Fade

The mood of the room

Feels despair, where to go

Upon this time to tell

Once upon the twine

Shall I mend to feel

All these emotions

Running through me

Like a sheet of icicle

Ripping, ramming what is this destiny

With me, am I free

Am I suppose to dream?

Will I consider the emotions

Shall I surrender?

To the will, of who

Intertwined with my will

My Lord comforts me

It's the race mirage at bay

Where you go, but to the light

Don't dread of the najs deeds

For I redeem myself

Am I supposed to be able to conquer all?

I'm falling down to the ground

Pledging my loyalty

That there is one

Only one

That is Allah

For he shall save me

These emotions that run at me

To keep them at bay

With but a plea, a dua

To breathe finally

To be free, to want something more

Following the Noor

Hopscotch to the Bay

For the light shall surround darkness

Leaving life full of uncertainty

Of the times that be

Have some hope

For tomorrow shall never fade

being of Destiny

Running on the railroad

Not knowing what to end

Follow the Dragon to never never Land

Climb the ladder, define Cloud 9

Wanting nothing more but for serenity

The internal chaos that seems

What but an Infinity

As it shines brightly

Forming one another

Glimmering light it seems

Switching the vision to be

Pattern here and there

Light that reflects all

Pattern near truly not so dear

Dread to the max

Unable to cope

What you do from here?

Screaming in my head

What to do from here?

Pleaing with the Lord 

The needy that I be

Stuck in the chaos

The circle that goes on

To ponder upon Time

To point logic at this source

Am I here?

Do I matter?

Will I ever have serenity?

To keep on striving

To fight the good old fight

In the everlasting war

Destined to be, solely but purely unique

I am destined to be, stuck in this insanity

Shall I be content with this?

One can only hope, that something comes from the disaster

Has the pieces seem to fall in place

After all the harm has been done

One hopes

One needs

I truly desire, something that makes my mind clearly

So I seek the truth 

Always in my heart

What is but peace

Bringing serenity

What I truly need

So let's have destiny

For God said be, and that's all I can do but be

Full-fledged maniac

Supercalifragilisticex schizophrenic

A breath of fresh air

Sweeping in the darkness blowing out the light

Surely this is his might?

To seek refuge always

Life may be what it seems

Lose not hope

That is needed

Be free to choose to be content

Thanks to God we are here

Even within the schizophrenia

I am but being within this destiny

Destined Bullets

Blissful is the day, to be taken down by the nafs

Rolling by like bullets on the drive by

Self-inflicted emotional damage

Side by side does it define

Bursting at the brim

Simmering ready boil

Ready not done

Blowing the top

Construction to the heart

The blueprints burnt to a crisp

Holding on to the insanity

Craving for the chaos

Waiting for Destiny

Shall I be free? 

From this insane insanity

Let me breathe

Those deep breaths

To conquer the najs desires

To hold it tight, that light

The Noor to hope

Holding tight is my breath

Fear of the suffocation

Hoping for serenity

To heal the heart

To conquer the anger

To seek the wisdom

To want peace

Everlasting peace

This is what is destined

Dare to Desire

 stop drop mania

on the bend

ready to mend

time to send

upon dismay

shall I pray

upon this plea with insanity

will this be

Let me see

the deeds that be

whatever I need

shall be for me

despair of a desire

To want to overcome

to bring the bend

to the mend

upon a time to tell

will I be free

destined to be free

bliss filled meadows

calling me

sweet melody 

blessed I be

happy, mad, sad, striving

Tears of sadness conquer the happiness

As the rippling goes down as the tears are ever flowing

Dancing in the sky falling to my knees 

Conquered by my insanity

I'm happy then sad and truly mad

The boast of the Hatters

In the party of madness

One moment I'm mad like hatter

Follow the rabbit down the hole

Take me to a fantasy dream

Where sadness is no more

Care for the sake of self

Complete with more than a tad of madness

I'm struggling to keep the light

To follow the Deen

Where happiness leads with eman

Side by side

No no no

To the darkness

You can't win, for the Noor will always be knocking on my soul

Hoping to win, wanting more

Striving for stretch

A leap with Glee

Shall this be what sets me free

Waiting for the bliss

Conquering desires here and there

The everlasting chaos of the desires that be

Finding peace, not an easy quest

I will follow the way

Throughout thick and thin

My hope shall always be with my Lord oh Allah

Everlasting harmony

Strive evermore

There will be peace

Matters

Do I truly matter?

Upon this time to tell

Waking within the darkness

Allowing the surface the flow

Smooth as it goes, rough as it seems

I am burdened beyond the bend

Self inflicted chaos

Bursting with emotions

One pattern to pattern 3 pattern more

Will this insanity ever be free of me?

Wondering within the doom

Willingness to get better

To try to cope, conquering the Nafs

My mind is split

Where to go from here?

Up up up down down down all around over again here we go now

Where to go from here?

To the Infiniti circle of chaos

Ready to be free

Do I truly need?

Help somebody help

My emotions are conquering my soul

Ready to truly need

What is that that I need?

Is serenity, and we find this with the almighty Allah the one I only

For he will never leave me

For he always hears, even the softest of whispers

Finding myself

Well I be free?

Upon this time to tell

I shall strive

Conquer the desires

To overcome they emotion

For nothing will get me down

Never alone

For Allah has always on my side

So be free, even within this insanity

Let it be

That way follow the light

Define the serenity

As Time flows

As the sun rises in the sky

The dust within the soul

Where to go from here?

Once upon Insanity

I am free to be me

Even when I am mean

When I'm mad as a Hatter

Perhaps time will tell

If Serenity can seek my soul

Where will I go from here

But following the light to ever happiness

Let me breathe within

This hell that is put through my soul

Will happiness ever come?

Tick tock on the clock, as time is everlasting the humanity

Will it ever end?

I just wanted to end

But I'm stronger than what I was

Like a brick wall 

Unable to bend nor break

To have some time ponder

Time has come and I'm finally nice to myself

No more rips No More tears

I am fully free

When will I choose to leave the chaos behind?

The infinity circle is here, but time will tell if it's good or bad

So I Fall to my knees and put my head to the ground

I followed the light, and let it be so bright

Everlasting happiness

This is what I seek within this world

Temporary as It seems

With whims and desires

Sadness comes and goes

Teardrops fall from happiness and sadness

And let me breathe

Full of life, I need

Blessed be life full of bliss and insanity

So finally let us breathe

Within the doom we see

Finally will I ever be free?

To allow Serenity to flow inside me

To bring peace to the mind and soul

Follow the way you seek

What is humanity but perfectly imperfect

We are but flawed

But we will not get us down

For we have Allah

So be not afraid to stand in the darkness

Light will always come

That is Hope