seek noor

Swallowing fear

Hoping to comprehend

The terror within the heart

As The whispers come so silently within the mind

As they scream so loudly

Why must this be this way

Stuck in the insanity of the abyss

Lost within the mist

But a beacon of light comes

That is peace of the heart

The soul that bears reckoning

From what is this light

As it comes knocking on door

Wanting to consume the darkness

To bring hope to the mind

Has the solitude brings despair

And who shall surely care

That shall be self

Self-love is needed

But I am defeated

So the light that I reckon

Will come to me

Even within this insanity

Wanting, needing, something that is right

Within this light

I shall deem what is right

To not disappoint

To break free

From this chaotic insanity

So I plea and plea

With the Lord Almighty

And that is light in itself

That is life

But a test without a struggle is nothing

To strive on

To conquer the darkness and to embrace the light

Perhaps that is what is needed

Within this chaotic world of insanity

Artificial Bliss

Look to the sky

Will I cry?

Upon a time to come

Standing at the base

Hoping for solitude

These whispers conquer

Taking the heart, breaking to pieces

Stuck in the abyss

Shall I dismissed?

What will come

Of this insanity

I plea with this world

To hear, to see pass the illusion

Perhaps this is a delusion

Happiness but something that is gone

Artificial Bliss, what will come if I miss

Here within the doom

I shall devastate thyself

Reaper please come for me

The fight goes on

The everlasting war

Hear my Battle cry

As I scream so silently

So lightly

Let It Be

Within this of insanity

Will I be pleading with the Lord indeed

I call upon Allah

Save me from myself

For I am the destroyer

For I am the devourer

For I am a warrior

I shall Trek on

In this artificial Bliss shall I truly dismiss

To finally breathe so freely

So deeply

Let me breathe, pass the powers that be

Come on follow me

In the calculated chaos of this world

I shall not be defeated

I shall carry on

What will come of me

Time shall truly tell

Patience for the heart

Solitude within destiny

Let me breathe so deeply

Just breathe

Foolish Warrior

Am I but a fool

Stuck in this foolish world

Unable to comprehend

Breaking into pieces

Crumbling at disaster

Despair within the heart

Hopelessness

All of these things are here

Why must this be

Do I deserve this?

I hate myself

I do not love myself

For if I did I would not ready the blade

Despair conquers my heart

Hopelessness sweeps me into the darkness

Hate burdens me

What will come of this

Disaster will come

Maniac of Bliss

Shall I dismiss

Unable to cope

Shall there be hope

What is that

Where to find

Where to go

What is needed

That is light

To conquer the darkness

For hope will conquer all

Where to find this indeed

It's quite easy you see

Fall down and prostrate to thee Almighty

Worshiping so lightly

Ever so tightly

Does my heart feel

Hope is needed

Within the heart there is but a small light

Flickering within the haze

Almost going out

It shines brighter

What is this

That I feel

That is peace

That is Islam

Oh Allah

Have mercy on me

For the darkness conquers me

I'm ever so weak

With you Allah I am strong

I will strive on

Fighting against the darkness at every moment

I am but a warrior

Within this light

I shall dismiss this despair

Opening my arms to Bliss

That is Islam that is peace of the heart and soul

the Infinity of Chaos

Crumbling from desires

Standing as an Empire

Over the masses of the mind

Starting to turn face

Facing everything at once

Overbearing oneself

Crumbling to disaster

Where to find self

Falling into chaos

Unable to cope

The dirty desires are done

For the monster inside

Devours my soul

So lonely and empty inside

Up we go to Cloud 9

Does this define

The times that one can be full of glee

Times turn over and over again

Up to the mania of the chaos

Only to shift again

Now I'm balanced but for a minute

To shift again

Up down all around

Here I am in the insanity of my mind

The infinity

Until the end chaos shall reign

My heart burns ever so

The fire inside burning so brightly

To take the Noor in

For we be rebuilding

Taking control

To confirm that this may be the way

Solitude not alone

For the fear of loneliness may be gone

Where to find Hope

Where to find Grace

What will come of this

Serenity of the heart

Only for about a minute

Counting the minutes as they go by

Striving on, here we go into the chaos

Taking control, allowing the light to consume

The fire inside burn so lightly

Hope inside is bright, so we be

In the everlasting circle

This time we have serenity on our side

So the lighthouse shines brightly inside the soul

A beacon to the solitude

Bringing serenity in

That is what is needed to conquer

The mania, finally I'm free

To be truly me

Within this insanity

There be but Noor

Within my heart

Shining brightly

Bringing peace

That is what is needed

insomnia wonders

3:00 a.m. wonders

Tightness in my chest

Unable to comprehend

Anxiety at the max

Insomniac

Unable to slumber

Tick tock on the clock

What to do from here?

