Will I be saved

Here again, chaos near the end

On a rollercoaster around and around

Flesh hanging with the doom, Carnage near and dear

With insanity at the bend

Coming up and around

Swirling mind and emotions whirlwind through me

At times I feel so hopeless

At these times I'm lost

With the brim

Smoking until death

Will I ever win this fight

Against Insanity

Mania ready set go

Running on the railway

Waiting for the trip to end

Chaos ready

My mind is stuck

In a Kaleidoscope vision

As it twirls and whirls of lights to see

Why it ever end

As I age I feel more and more sick

Medication doesn't work for me

All I have is therapy

It's not enough

I'm lost

Amongst the Myst

Within the abyss

As ever emotions, they surely burn

Now the emotions are on over flow

I cannot cope

I want to ready the blade

Heading it up

Until red to match the crimson bliss

I try and try

With the way

Can I stay?

Please Allah save me