seek noor

Swallowing fear

Hoping to comprehend

The terror within the heart

As The whispers come so silently within the mind

As they scream so loudly

Why must this be this way

Stuck in the insanity of the abyss

Lost within the mist

But a beacon of light comes

That is peace of the heart

The soul that bears reckoning

From what is this light

As it comes knocking on door

Wanting to consume the darkness

To bring hope to the mind

Has the solitude brings despair

And who shall surely care

That shall be self

Self-love is needed

But I am defeated

So the light that I reckon

Will come to me

Even within this insanity

Wanting, needing, something that is right

Within this light

I shall deem what is right

To not disappoint

To break free

From this chaotic insanity

So I plea and plea

With the Lord Almighty

And that is light in itself

That is life

But a test without a struggle is nothing

To strive on

To conquer the darkness and to embrace the light

Perhaps that is what is needed

Within this chaotic world of insanity

Artificial Bliss

Look to the sky

Will I cry?

Upon a time to come

Standing at the base

Hoping for solitude

These whispers conquer

Taking the heart, breaking to pieces

Stuck in the abyss

Shall I dismissed?

What will come

Of this insanity

I plea with this world

To hear, to see pass the illusion

Perhaps this is a delusion

Happiness but something that is gone

Artificial Bliss, what will come if I miss

Here within the doom

I shall devastate thyself

Reaper please come for me

The fight goes on

The everlasting war

Hear my Battle cry

As I scream so silently

So lightly

Let It Be

Within this of insanity

Will I be pleading with the Lord indeed

I call upon Allah

Save me from myself

For I am the destroyer

For I am the devourer

For I am a warrior

I shall Trek on

In this artificial Bliss shall I truly dismiss

To finally breathe so freely

So deeply

Let me breathe, pass the powers that be

Come on follow me

In the calculated chaos of this world

I shall not be defeated

I shall carry on

What will come of me

Time shall truly tell

Patience for the heart

Solitude within destiny

Let me breathe so deeply

Just breathe

Foolish Warrior

Am I but a fool

Stuck in this foolish world

Unable to comprehend

Breaking into pieces

Crumbling at disaster

Despair within the heart

Hopelessness

All of these things are here

Why must this be

Do I deserve this?

I hate myself

I do not love myself

For if I did I would not ready the blade

Despair conquers my heart

Hopelessness sweeps me into the darkness

Hate burdens me

What will come of this

Disaster will come

Maniac of Bliss

Shall I dismiss

Unable to cope

Shall there be hope

What is that

Where to find

Where to go

What is needed

That is light

To conquer the darkness

For hope will conquer all

Where to find this indeed

It's quite easy you see

Fall down and prostrate to thee Almighty

Worshiping so lightly

Ever so tightly

Does my heart feel

Hope is needed

Within the heart there is but a small light

Flickering within the haze

Almost going out

It shines brighter

What is this

That I feel

That is peace

That is Islam

Oh Allah

Have mercy on me

For the darkness conquers me

I'm ever so weak

With you Allah I am strong

I will strive on

Fighting against the darkness at every moment

I am but a warrior

Within this light

I shall dismiss this despair

Opening my arms to Bliss

That is Islam that is peace of the heart and soul

the Infinity of Chaos

Crumbling from desires

Standing as an Empire

Over the masses of the mind

Starting to turn face

Facing everything at once

Overbearing oneself

Crumbling to disaster

Where to find self

Falling into chaos

Unable to cope

The dirty desires are done

For the monster inside

Devours my soul

So lonely and empty inside

Up we go to Cloud 9

Does this define

The times that one can be full of glee

Times turn over and over again

Up to the mania of the chaos

Only to shift again

Now I'm balanced but for a minute

To shift again

Up down all around

Here I am in the insanity of my mind

The infinity

Until the end chaos shall reign

My heart burns ever so

The fire inside burning so brightly

To take the Noor in

For we be rebuilding

Taking control

To confirm that this may be the way

Solitude not alone

For the fear of loneliness may be gone

Where to find Hope

Where to find Grace

What will come of this

Serenity of the heart

Only for about a minute

Counting the minutes as they go by

Striving on, here we go into the chaos

Taking control, allowing the light to consume

The fire inside burn so lightly

Hope inside is bright, so we be

In the everlasting circle

This time we have serenity on our side

So the lighthouse shines brightly inside the soul

A beacon to the solitude

Bringing serenity in

That is what is needed to conquer

The mania, finally I'm free

To be truly me

Within this insanity

There be but Noor

Within my heart

Shining brightly

Bringing peace

That is what is needed

insomnia wonders

3:00 a.m. wonders

Tightness in my chest

Unable to comprehend

Anxiety at the max

Insomniac

Unable to slumber

Tick tock on the clock

What to do from here?

Up down all around

The mind you see is up and down

How about I come around

I plea so silently

To who indeed

That is Allah the Almighty

3:00 a.m. fun

Not knowing what to do

Mindful of the situation

Despair will come

Hope will disappear

As the clock goes on

Nearly 4:00 am

Wanting to slumber

Unable to do so

Insomniac 

Critical to the max

Hoping to hit the pillow

Hoping to hold onto sanity

I can upon the Lord indeed

To save me from myself

The bad deeds, surely reap 

Mania bursting at brim

Unable to comprehend

Why must I be this way?

Hoping for this chaos to end

Insomnia here it comes

Mind deprived of sanity

Surely the insaniac

Full of insomnia

Can strive to do better

To Hope, to overcome despair

Ponders that will never end

So we shall depend

Upon the Lord indeed

Shall save me from my insanity

Truly is this what is needed within this despair

Truly let's climb the stairs

Holding on to hope

Wanting something more

Insomnia wanting more

Ponders and wonders ever more

Rooftop Fool

Sitting here on the roof top

Making me wonder, of this glorious world

Who am I?

A fool within the world of fools

Pondering a time that has passed

Broken into peices

Sitting here wondering

What is next?

The day comes as the clouds roll endlessly

Over my head, what wonder this world is

Am I a disappointment?

What will come of this ponder

Here I am sitting full of serenity

I breathe the breaths of freedom

I am free, I will conquer my desires

I truly need strength to overcome this storm

With my heart so burdened

By the troubles of the world

I am but perfectly imperfect

A human within this world

A care taker, as it was destined

The world to vast

Here I am

Pondering until another storm comes

I rise to realize that time that demands us

Is but limited

So make the best of what we have

Ponder those thoughts

Make them into actions

To bring peace to the heart and soul

To bring peace to the world

Dash

Dashing through uncertainty 

Where you go from here?

Finding something that is wanted, needed

The light that leads one

Wanting something more

Hiding from the doom

As the Nafs conquer me

Following the way

The Noor

What is this

The light inside me

I breathe holding in destiny

Breaking into disaster

The mania here

Out of control

So I seek

The Noor

Following the way

To find Hope at the end of the tunnel of vision

Even with the disaster

Of bipolar

I breathe, even when the pain speaks to the

Destined to fail

The mind surely is bent

Beyond destination

One can hope

Keep on holding on

Never giving in to najs thoughts

Shall I be

Free finally to hope

Wanting nothing but to Hope

So I will

Ponder on within my destiny 

To breathe, to finally be

Free from the shackles of the past

Burdened so

I shall not give to the disaster

I shall recovery

I shall arrive only to strive

Within this world of calculated Chaos