To Serenity

Fall to the ground worshiping thy Lord

To grant me something

That's needed inside

The Noor shifting through the darkness

Confusion to the max

Through thick and thin

Allah grant me the courage

To change the things that I can

To never give up

To keep on fighting the good old fight

For what I do not understand  Allahu allim 

Through the path of darkness

Uncertainty carries my soul

Far from myself

I am lost, where to go from here?

May I be granted the wisdom

To keep the faith in God

To know to keep going

On this path of life

Where to truly go

To follow serenity is where I need

For only Allah Grant me that

To truly know, what is that

Haq with the Noor

Following hope, be it near or at a distance

Truly this will be enough

To bring the light to the darkness

Noor shall bring the hope

To conquer all the thoughts

To love, even myself

To bring peace of mind with my heart

Allah grant me serenity

To I can be at peace

Sanely once again

Hoping, Inshallah

Finding something

Dew drops to the grass and leaves in the fields that be

Serenity found

For but a millisecond

Twist turn time to change

Up to Cloud nine does not define

Head in the clouds

Superficial to the max

Confusion on the walking path

Anxiety has its grinds away at my soul

Will time tell?

Upon the sunrise of each day

I arise new ready to be, the chaos burdens my soul

Confusion to the max

Frustration

No answers to come

Paving the way for anxiety to burn

Where to go from here?

Fall to my knees

A dua from my soul

To the All Merciful, All Knowing

The king of kings

Allah the Almighty

I leave my path to you

To decide what will come next

For my fate is sealed

Only for God to know

So let's breathe

Deep breaths

Finding serenity

Inshallah 

Dare to fool

Courage to speak
Despair to bare
Hope to love
Needs to be
Finally truly free
False realities
Delusions near and dear
Forgetfulness to disaster
Disorganized up the bend
For I truly mend
Seeking the truth
Knowing the way
Upon this Day
I shall hope
I shall strive
I will conquer everything
For I matter

Upon this day

Holding on to the truth

Guiding my soul to the noor

To know what it's meant to be this way

Crazy and insanity 

Baffled by the confusion not knowing what to do

Up down all around don't forget the mania

Such a way to be

Holding on to the insanity

Looking up to the sky

Calling to the Lord who is that

Allah the most Merciful, all Mighty

So we must hope for a cause

To carry on, wondering with this world

Seeking the light and truth

Finding something, for the light that calls to you

Go back to the basics

Stand your ground against the darkness

What is this noor meant to be

Oh so many emotions 

Positivity positive, ready to conquer my Nafs

Feeling the flow go up and down

Level but for a millisecond

I shook my heart, for I must be

Going to the Lord repenting your soul

This will give you closer to the light 

For seeking the knowledge

Define truth in what you need

I know what it is and that is one God in this world Allah the Almighty

Here I am worshiping, the best one can do

Is always seek the knowledge with in Deen

Ready to conquer all that comes

For Destiny allows me to be free

Freedom to choose

What's right or wrong?

Hopefully we'll make the right choices

I have my hope in my heart, whispering to my soul

Keeps on knocking to come for the Noor

Keep the peace for we need it

Blessed to be, keep the hope with Allah the Almighty all Merciful

Keep the peace

Having serenity you find this with a truth you seek

limited time

As I swallow my pride

My desires arrive

Full of emptiness

I figured too many

Time to die

Am I a fool that it defines?

Time is but limited to the human eye

Time as the hour class goes shattered

A shame to be

That the insanity

That conquers my heart and make it so hardened

As the emptiness sweeps out

Surrounding my soul

I am here to conquer this desire 

But we be perfectly imperfect

Superficial is society

Judgmental to the heart

Fear is crossing me as the darkness speews in covering the emptiness

But inside the hole that I am that bees

My desire is to not see

For these emotions and desires are controlling my heart

I am strong for I am a rock within a river

The river calls to me

Am I really here?

River of emotions that I bear

Sensitive to the max

Are you offended that I am sensitive?

To go with the flow within the darkness and within the Noor

For we be striving

To better ourselves

To love one another

Just not myself

Do I desire something that's not needed?

The river flows down the waterfall as the tears sink the emotions

Am I strong and my brave even in my Insanity I be who I am

For life is a trial we all have

Hoping for Peace

 The joys of emotions

As the time truly comes

Reckon its right in the darkness

Unable to cope

Will I conquer my nafs?

Upon a dirty deed what will some of me

Shall I bleed?

For the mercy upon my destiny 

Is but within solitude

Wondering within the doom

What come of this?

Shall dismiss, what shall I do?

Follow the noor

Basking in the light of the glorious diety

Seeking something more

Having willingness to be free

God said Be

So here I am wrecked beyond the bend

Seeking something

I am but a being

In this insanity

Of the world

What must come of this?

Dua is needed for only Allah brings them to miracles

Dhkr is needed in this life to keep on remembering

Keeping the heart light, full of noor

To dismiss the darkness

To enter the shadows, and silence the whispers

No more snickering for the destruction

Is done

For I am but a being in this temporary disaster of a worlds

I will truly grasp hope

Hoping for this insanity in my head to end

Will there be peace?

Only with Islam

So let it be, the light that resides in me

To be free

Always

galaxies of emotion

I am broken, I am burnt

Where to go from here

Is the Galaxies shift together

Every emotion comes to me

Within the millisecond it has changed so rapidly

Unable to cope

Unable to puff

Where to go from here

Do I fall to my knees

Calling to Allah

The Lord and Almighty

Am I free?

To be a disaster

Confusing to the max

Forgetfulness

Anger

These are the emotions, most felt

What will relieve me of these symptoms?

The word they say

What is this

Blinded by the insane membrane

I must find a way

Where to go, but to the beginning

Where it all started

Repeat go

Emotions up and down

All around, lock me up

Throw away the key

Do I deserve freedom?

I called to thy God

Hoping for a relief to this mind

Where to go from here?

Up or down

Up up up up to Cloud nine

Does this define

Down down to the ground

Worshiping the one and only

Allah the most merciful and just

He knows all your secrets

He sees the unseen

He knows your heart

So surrender yourself to him

Perhaps you can save yourself

From the desire of disaster

But here an I am

Being in this world of fools

Acquiring knowledge where I go

Well this truly be what destined for me?

Time can only tell, patience is needed

Don't forget to seek the truth

You will find your way