defeated?

I may be broken but I am not defeated

Fact being I'm far from broken

I am constantly rebuilding

For everyone has struggle in life

For one has not walked in another shoes for not to judge that person for they do not know

Wise words for one who said so

If only one before they judges

Remembers the wise words of those before us

That we all have strife in life

That we all struggle

And to some point we will succeed

Even in our broken chaotic state

We are not deemed for disaster

Even if the disaster has come to a phase of mania that deems it Bliss

With this Bliss be enough to consume you

To bring your heart strong

To rise to one another shoulders

To build to rise to need to help

It's better to constantly build yourself

So that you may pay it forward

Make that what matters a fact

I am broken I am free to be flawed even within this chaos Deen

I am broken but I am not defeated

The only way

Here I am

Beating heart

Wanting to find serenity, is this is meant to be

I must surrender

To seek refuge in Allah the Almighty

Blessed be within the insanity

Will I ever be free of the tarnished soul

I want to strive to please Allah the one and only

Never leave me

Increase my eman inshallah

Does this mean with this destiny that I'm meant to Breath deep breaths

To seek refuge from the chaos

That burdens me so

I walk destructive ways

Waking up with insanity

Blessed be I am me

A full creation of Allah

Thank you for to This chance 

Blessed be within this Deen

Follow the way

Islam the only way

Screaming me

Oh so mighty
Struck to the heart to be
Stuck in a high such as cloud nine
up up I go
Shall I breath my last breath
To suffocate beyond bliss
Illusions of patterns ruin me
To be born this way
Makes one wonder
If God almighty is just
To Suffer what is this
Tarnished every so
I'm stuck writing upon my heart with a bloody Quill of pain

To be sipping on bliss

To choke on serenity

I seek Refuge
In you alone
As I scream inside outside to be
Allahu Allahu Allahu

To recite bliss
To be within a drip of serenity
To seek, to be
Is this meant to be

Wandering on star based board
Roll on the dice
The gamble of life
Shall he win
His whispers that follow me
Drown him out
I recite thee
The last three of a surah deemed for me you i and the insanity

This must be destiny

I scream
Allahu Save me
From this insanity

I'm barely hanging on my edge
Whats meant for me
To Suffer
To scream
IS THIS ME?

Guide us

Let me hear
What is meant for you and I
It's meant for all creation
Sweet Al Quran
Bless me
Bring serenity near to my flesh and soul
My heart is emotionally drained
But the voices of those who believe are deemed to see
What do the blind finally see beyond the deeds
Is this what's meant to be
Emotionally deemed for me
Allahu Allahu Allahu
Are you here?
Do you hear my dua?
I scream within the mind to see beyond the false reality
Aoothu billaah mina shayton ajeem
I'm ready to fight
For you
For I am free to believe
It's destined for me
Shall this mean
That happiness is attainable
Within the serenity of the word
For the word leads me
Deemed right to bask in the light
Allahu guide those deemed to struggle
Our jihad
Some are simple others are hard
Try not to be bitter
Bitterness leads to doubts
And within this you will hear his whispers
We know who you are
Authoo billaah mina shayton ajeem
I am free to choose
Ashdo aana la illaah ilaallaah wa ashdo  ana Muhammadan rusaallah
And let us scream deemed for you and I
I'm a Muslim
I suffer but life is but a test
Aspire to care for self so you can desire the Deen
That's right
I'm here
Free once again
Allahu Allahu Allahu
Guide me