the chaos of confusion

Drifting upon a time to tell

Chaos of the heart

To find peace in serenity

Only for something to boil over

The lava within the soul

Swells within time

As the anxiety seems to be

Bringing nothing but confusion of the mind

Unable to comprehend even words of serenity

As I Fall to my knees 

Pleading with the Lord 

To save me from this chaos

I'm overflowing

The emotions that bear

Anxiety to the max

Depression to the blade

Wanting to cope

Failing and falling for destruction

Where shall I go?

Upon a time to tell

As I stand at a fork at a road

To follow the darkness

To drift with insanity

Is this what Destiny is?

I strive always

Resulting in disaster

I am but chaos

But a dreamer of this world

Where to find Bliss?

Where to find serenity?

To fold my knees, bowing my head to the ground

Seeking the truth

The way

The hope within the hour

To save but a second of a moment

To be free of the insanity

But for the moment

I shall pray even when the confusion

Penetrates my mind

I am but a glass shattered

As millions of emotions bear me

I scream ever so silently

The tears run down my cheeks

Burn my soul

Am I broken

Beyond repair

Used goods

Worthless

 Useless thoughts these are

Broken not but rebuilding

Construction of the heart

Blueprints to the light

Seeking serenity

Finding the one and only

Allah I call upon my Dua to you

Where to Go from here?

I breathe only to find depression

Breaking point

Start again

The serenity is the end

That is Peace of mind

To hold onto hope

Fovever more

Against the tide

Let there be peace

To the chaos of the heart

As the shadows collide

Shimmer here and shimmer there

Pitter patter and get at her

Patterns here and patterns there

Up and down all around

Shift gear shift there

On a collide to the Stars

I just want to die

But here I am striving on

Against the tide

Ripping the current into my soul

Undoubtedly the best way to do it

To ponder if it's right to be

To be free of insanity

But the shadows have collided

The patterns are here

The voices seek an audience

What to do?

But seek light

Find peace

Strive against the tide

Emotions rise

Perhaps it's time

To define

What I need

That is clarity

So do the deed

The smallest are the best 

We truly need

To humble ourselves

To not give in to the insanity

Is it time to let go?

Time to plead to God

To let me strive on

To pray on time

To never waiver within the deen

As time has come to tell

Another story to come along

Forevermore nevermore

the words that be

Words to keep me from solitude

Words to guide me

Lost ones

Hoping, wanting, and needing

The light shines bright

A path towards sanity

The words that call me

Bring peace

Save me from my nafs

Daring to survive

What is Peace?

Bringing hope

Words that call me

To Kingdom come

Happiness attainable

Sadness with despair

Near and dear

Striving to hope

What will come?

What is next?

Actions before the reactions

Deeds for the Dunya

What we need

That is Islam

Finding hope

With the words

That turn my heart

Words that love

Where to find?

From someone's tongue

From the scripture

We have perfection

That is the Quran

The words that guide

That is what is needed

To bring peace to the mind and heart

To lighten the mood

To worship one

The glorious, the mighty, the great

Allah

That is perfect harmony

Spur of Time

 we be crazy

 not knowing what do 

here we are all over the place

 all around wandering the night sky, until the time has dropped 

unknown is tomorrow crazy is this world 

unable to  be full of bliss

we shall dismiss

the darkness up and all around

 crazy for the time what to do

 lets go 1 2 3

 here we round and round all around crazy too 

what to truly do

Break slightly

Something's breaking

Unable to comprehend 

Grounding upon the time

Stepping on the millisecond

Ripping around the bend

Falling to the ground

Following the Dragon

Moving with the river

Against the rhythm

What will come up this?

Unmanageable to bear

Upon this time to tell

To the extreme one must go

To lose hope in all

To scrape to the surface

I'm wrecked beyond the bend

Well I truly be on the mend

Can I break free from this insanity?

As I try and try

I am a disaster

Upon a time to tell

I am but me

Full of this insane insanity

I truly breathe

Breaking from the braces that be

Holding me so slightly

But to break free

Shall save me for my sanity

Without it, do I truly matter

Well I overcome?

What will I do?

To hope for another day, so tomorrow doesn't fade away

something more

Running on the highway not knowing what to go

Unable to cope

Wanting nothing but to die

The Galaxy's collide

Causing chaos to divide

Calculated to the best

Unable to cope

Like explosion in my mind

Up down all around here we go

Hallucination here and there

What is reality?

The illusion of the delusion

Wondering what to do

To fall to the ground

Worshiping the one and only

Seeking refuge with the Lord

Unable to cope 

Walking on the bend

Bursting at the brim

The emotion over bears

Unable to cope

Take the blade where to go

Take the flame right here now

Unable to cope but seek refuge

That God is on your side

The devil is the Redeemer perhaps he is the deceiver

Up down all around

Mania on the mend

Unable to cope

But to seek refuge

In the one and only hope

Where to find they say

Look into your heart

Follow the Noor

Conquering the darkness

Unable to cope

Here I am

Ready to be

Full of insanity

Is it time to bleed?

Hoping for freedom

Wanting something more

Hoping for something more

Receiving hope

Where to go from here

A Pondered moment

A leap for peace

To demand honor

To bring hope, to the despair

Wanting something more

To seek the deed

What's destined

To be free, that brings peace 

That is what, I need

Something that destined

Hoping for paradise

For but a moment

Finding peace with the corruption of the heart

I breathe so lightly

Screening inside my head

Wanting the voices to be silent

Pitter pattern on the mend

What to do?

Shall I depend, on the cloud?

Wondering what will come

Of this hope 

That is peace

Harmony right for me

That is Islam

The right way

To follow the Deen

The best what I can do

Is but hope for action

Over the nafs

To redeem myself

To be free

To confess

I am me

Full of insanity

Let me breathe

For Allah said, Be

Striving always

Hoping for freedom from the desires

Wanting

Getting

Receiving

Hope

Love

Calm

Finally Peace