Up down all around

The mind you see is up and down

How about I come around

I plea so silently

To who indeed

That is Allah the Almighty

3:00 a.m. fun

Not knowing what to do

Mindful of the situation

Despair will come

Hope will disappear

As the clock goes on

Nearly 4:00 am

Wanting to slumber

Unable to do so

Insomniac 

Critical to the max

Hoping to hit the pillow

Hoping to hold onto sanity

I can upon the Lord indeed

To save me from myself

The bad deeds, surely reap 

Mania bursting at brim

Unable to comprehend

Why must I be this way?

Hoping for this chaos to end

Insomnia here it comes

Mind deprived of sanity

Surely the insaniac

Full of insomnia

Can strive to do better

To Hope, to overcome despair

Ponders that will never end

So we shall depend

Upon the Lord indeed

Shall save me from my insanity

Truly is this what is needed within this despair

Truly let's climb the stairs

Holding on to hope

Wanting something more

Insomnia wanting more

Ponders and wonders ever more

Rooftop Fool

Sitting here on the roof top

Making me wonder, of this glorious world

Who am I?

A fool within the world of fools

Pondering a time that has passed

Broken into peices

Sitting here wondering

What is next?

The day comes as the clouds roll endlessly

Over my head, what wonder this world is

Am I a disappointment?

What will come of this ponder

Here I am sitting full of serenity

I breathe the breaths of freedom

I am free, I will conquer my desires

I truly need strength to overcome this storm

With my heart so burdened

By the troubles of the world

I am but perfectly imperfect

A human within this world

A care taker, as it was destined

The world to vast

Here I am

Pondering until another storm comes

I rise to realize that time that demands us

Is but limited

So make the best of what we have

Ponder those thoughts

Make them into actions

To bring peace to the heart and soul

To bring peace to the world

Dash

Dashing through uncertainty 

Where you go from here?

Finding something that is wanted, needed

The light that leads one

Wanting something more

Hiding from the doom

As the Nafs conquer me

Following the way

The Noor

What is this

The light inside me

I breathe holding in destiny

Breaking into disaster

The mania here

Out of control

So I seek

The Noor

Following the way

To find Hope at the end of the tunnel of vision

Even with the disaster

Of bipolar

I breathe, even when the pain speaks to the

Destined to fail

The mind surely is bent

Beyond destination

One can hope

Keep on holding on

Never giving in to najs thoughts

Shall I be

Free finally to hope

Wanting nothing but to Hope

So I will

Ponder on within my destiny 

To breathe, to finally be

Free from the shackles of the past

Burdened so

I shall not give to the disaster

I shall recovery

I shall arrive only to strive

Within this world of calculated Chaos

Pinned

 I am but a blank slate

Ready for anything to come

I am within my solitude

Within doom to be

Devastate my heart

Has each pin points

Shall I fall to the dirty deed

Within this destiny

Shall I truly need

What's meant to be

Within this mind that sees

Upon the time that needs

Let it be upon this time of insanity

Seeking what might be of clarity

To find that serenity of the heart and soul

I am but rebuilding

Broken not beyond the bend

Fitting everything together again

I am but broken, gluing the pieces together

To bring something of a masterpiece to be

Will there be help beyond thee

Perhaps this is what is destined for me

Pin cushion destiny

Heart needed within this

So revealed within destiny

Let it be let it be

Pin cushioned Bliss

Bliss?

