

As the freedom bares with me I allow some sanity, will this be possible

May having such hope means to please thy Lord

So Dhkr is best for you and I

It's said helping one another is whats best of deeds, the smallest, and the humble we become

To let say to the day Alhamduillah thank you Allah for Haq 

July 21st

 Do you feel this time

Upon the daring memories

Must I see them, all over again

As each emotion burn, tears touching the skin burning lightly so

Shall I spend  another decade, wallowing in the abyss

Afraid to rush into the bliss

Understanding not what is right, for the emotions ever flow

Upon this time I am better so

But still burning tears to the face

More tears this year than before

Its been 27 years,  a horror to self

I want to scream, but my voice inside is silent

As emotions flow to the brim

Bursting at rim

Ready for flight, or fight, 

Perhaps freezing 

My mental health is but solitude, I try to gather thy emotions

To be a solid and not bend

Will this be thy will

nothing but Willing to please

As I plea with an unknown deity 

Why much hate for self?

Shall this be another year of sorrow

Waiting for September

Ready to plea

With a lord indeed

The October a double hitter

Only to hit winter to spring of depression state

So lets levitate

To the new arising

To be free, even from sanity, so I plea and plea

So suddenly

Free as I can be

Just breath

Clarity

Falling onto the path of uncertainty, why must it be this way
To inhale the bliss to dismiss what may be right
Uncertain are the daggers to my heart of thy mind does it tear
Emotions run rapid on my body, does it quiver ever so slightly
To Suffer so much that chaos of my mind soul and body enters artificial bliss
One medication dose, then the noon one
What possesses me to not take supper and whats the point?
I falling into the pit, and I ran and jumped with glee to get here
Is this whats meant to be within the insanity beyond the clarity
Do I see? Whats meant to be
I refuse to suffer more and more so I grasp what maybe a light
To rip twist turn
To make new rifts so the insanity doesn't distort
This is right in this light whats meant for you and me
To invite whats deemed to be
So I write, to write my heart and every emotion out
I am here
Remember me, with my words
New rifts to be within what I deem in the Clarity
Sun Soaked bliss, That I not not dismiss
Smile its deemed for you and me
Beyond the suffering
The chaos is near, but the bliss wins the race
Clarity dismisses the insanity, that is what is right
Once again I am Free to Be within this destiny

Striving for Love

 Changing for solitude, to retreat to the deadly deeds

Fallen, ready to bleed.  Is it time for me?

Finally I feel free, maybe a skill or two will help the burdened so

Tarnished beyond control, the tears rolling down the face, and burning so 

What is Love?  The Sky? Death? Humanity?

So many questions, not many answers.  As we live

Only to die, so breathe another breath

Love is needed, wanting to enter your soul

To bring peace, so bare with me

Wandering the night sky to dawn wondering what is to come?

Let us breath, finally upon the insanity

Strive once more, we are strong, we are gathers of love

As we express through a gesture, a kindness, a smile, a hug

It's all needed in this life, to keep us from the solitude

Drifting in the abyss, ready for anything

I am strong, for if I made it this far, maybe I'll find peace

With this peace hope will come to conquer the darkness and comprehend hope

What is this Hope?  But striving, want nothing more

Than to please Thyself, ThyGod, ThyFamily

For this Peace for all will be everlasting

Never fear, nor fret, to drop a tear of sorrow, wipe your face clean

Smile for another day, to fight, to breath, and to need

Reaching for the brim, will i find the way through the haze

To serenity.....Just breath