I am

I am me

Full fledged insaniac maniac

Up and down all around

My head is full of confusion

Uncertain of who I am

Am I still me?

Unable to cope with that one cannot comprehend

Hoping for uncertainty

Wanting the past to repeat

Wanting something to destroy

Other than myself

Insaniac to the mania

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Start again and have some more

Upon a time to tell

What we need to do

To carry one another

Helping each other

To face the world

Showing that you are here

Full-fledged maniac

Full of bliss

Unable to cope

Ready the flame

Take the blade

Ready The noose

Are these right to do?

To seek refuge in your lord

For The whispers have penetrated you

Wanting something more

Needing, wanting so much more

That light keeps on knocking

To come to your heart

To conquer the darkness

To bring the noor

I am me

Full of anxiety

Will the worry take me?

Secret with the Lord

He hears you

Allah knows your heart

Even when your burden so

So have faith

Keep the light

I am me

Full of anxiety

Full fledge insomniac

A breath of fresh air

Bringing the hope

To conquer the nafs

That is what we need

To strive to do good

To redeem myself

I am me, a breath of fresh air

Following the Dragon

Living for the desire

Dying for the high

Unable to cope

Why must this matter?

Am I able to apply logic

Upon this time to come

Wondering what will be

Will I fail at this once again?

Here I am standing

Tall as I can be

Full-fledged maniac

Wonderful

Beautiful

Faulted

Damaged

I am but me

Stuck in this insanity

As it rips me into pieces

Humpty Dumpty on the wall

Truly had a great fall

All the King's Men couldn't put Humpty back together again

As one can relate to this

Shattered Beyond repair

Shall I follow the Dragon

Pulling in the smoke

Suffocating to the max

Declining in health

Truly because I want

The darkness to dismiss

I want the light to reside

Through thick and thin

The fog is set

Here I am wondering within the mist

Will I find myself successful?

I want to stop but I can't find the logic

Does this mean that insanity is here

Unable to cope, unable to breathe

This surely is insanity

Where to go from here?

To Hope for success

That is the future that's not a mess

dawn that calls

Holding on to something

Wanting something more

Awake within the midnight

Pondering upon this time

Do I follow my heart?

Holding on to sanity

My mind spins

Vision of the koliscope

Shifting to something new

Wanting to understand

Unhappy maybe happiness is near

I try over again

I am free, so strong

Will the fate be!

Promise to swear to the Lord

I am here being

Everything within destiny

I stand tall

To fall try the ground

To worship to need what Allah deems

What we need

Will heal me

Bring peace to heart

Waiting for Destiny

Patience

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Start again

Dawn calls me

To see

What I need

A spoonful of Bliss

 Golden with brilliance

Sweetness with courage

Apples of heaven

Cinnamon and sugar of the heart

For the passion of sweetness

In the dreams to come

Upon the spoonful

A blissful moment

As the glistens of the fruit touch the tongue

Lingers the saliva from the taste

Destined is this a piece for you and I

Apples so glorious

Apple some more

Crisp to the Bliss

A heaven sent

This piece I give to you is my heart

Forever peace will be more

where do I stand

Slumber slumber into the night we go

Ecstasy for the high

Pulling myself down

Depression to the max

Solitude for the mode

Unable to comprehend why

Unable to cope

Wanting something more

Here wanting finding

The journey goes on

Two stars collide causing a climax

As the ripples within the water rumble

To hear the roar

Of the chaos of the heart

Wanting something more

The darkness sweeps in

Swallowing the light

I can hardly breathe

Suffocation attire

Will I have freedom?

The torments of my mind

Burden my heart so

I take the flame

To cover the flesh

Corrupt to the heart

Here I am a disaster

Coming from all directions

The darkness sweeps in

Unable to cope

This night is a torment

Has the water drops down

Heaps of tears roll down

Why must I be this way?

Can I not find peace

Something to conquer

All The nasty desires

Unable to comprehend

Here I am wondering the night sky

The Ecstasy of the night

Shall I truly breathe my final breaths?

I truly want to slumber into the eternal night

To be ripped two

For the light is here

Do I fall, do I climb?

Climbing the stairs

The hardship of the desire

Holding on to hope

The disaster is near

The light it shines so brightly

That darkness begins to dim

As the sheets of light consume me

Am I free?

Free to be me, full fledged schizoaffectic maniac freak

Let me scream, shout out

Can I be free of the desires?

Follow the light they say

Keep the light close

My heart yearns for more

The everlasting slumber calls me

I fight with all my heart

Not to give in to the darkness

To seek the light always

Even when the darkness wants to consume

The light shall come knocking

To tear down any doors

That lead to destruction

So come with me

Let's fall to our knees

Doing dua

Asking for the supplications

Hoping for something more

Finding peace of mind

Will peace be free?

Or is peace unlimited

I shall stand tall against the darkness

Bringing in the light

Breathing in deep breaths

Hoping for something more

Acquiring hope, acquiring the light

This is peace

Hopefully it will last

Uncertain of what to do next

Please let me conquer what is to come

Standing tall

Breathing in peace

Allowing the light to consume

Finding solitude

Finding peace

That is what truth is

something more

Once upon a star 

I call to you

Will you feel my emotions?

Will the end come?

Keeping my mind on the hope

Something more something needed

The light consumes me

Everlasting bliss

Will this last?

I ponder too truly wander

Today I breathe

Tomorrow I suffocate

Falling star

Wishing for the dream to come true

Happiness is what I want

Walking the distance

Hoping for sanity

Wondering what will come tomorrow

Arise to a new day

With different emotions do they sway

Once upon a Time

According to the star that shines

Happiness is but an illusion

Delusion of what is to be

I follow the light

To bring my soul to the clear path

Shall I slumber?

A sleepless night to come

Upon the stars that shine

Upon the time that be

Hoping for happiness

Getting the results

Up and not down

All together now

Emotion here and there

Everywhere

To follow the path

To the fork in the road

The right or to the left

I follow the way

I follow the light

What path that takes me to

Will it bring happiness?

I call upon the stars that be

Will you save me from my insanity?

I finally breathe

Followed by a smile

To bring hope

To bring happiness

Never separating

Shall I bend down to pray?

Upon this time I shall be

Thanking the stars that be

To save me from my insanity

Let me pray

To the one and only

Where hope is found

Where happiness resides

Upon the time to tell

As time goes on

I shall pray

Forever lasting light

Forever and ever more

uncertain destiny

Walking down the path

Waltzing to Destiny

Can I feel my way through?

Stop drop emotion

Where to go from here?

Running on a railroad

Wanting everything to end

Stuck in the cycle

Chaos of the heart

Uncertainty is here

To bring it near

Upon this time to tell

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Running on the railroad

Coming to an end

Shall I die?

Does this define time

Wasted as it be

Uncertainty takes me

Will I finally breathe

Will I finally need

Ready set Go

It's time to let the river go

To run down the stream

Truly I shall scream

What is happening to me?

Fallen but not graced

Unable to comprehend

The cycle goes on

The chaos of the heart

Let me need, levitate me

Shall I truly be free

Speak to me, guide me

Down the path I go

Uncertain to the max

Down the path I go

Wondering what will come of this

As the flame wanders on

Scorching what the darkness wants

I follow the path

Uncertain as it may be

Uncertain as I need to be

Well I truly need serenity

To follow the path

Finding certainty on serenity

Let me breathe those lovely breathes 

Shall I be truly free

Does this define me?

Finally just breathe, be free