Where

 So where, somewhere

Floating along a uncertain path

Where to go, do you know?

Seeking the deeds, but crumbling inside

The soul is deemed, and the patience is running out

Dare I say I am no longer hoping

Some say do there

Others say do that

Don't you understand

This is life, soon to run out of medication

Not because I am bad,  because I'm superwomen healing so great

To devolop keloid scars

You know what, the art and ink upon my flesh

Is not vanity, I am covering the darkness

I don't self harm through ink

There thats said, another to spend

Upon this destiniy, do I do breath, not striving

Never hoping, I fear the most of those i love I would hurt

Its twists and turns with carnage there

Get ready for the insanity the chaos to be

Can I do what I want, thats strive for Allah

So much holds me back

Bitterness with life and qadar

What help me, Slipping into the old ways

Who cares?

Not me

Others do, but I can no longer hope

Breaking not rebuilding

When will this end, what will be?

Random morning poem

 do do do do doooo

its five am again

feeling so groggy until 530

then its time to get some clothes to wash wash wash

dont forget, its poor mans stye

so lots od work now itsssssssssssss

645am what doooo but clean floors mop the kitchen

its time to pray fajr is here

have a shower make your self clean

Wudu i love you, feeling so refreshed

I pray the first prayer of the day

Little steps to get better

increaseing my eman

730am its time to clean the living room

almost there clean the clutter and floors

make it so I dont hurt when walking

the floor is ready for zoom zoom zoom

vacccccuuuum here they come

now its 830am the kichen is so clean

i actually have dishes

its nice to see have a break with a clean kitchen and living room

then its time to start the day

hope you all enjoyed

Serenity

 Brighten this

Wondering upon thy deen

Am I stuck within

Insanity breaking the bend

walking into the sunnah

once and always wanting

striving as we all do

Strive for Allah, to please

To strive for him alone

Allahu Allahu Allah

Shall I savor, what is in this bliss

A sweet, homing wanting craveing

Surrendering

For peace, reckon this is what life is

Be content with what you have

Alhamduillah

We all struggle, its our jihad

Please dont forget your dua

I know I have, still I strive against the whispers

My heart can be still, but Allah gives it breath, life, hope

Allahu I am not afraid 

I stand upon my destiny want nothing for it happen

I pray Hope Need and fall

Not knowing what to do

keep on searching

3ilm will find you

have an open mind

Don't forget to strive better self, to care for humanity as we live 

Breath protect this green earth

We are the care takers as Allah has proclaimed we be

Start acting like one

With subbitmitting

Surrendering

God grant me serenity

To give me Hope

And allow me kindness

It shall reap

Upon the living, all the breaths are affectec by thee Allah indeed

It is Dealt

 Where do we be

Wandering upon a tale to tell

Wondering what comes with this 

Shall it be ease or chaos?

Pittering, pattering, round the bout

Here standing here, what will come

Shall the emotions shake ones being like no other

Some cower hidden they have become

Standing here, on the edge

Ready set go

Jack be nibble, Jack be quick

Here I am, stareing at the shining light

What is this, blinded by hope

Want and surfing into destiny

It is a hand dealt to many

Hard ship on the bend

Ready the bout, standing tall

To build, to construct, and to be free

Is this not what humanity is?

We be the dealers of hope

Building one up so they can reply of anouther saint or two

To lead in example

Ready good deed, near and bare.

This is what leads the light

A hope for us all

So gather, dont fret

Have some hope

We will build together

ameen

Wither

 Round, roundin, round, roudin

Here we go, start again

1 2 3, on the bend

What is next, laughing with deeds

Not knowing the sight to see

Here they are, whispering within thy mind

What to see, but to be build within sight and mind

To seek refuge, even though you shifted beyond reality

Once again Murmer hope, what pleases you

My heart is wounded

It bleeds, full of holes

Where shall I go?

Everything I built for, is gone

Lonliness is about the bend

Jerking tears, to not be with what one hold dear

To have them have eachother

Singing joyus word

Wonders of emotions

Smiles

So many hopes

Cheer, having cheer

I am Trying, but it sweeps in the night

Getting ready to choke

Is it ready, pack pack puff puff 

I suffocate indeed

Is this what I want

To suffocate

Freedom of will

As it withers, what is the point?

Do I hope, how can I?

I am Lost, Fading, Disappearing.....

Present 2020

I am here, not knowing what to do

Upon these days does it demise 

A world full of life, but the eccense of humanity fades day by day

Controled beyond insanity

Know what is right, but what is a must

What choices do we have, to rebel or conform

I fall into the shadows, noone wondering on me

So is humanity, as the cries of the innoccent are not fufilled

How can this be the present so far and long and way we go?

What will this be remebered as, the covid era or global opression

We are the slaves to our desires

To be beaten down, just by life it self

Now we face, losing our freedoms

In this so called free world we live in

Many feel conquered

Still they stand tall, with the rest of humanity

How many are falling?

Up up many go to jannah heaven indeed

Some more than most, how do we appeal to God, Allah, Jevovah.

Strive, do good onto others as you would your self

Kindess is a good deed

Sharing is what helps humanity

If you find yourself not believing in a deity

Then do not worry, for no one knows whats at the end

So enjoy the ride if you can

There are those who shape our world

Kindness is good for me

Good for you

Good for them

Do not forget, Love self first

Self is important, and you are not selfish if you look after yourself first

Keep on living is this broke world

Its time to hope for the best

Gather together

Stand tall

Never bending down

Do not Break!