Midnight Ponder

What is right?

Perhaps this might be the guide

I feel a pull inside of me

Unable to comprehend if it's right

Instead the uncertainty sets

Causing doubts within eman

Wanting nothing more but to understand

Having confusion to the max

Unable to comprehend hope

Darkness is here and near

It's slumbers upon humanity

But God said Be and here we are being

I'll be walking the deen in this Dunya

This corrupt world

Darkness within the heart

Corruption within the soul

Is this right?

Perhaps this is what light truly is

What would light be if there was no darkness to counter?

I've fallen to the ground

Was this fall meant to be?

Confusion to the max

Fear of what is different

But is this right?

My soul yearns for what is right

Even in the muck of confusion

I can see what the truth is

Even in the darkness

There shall be the light knocking

Screaming to let in

For the heart has hardened

For all the self-hate

Within myself

So

Am I right to accept the light?

When darkness corrupts my soul

Here I am pondering upon insanity

Is this truly meant for me?

Walking destruction

Chaos as I go

Calculated chaos

I'm able to comprehend this

But I cannot comprehend what the light is

For my soul is tarnished

Broken Beyond Bend

Shattered Beyond limit

And I scream and I scream so silently

Why must I be this way?

In the everlasting fight

Up down all around insanity is here

For the motions are going

Over and over again

Will this be different this time?

Perhaps time will tell

Before it's too late

And I end it all

Where is this hope?

Where to find?

Twisted

Corrupt

Blissful

Loving

Rager

Empathy

So many statements

Labels ever so

I am but me

Within this insanity

I find that there is only one worthy of worship

That is Allah the almighty the most beneficial the most merciful

So seek him always

Always

For darkness shall always be overcome by the light

For Allah is that noor

So perhaps I should follow the way

Being pulled from every direction

Here I am pondering upon my soul

Midnight fun here we go

Of this life

Let me tell you the way

Of happiness and serenity

Welcome this hope

Yes meant for humanity

Oh let us see

Beyond the darkness of the unclean world

For bad deeds seem to pile more than good

Fret not, there is a way

Repent your see

To who

But

The Almighty the Allah you know him

He has been with you

Even in the bleakest night

Here is there with you and I

You may fear him

To be expected for he is the one and only Creator you see

That is Allah

Destined for humanity

We be here, seeking purpose

It's up to us

To better our selves

Working hard in this dunya

We strive to please

Not self the corrupted creation

Do not stray far, you may lose your way

Follow the Deen

Be with the ummah

We love you

You need Allah

We are his servants

We are but slaves to him

Allah be with me always

To say dawah is better by actions

Open your eyes

Live you life

For Allah

Blessed be

Following the way with Islam