within this night

Here I am
within this time
as its endless
to forget
in the bliss
is it worth while?
now is a time
to be
within the insanity
calm before the storm
I feel that this is destiny
with making a deal with the old devil
is it right
in this night
as time goes throughout the bliss
do i dismiss
within this
I'm stuck deep in this emotion
to be buried
in my own personal hell
as i push and twist and turn those around me
i want to be with them
but the emotion rips
and tears
and let the tears swell up
to burn the skin gently so
I am here
being me
stuck in the insanity of thy mind
do i define
what is mine
personal hell
I'm here
near and dear to the heart
why must this be!
what shall I do?
but to ponder as the sunsets
and when she arises
the time has reset
another day another deed
will this suddenly be reality
is this my destiny
perhaps its time to be
here I am being
this is right
within the time of the day
I can cope
barely here
lost in the abyss of the bliss

Hunger

Hunger is here
The issues are
Not wanting to consume
But as the body aches
I waste
I'm here
But want to be gone
Every emotion runs through me
To devastation
Unable to bear
Such hate
I'm unable
I'm not right
I'm gone
Not yet Dead
Not yet alive
Purgatory here
Well I conquer the heart
Will I be able to cope
To build the skills
To withdraw from the pills
As they do more damage than good
What is the point
One year one month one day
It's all the same
Here being me
With this tarnished reality
The hunger goes on
But the desire lacks
Will I cope
Or float
Upon this day
I mourn me
From this Insanity
That's is my destiny
Here I am
On 36
Will they help
Only if your can turn the tide
Ride the wave
Have positivity
But I sink
As every emotion that there bears me  tares me down to insanity
Can I comprehend what hope is And  overbear the hopelessness
I'm here
Hungry
Wanting to devour
I'm me in this insanity
Please listen to me so I can bear this reality