The demands

To the starting line

Upon this time

What demands of us?

What do we need?

Will these things bring serenity?

Ask these questions when we are corrupted

Within our destined desire

We find that we are no match for "He"

Who is this the most supreme the most merciful Allah indeed

Bang was the race on the go

Starting off at a steady flow

As the hurdles begin to come

Somebody struggling to jump over them

But those who matter most are those who strive

Who fall to the ground but get back up

The ones who do not give up

Running to the end 

Wanting nothing but desires to fade

Wanting no happiness no Love no hate nothing

I want to be an empty inside 

 I don't want to feel anymore

Will this ever end as I'm running to the finish line what to do indeed

Shall I reach out to thy Lord and ask for his Mercy

But I find myself bickering with him instead

I Fall to my knees as I almost reached the finish line and what do you do

But solely be

Even in this Insanity that wrecks me

Blessed be this time indeed

For the sanity is here

At the finish line indeed

If you have Sabr

Then perhaps you will overcome what is here

In all that you had in life do we know what it means to be

Perhaps I know what this means

For we are but slaves to our desires but in reality

We are but a slave to Allah

So even in this chaotic deen I have

I still find serenity within me

As I surrender putting my head to the ground and worshiping Allah

Do not give up

Do not hate

Love God

Love self

Love others

We should go by this everyday

Counting my pennies up today

Not knowing if I have enough currency to beat the dismay

Running on a railroad not knowing what to do

Up and down all around all the merry go round and go

Merry go around try a roller coaster up and down all around

The mind goes rapidly not knowing what to do

So once again I Fall to my knees and worship the one and only

The most merciful the most gracious

He who see's the unknown

That is Allah

The one and only

So save me from myself so I may find serenity within this Deen

Blessed be even though the insanity is here blessed be lovely indeed

Will I be saved

Here again, chaos near the end

On a rollercoaster around and around

Flesh hanging with the doom, Carnage near and dear

With insanity at the bend

Coming up and around

Swirling mind and emotions whirlwind through me

At times I feel so hopeless

At these times I'm lost

With the brim

Smoking until death

Will I ever win this fight

Against Insanity

Mania ready set go

Running on the railway

Waiting for the trip to end

Chaos ready

My mind is stuck

In a Kaleidoscope vision

As it twirls and whirls of lights to see

Why it ever end

As I age I feel more and more sick

Medication doesn't work for me

All I have is therapy

It's not enough

I'm lost

Amongst the Myst

Within the abyss

As ever emotions, they surely burn

Now the emotions are on over flow

I cannot cope

I want to ready the blade

Heading it up

Until red to match the crimson bliss

I try and try

With the way

Can I stay?

Please Allah save me