A chance

Where to go from here?

As I walk this unknown path that was once known to me

It will be hard at first as All things are

Remember you are never alone

For Allah is on your side

Don't fret, strive on

Is this meant to be within reality?

As the signs are see to look beyond what is deemed

To always ready sell for unknown

For everyone to be on your side, is this what we strive for?

As the sun rises and it surely sets as time is a man thing

Time itself is limitless it is all going on going

I m   want nothing but to feel at peace

So I strive and seek knowledge

To build one other up

After all we are the caretakers of this planet

The world is vast wide like a carpet as it unrolls

Do not take this into a simple-minded thing

Does your mind bend to reality?

I see as far as I can see beyond this reality and what is Deemed for me and truly do

I see indeed

To strive as ukhti

Let it be let it be even in this insanity

Is this what reality is?

All I can say is alhamduillah

Thank you Allah for me

To bring Islam into my heart all those years ago

It truly saves me from time to time

To reflect honestly

To be stuck in the delusion of the mind

A fool and but a world full of fool

Sanity is needed here there and everywhere

Be on time to see is this what reality means for me

To recognize right from wrong

Do not let the desires ruin the taste in your mouth

And do not become bitter with your God

For he is all knowing and all loving and all merciful and deserves all worship none worthy but Allah

As the time is ruptured

I'd lose myself in the insanity

It's not clear to me where I am

The delusions run my mind and I'm far from me

And the hatred consumes my heart and I become dead inside

Well I ever be free of this insanity

Perhaps this is what just is written for me in the pre-ordainment that's Deemed for us all

Recognize these

Assalamualaikum

Peace be upon to you

Don't forget to reply

Or that left Angel

Be busy as a bee

Don't forget when you arrive in front of God on judgment Day

Those angels from the left and the right will be there with you

And God will see what is deemed that he deemed for you

The Free Will that he gave you

Do we use it to please you

Do we use it to please self

If we must please anyone then please please Allah

For he is the creator and without him you would not be

I'm stuck in the delusion does your mind see

Moving in and out turning my back on sanity

Many look and see what's theme for me and they see that I don't cover my awrah

It does not make me less than you or me I'm still being

I know what is a beligatory I don't need a reminder

We all have our own struggles in society in our heart does it see what is deemed for thee

So I fall to the ground to my knees begging Allah indeed

To put my head to the ground and pray so soundly

This is not for him but for us

To become closer to God

So remember just be honest to self because if you're honest then at least you have a chance

something dear

Starting fights, where to go

Flee the near

Very far from a dear

I look into the mirror, a stranger stares straight back me

You self deny who you remember

You have changed, soon to come

The lack of understanding

Help me not, nothing it seems

Stuck in this chaos

Yes it deemed

To find serenity and loose it so

Up and down

I gave up

So a zap here, a zap there

4 more times, something happens

Dreading anyone think

Drop dead for 15 

Yes it seems

Since then I'm not me

My mind you see

No one understands me

There is no help

Just meant for me

Far off in the past

There was me

Now I'm not

Losing self

Wanting what was lost

Here

I

Am

Fading away, what is next?

Anew

Here I surrender

Upton time and time again

My path withers only to seed

To grow anew

Alhamduillah

Staying each day

With fajr

Living self so one can understand

To desire to want more than basic feelings

The balance can be found in many ways

Alhamduillah

Where do we stand, on the edge

Wandering so slightly more

As the time moves along

We but are bounded by our nafs

Worry not for Allah is by your side

Allahu akbar

Alhamduillah

Finding life in this dense world

Lost in emotions, busting at the brim

Not all walk through the sand

Some do through the coals

Hurting the heart more and more

Making something hard bitter

Not so sweet, what will help

Maybe dua, inshallah

Forget not the dkhr

Remembrance of Allah

Alhamduillah

End the day

Going for another peaceful day

In Islam...

help

Help me

Chaos is here

Never letting go

As the light disappears

Sure food and beer are allowed

But those who need the community

Are shunned

No ago

No ssa

No help for the mentally

I'm buried in my feelings, ready set go

On mania let it flow

Striking daring do I say

Beyond what we need

For help us so

Conquered in the chaos

Is this what deemed for me?

