Saturday, June 15, 2019

Is there Room?

Where am I?
Stuck in this chaos of thy mind
Do I express this time?
To let the happiness out
Is there room for this bliss?
What is next
Perhaps I am right tonight
To conquer time, to have reality
I ponder truly to be stuck out of this desire of the blade
For Bliss shall not be dismissed
Until in a few blinks of my eye, my mind is wandering
Into the galaxies verse
Is there room for me?
To be with thy bright light of serenity

I Wish I knew a way to allow this without
The drift, to shift, to jerk, and slice
because that is what leads to both
Control of the desires to end
To be, to know self, to lose self
Until I die a another minute
Here I am being?
Is this what meant to be, within ones fate to be

I don't want to be this way
I never once thought I would make such a journey
Of destruction to grace of kindness
If not for self at least for the betterment of humanity

Is there room for me?
To be happy with glee
To feel lonely and be
To conquer the wreck
Is this reality?

Perhaps it can be
It depends on the mind
If it ponders within time, how to feel and be
is this whats meant.....

Friday, June 14, 2019

A ponder

Allahu allim
I'm here again
pondering upon time
Can I barely reach the surface
Allahu allim
I call out
Only one answers me
deemed for us
demmed for you and me
Bliss surely not to dismiss
Down and not right
I drift
To sink in the dank darkness
Shifting until the mania sets in
Rapid emptiness
they say
what is ment to be
I am Me
Prfect as I can be
Even within the insanity
Perhaps
this is right
Upon these days
Allahu Akbar
I am with you God almighty
Save me from my self
Make this my hope
Allahu allim
Why do I suffer
only to suffer more
I here freedom is here
Do I choose?
Seems that way
inshallah its get better
because darknesss is winning
and bliss barely surfaces
inshallah ameen