Emotional

So shaken, ripped into the bend

As they flow, and rip through me

As each one, conquers bliss

Fallen angel unable to comprehend

To a write love on the arms

To bring peace to mind

I scream so silently

Will the emotions ever end

Lobotomy up my mind

I don't we want to feel

I scream on the inside

Smiling my fake smile

Remember we are here

Empaths wants nothing of emotions

Demotions ready 

Will conquer the emotions?

Cutting into the flesh

Will that ever end?

Here living with insanity

what to do

We start the day at dawn

Calling you to pray are the song birds awaking 

For they pray with you

So follow the way

We start with Bismillah before we rise

To start the day, smile inside and out

Life is a test

We strive

So start out the door

Shining so brightly

For Allah is with you

You are never alone

For Allah is with you

Don't be afraid of the unknown

Don't fret, want to know

Say the shahada (Arabic)

What makes this world go around

Kindness and good deeds

Let them overcome the bad deeds

You will feel better inshallah

We reap at what we presented

Represent the way

That is Islam

We strive always for Allah

To please him

Watch your actions

They be recorded bad on the left

On the right is the good

Those angel's will present this book to Allah 

On judgement day

So repent

For Allah loves you

Fear him we do

For he is Almighty

Allah. Allah

Make me strong

So I will conquer the darkness

To let the Noor in

To do good deeds

To present our actions

We learn from example

Follow the waaaay

In this Deen

With the Peace

Of this life

Let me tell you the way

Of happiness and serenity

Welcome this hope

Yes meant for humanity

Oh let us see

Beyond the darkness of the unclean world

For bad deeds seem to pile more than good

Fret not, there is a way

Repent your see

To who

But

The Almighty the Allah you know him

He has been with you

Even in the bleakest night

Here is there with you and I

You may fear him

To be expected for he is the one and only Creator you see

That is Allah

Destined for humanity

We be here, seeking purpose

It's up to us

To better our selves

Working hard in this dunya

We strive to please

Not self the corrupted creation

Do not stray far, you may lose your way

Follow the Deen

Be with the ummah

We love you

You need Allah

We are his servants

We are but slaves to him

Allah be with me always

To say dawah is better by actions

Open your eyes

Live you life

For Allah

Blessed be

Following the way with Islam

The only way

Here I am

Beating heart

Wanting to find serenity, is this is meant to be

I must surrender

To seek refuge in Allah the Almighty

Blessed be within the insanity

Will I ever be free of the tarnished soul

I want to strive to please Allah the one and only

Never leave me

Increase my eman inshallah

Does this mean with this destiny that I'm meant to Breath deep breaths

To seek refuge from the chaos

That burdens me so

I walk destructive ways

Waking up with insanity

Blessed be I am me

A full creation of Allah

Thank you for to This chance 

Blessed be within this Deen

Follow the way

Islam the only way

wanting freedom

Hate driven

Around the chaos

To breath in desire

Destruction at its best

I'm here, with the blade

Shall I let it all out

To slice so hard

To see the crimsom flow

What shall I do

Shall I rest eternally

Let it be

Darkness inside me

He breaths his darkness

As he needs

Dare he heed

Ah save me

Oh Allah almighty

I listen so silently

I'm free

I hate myself

I want to die

Will I ever be free

Keeping

Broken

Wanting more

Striving to arrive

To die upon the day

To arise upon Salah

Let us pray, mend the way

Today for tomorrow

Upon this time

Shall I scream upon my destiny

I waiver but I strive

With God intention

Blessed it be

Alhamduillah

That is what I truly needed

To find serenity

Surrendering self

Mind soul nafs

Let yourself be

Blessed within the Noor of the Almighty

The all knowing, all merciful

The most just

Allah the one and only

Allahu Akbar

Let it be

Serenity within self

So we can be humbled

Let it be

failing

Falling into the abyss

Letting the sorrow consume

Hoping for something to end

Shall it be My Life, One would question

As each emotion trips down my face

As the tears bring despair to one's heart

Loneliness it seems to be just around the bend

And what shall I conquer then

Shall I stand tall beating my heart ever so

Wanting nothing but to conquer the insanity

And as the tears stripped down the mind seems to fall into chaos

Not wanting not needing not getting

Perhaps it is time

For the end to come

One can only wait for that day to come

Until that day comes the fight goes on in the never-ending war

And I bear my chest and open my heart as I wear it on my sleeve

As my emotions conquer my heart and soul, humanity shall not bend my will

To die a thousand times only to live once what will come in the future

little one lost

Do you look to the night skies?

Wondering if we ponder about you

You were so little

When we said good bye

Miss you little one

You must be so big

I wish you were never taken

Your mother lost you

The Calvert's need you

We think of you

Wondering what world it be if you stayed

Tears till down my cheek

Know you are loved and missed

Little one now so big

Maybe an a teen now

I hope you found a forever home

Miss you maytah love always