Prepaid Bliss

But on the blitz 

Here we are

Seeking something not real

Artificial Bliss but only to dismiss

Up in the sky, shall defy what had been written for me

There's the need to be bad at deeds

Mania on the bend

I be trying to mend

Up up to Cloud 9

Does this define the prepaid Bliss

Of the artificial Bliss

Running on the treadmill into sanity

Only to drop down to the ground

Down again coming to darkness

Here we go again

Upon the time

This time I will mend

Surely not to bend

To be firm allowing serenity

To help me

Breathing just every so nicely

Breathe here there everywhere

Life may be slightly off putting, but sanity in near always

Dare to live, upon today

Seeking the way

Do you truly call thee

For you be good or bad

The choice is yours

To seek what is right

To follow a desire

What will come

So many choices to make

Perhaps the time will come

With a shining purity will come

Showing its light to you

So seek the noor

Away from najs nafs

Bringing happiness to the heart

Bringing peace to serenity

We be good but evil

That be humanity to a key

What is right

Perhaps this is a tightrope

Trying to balance one's soul

Wobbling as one walks

Trying to not look down at the spare

Having desires to look up at purity

Follow your deeds, make them good with balance

Avoid the darkness

Seek the light

For darkness truly brings despair

Following the Noor

Will this be truth

Bringing peace to the heart

That is serenity

To bring me through the thick uncertainty

Being a beaming light

Guiding those

To Hope

Bringing happiness here and there

That is what is needed

In this world of despair

Of clarity we shall be

Away from the chaos deeds

So seek the way

Perhaps it will save you someday

Wonderous

Wonderous this world can be

With all the life within serenity

To seek what is most close to you

That is the light knocking on the darkness

The guiding light through the Stars

When will we find the truth

Will it finally come

That is light

Seeking something that is not there anymore

With all the doubt within the heart

One feels but a burden

Unable to comprehend what hope is

Wonder if this world even when in a disaster

It's so perfect

Yet you would doubt

What truly truth is

That is Islam

The peace that you need within your heart

The fire that burns within

The hope that guides you through the darkness

That is the one and only Allah

The Almighty

Fret not for you think you are not worthy

Of the compassion of the one and only

For he is the most merciful the most gracious the most forgiving

Simply put one must

Repent with their heart and soul

Allowing the light to guide you through the darkness

To the truth

Mine may be far from yours

Perfectly imperfect

In this world of strife within calculated chaos

One must truly strive

That is what is needed

To fight despair

Follow truth

Strife to strive

Dancing upon the skies

So far from reality

Where to go from here

To dance across the galaxy

Wanting to take the Ecstasy of the heart

Devastated by the deed

The desires that be

Within this world so sadly

To dance is to be free

Free as the stars within our Galaxy

The will for hope

Dare not fade, upon this day

For we live for the day

Does tomorrow ever come

Wanting for it, neverending nafs

That tie me down to disasters more than blissful events

Blundering around the corner

Catching myself

Breaking into a thousand pieces

Division of the heart

To do good or bad

The everlasting trial of humanity

To strive with destiny

Even when there is but strife

This world we have is precious

Seek the unknown

Follow your heart

Breathe within this world

To be fully free

To truly be me 

The rhythm of The Beat

Moving to the rhythm

Let the blood flow

The heartbeat goes on

In the everlasting flow

Infinity everlasting Bliss

Shall I dismiss

Perhaps this is meant to be

To reap emotion

To feel relief

To have serenity

One must seek clarity

Even within this confusion

The mind seems to be

Far from thee

Wrecked beyond the bend

Destruction on the mend

Moving to the rhythm

Of the heartbeat that goes on

In the Infinity of disaster

Striving within this life

Let it be let it be

Even within this insanity

I truly breathe

The light inside of me

Shall always be knocking

At the darkness door

What to do

But to seek noor

Moving to the rhythm

Of the everlasting flow

Will the light consume me ever so

One can only hope

So hope for today so tomorrow does Not fade away

Finding something

Catching my breath

Running on the treadmill

The cycle of chaos

On the Infinity Bend

What to do?

Seek refuge with truth

La illah illallah

There is only one

The way

The light shall find you

Following the Noor

To the door

Of the fates that be

What is Haq?

One can truly find

If you truly seek

Finding the way

Thick with confusion

Breaking to the chaos

As last fall to our knees

Prostating to thee

Allah The Almighty

That truly is serenity

Calling for the need

To be able to see

Through thick and thin

Here I am seeking clarity

Finding peace

Within this chaotic world

Needing noor

Finding Haq

That is Peace 

Seeking This

Where Am I

Upon this time

Middle of the night bliss

Shall I miss

What is meant for me

To seek the way

For peace to come

Not knowing, nor needing

Here upon this time, disaster to plaster

Up to cloud nine

Does this define why its time

To break

To be free

Of this chaos of the deeds

Destined for me

Conquering nafs

Here there everywhere

What is it meant to be

Well full of this insanity

I scream so loudly

Only to be so silently

What is it?

Shall I reap my deeds

Trekking in this path to come

Striving against the disaster 

Wanting peace

Seeking serenity 

Let me breath

Upon this time of insanity

I truly need

The noor

So seek it

Always

For the Peace

The fork in the road

Stuck in this abyss

What will I really miss

Within this destiny that it's meant for me

A twist and a turn in the fork of the road

Not knowing where to go

Lost within the mist

Holding on to my solitude

That I shall dismiss, and I will truly miss

Sulking through the wetlands

As tears burdened my cheeks so

Weeping not knowing what to do

Screaming wanting nothing but to end

Hustling for this land not knowing what to do

Seeking what seems to be right

Perhaps tonight shall be the night

Holding on to happiness

The illusions that is here

Happiness but a hallucination

Tearing down the conclusion to be

Ripping down destiny that needs

Reaping your blessing

Until the deed is done

Laying down to slumber

The only peace I get

To rise again to start again

Wrecking through the wetlands, hustling for the lands

Start again will this ever end here we go again