No help

Radio for the final breaths so I need

I can't stand the carnage

This leads to devourer

Don't let this desire go

Got to be in a cage, with the darkness within three light, for it will always coexist

We the people be deemed too

Hello with this

Going stray on the bend of books with the chaos

The eye of the storm

I don't want to give in

Unfortunately these be hard times

peaceful

Staring to think on sanity

Is it time to face that grief, of so many lost

Near and dear

Best to deal and let go

To surrender your soul and heart

The one and only

Oh yes Allah indeed is best for thee

Finally to be finally do I see

Dreaded deeds fight through flesh

Stuck with this doom

Best to let go again, allow Allah to see

Beyond the sorrow

Can I grow ground the deadly deed

Without God there is no hope

Just the mind pondering

Thinking of solutions

There is but one cure

For the heart and soul

The closeness oh Allah

Glorious you are

Knowing you have brought hope

Struggling to keep at the brim

The darkness I fight and fight, it's my jihad

Struggle do we all more than once

Free to be

Smile for its a kindness and good deed

Having hope had been difficult for me

Holding onto sanity

As the days pass

I realised that what deemed for me I may not accept

But Allah is with me and never to forget

Love is what's needed for self and those important

To drift to slip to run

As fast as the dunya

This is the deen

Inspire me

To never give into the nafs

The bad indeed the distorted

Dreaded as me

Personality

Shines within me

All that noor

Fool to be

Never letting go

I want to forget

But here's I plea

Oh Allah

I wonder if I'll be free

Is this what it means

To be a slave

Submission to the Lord

Allah the justified and merciful

Shines on you and me

So today  hope

Bring some Peace

Sabr to 3lm

 Where to find it, to not be haste

Upon this fate, to suffer

Losing hope, but I am not a shadow to my bitterness

As it twists and turns, I must fight the darkness

Letting that light keep on knockin

Beyond the brim, to truly dream

Am I dreaming?

I must be all the patience need to be

Alone I face, nor am I in solitude?

For Allah is always here

Never leaving the light to stray

As it flickers within the shadows

I still know oh Allah 

You never left me

No matter how many times I turn away

The snickers illiusions beyond what reality

For those emotions burn and swell

Happiness is needed and what brings such

The skills for your blueprints, stepping stones to jannah

Is this the way?

Inshallah

Is this Qadar?

Bring hope near and dear

A smile a kindness and good deed

We need, some more than most

Kindness is the sunnah

The best of needs should be happiness indeed

I dream, to plea, to scream....

I am afraid of what is to come

I've lost so much, will God leave me too?

Dont lose you grip, we got this is

Alhamduillah

For you Allah

I need you

For happiness

Thank you for the Sabr

This truly means we are free

To come and go

To stray

To repent

To Pray, all in the cycle of chaos

At least there's some Hope

So Hope tonight, to make another night

love

Where do I find myself, longing for something

I found long ago

Merciful and all Knowing

Who is this?

It goes beyond who

Not really what

Something ground so

Beyond being

Beyond all we know

Where was I?

Lost, waived through the tall grass

Longing

So I read, and read

Searching at every deed

Oh Allahu

I finally found you

To surrender my will to you alone

I love with all as you do

I am far from perfect

I am the will of Allah

Therefore I must be

Allahu Allahu

Don't leave me

Don't let me wonder

I want to be be with you always, for this is my peace

I love you, beyond my being

My soul longs for haq

Where does I find but within

Islam

Shall then peace reside in the heart

Thank you Allah

For the prophets and messengers

From all over the world

We believe because we are you creation

Born with fitrah

Loving self

Loving Allah

Loving the world

For we are the care takers

Never forget to say Salam to the mountains