Advice indeed

 what do people want in this life?

I cant say for others

I want to allow the emotions to rip rapid 

Unable to cope

You see with this insanity

So please listen to me

I do not choose to strike about

From happiness mania comes

Manic uncontrollable emotions to bear

Upon time you see its set still

I am a maniac

This is me, surely

Only within insanity

To please hear me

I strive to be good, so should you

Sabr is important use and understand well

Don't let that darkness take over

For we fight always

That is our jihad

To I plea with the lord indeed

To save me from myself

what we need

Feel the solitude, seeping into me

 As I despise what is become of me within every day, I change over, and over again 

I never am the same

To say this within reality, but not knowing what an illusion is 

Happiness can be the illusion, so display an illusion you will see what's beyond this reality

With it will you see, will you truly see? What is truth, what is within the light? So do need this indeed for every human and creature 

To give a smile a kindness, a good deed to one another 

To be good to this world we live in, because without it we are truly lost w

Within the abyss not knowing where to go?

I find myself upon my destiny once again, falling into the abyss

Fo I miss what is sanity, I do not know indeed I feel though as I see 

What is in my reality is, but an illusion you see 

I am not welcome within my religion you see 

I am too radical with peace, love, and kindness 

I am thought to say that the prophet Muhammad peace be upon him was all those things too

 All he wanted was United Muslims

Humanity too, it's better to catch more flies with sugar than vinegar 

So remind this that you, do not know judge in a person's heart 

They could be fighting against what you think is wrong, they could be striving to please God

 

Indeed do not judge them but advice them be there for them 

Not passing judgment is not in our day To do not know what's within the heart

Only Allah can see, don't you know understand we need to be to be able to handle when the darkness 

When it comes for thee

Perhaps you indeed for those whispers you hear, and those dirty deeds 

We are stuck with him insanity and let the mind see 

What is this light that I see, over and over again  

That is, but Allah indeed 

So blessed be

Aug 10th

Alhamduillah

For you

Thank you Allah

To brighten the path

Rememberance I see

With hope there is Noor

Weather the wind roars

Ice wall's through me

Bearing with me

With the insanity

Let it be let be

As long I'm with Allah

I'm not afraid to stand alone

For that is light and haq

The oneness of God

We finally know from the final message

To Prophet Muhammad SAW

Let me breath

So deeply

That anxiety withers as strength from hope, Allah indeed

Bless it be

For the Ummah

Let us strive indeed

Tears

Memories here that be

Right down the lane

Storming with insanity

I want nothing but to be done

With emotions you see

It's overload as each one hurts

Worse then when happened

Scarred so much

I can barely breath

Will some of this pain lessen for me

I feel lost and down, consuming with feelings

Rapid as they rip through me

Brings me to my knees

Do I plea

Not lately

I'm losing indeed

Still fighting

Till the end

Striving for happiness

sadness lost of hope

Where to start

I'm broken beyond the mend

My mind twists and turns constantly it matters turns to rage I don't feel good most of the time people really affect me because I'm an empath and that means I see him feel with emotions that see beyond what you can see within the reality but all I can think about is the tears resident in my heart and fall down my face has each one burnt my skin but I'll always be alone because everyone leaves I have people that don't call me back I have people that don't message me back I have family that I haven't talked to in years why does everyone judge me so I try not to judge others that's not my job I just want friends and family but I have nothing but the blade flare the flare

Destined to be tarnished will I find my way I thought I did with him his mom could even then I'm not understand no one understands me I feel lost me on the bed in my heart is written telling me go to our myself and I'll never know if this is the right way but I'm done hurting myself inside with all the emotions that flow why doesn't anyone understand that I can't control what happens to be I can't control the delusions the confusion the race to time will I live alone life probably not because eventually I'll lose the war and then the end will come and no hereafter for me I just want to stop existing I don't want to be this way anymore but I've always been this way and it just gets worse and worse as age so if you don't hear me or talk to me that's okay I've been alone since the start

I hope you have a good life

edgewalker

I wonder how this be's within the insanity

As my heart sees beyond reality, in the delusion you see 

I can't recognize what is right in the light 

I'm misguided you see at this time of rage and anger and fear 

You see, perhaps someday a cure will be found, but not in my lifetime 

I do not think, but who knows 

For there is a cure for everything for Allah cures all

I am far from perfect, perhaps perfectly imperfect 

As my mind goes up and down in the emotions that flow 

I remember Allah is always by my side 

To seek refuge in God from the accursed Satan 

What if it is not from him?, but from God indeed 

For Jihad is not just fighting in a physical sense

One of the most important ones is your spiritual self, and your personal self 

The ones that you go through every day of your deen

Alhamdulillah inshallah mashallah

These are all good words we should say 

Minute by minute, day by day until we rest in the grave

 For when the angel to collect our soul

To stand before our God, the angels bestowed on our shoulders

Then we will know what the end happens 

Until then we never know for we are not God 

We do not have absolute truth, I sit here pondering upon the days sky 

The mind is very distorted, but my faith is coming back 

Alhamdulillah

Always

memories pain and joyful

As I start to remember 

It blazes past me like a sharp blade to the skin 

The emptiness within, I'm trying to find joyous things in those memories of the past

To remember the good and forget the bad, to not blame myself there's something

That I cannot control to, leave it to God for he knows all

To wonder and wander upon the universe 

Shall one be within the light or cast aside within the darkness, but to remember fight the darkness

To never let go

Just because I forgot his voice does not mean I do not forget the emotions

I felt and the true love of a parent to a child unconditionally

I plea, and plea with my Lord indeed

Time to ponder....

To remember to stop, evaluate to express

 Write your heart out 

Pen to paper, letting it blend for the canvas is ready for the color and shades 

To be known as Noor 

Remember to always look for it even within the insanity that be's