Losses

Where to go

Falling into the abyss

Failing to hope

Wanting nothing but the emptiness to control

Running on the fire

These coals burn my emotions so

To breath is but a burden

Wanting nothing but to end

As hope is lost

Unable to comprehend what hope can be

Thinking I could find it

Such a foolish move

Darkness sweeps in

Taking my soul

In these times

I Trek

Only to strive

To succeed

To want

To believe in Hope

Only time will tend

I am but a burden

To this world

Corruption to the core

The monster inside

Letting it go

Not wanting to stop

Wanting to feel but one emotion

Unfortunately

Hope still Wonders within my mind

That can be found with faith

So speak to your heart

To breath as God said be

So here I am

Being free to be me

beating dead beat

Crumble at the base

Here you stay

Unable to hope

To bring happiness is but a wish

That will never be in the midst of my life

Here I am, empty

Emotions flow, burning so

Rapid unlimited emotions

Ripping through the flesh

Am I breathing?

I feel I'm suffocating

So many burns

To cut to tear to reach

Wanting nothing but ruin

These burning balls of energy

Shine so brightly

Hoping for tomorrow

Wanting it to just end

To fall into slumber

Catch my breath

Only to hope

For the beat to stop

To set me free

As the emotions burden me so

For Chelsea

As the time

Bears witness

To a date

To ponder upon Time

To wander into the Galaxy skies

Devastation in the mind

Hopelessness narrows here

Here there everywhere

Upon this time

I hear a call

The Angels sing

Wanting nothing but peace

Peace of mind piece of soul

Pondering what will come in this night to be

Wondering what is wondrous indeed

To not give in to the darkness

To fight that darkness

To give yourself hope

For the light is knocking on your soul

Screaming to let it in

Will you open the door for it

Perhaps peace will find you then

another time

Up another night

Holding back the burning tears

Yet this time is here

Shall I redeem myself

To plea to God Almighty

I believe I truly do

But bitter with Allah I am

For I'm so flawed

Will this moment ever end

Tears overcoming the mind

Falling so lightly

Tick tock on the clock

Time is but limitless

Moving on

Happiness can lead to despair

Mania on the mend

Will I ever mend?

Stuck in this chaos

Calculated Bliss

I shall dismiss

Drifting in and out of Dreamland

Will I awake tomorrow

Will my pleas be heard

For this heart to just stop

So all the pain of this world will be gone

So please

Here Now

Falling into grace

Perhaps it's not in this place

The emotions burn as the tears fall

Separate the feelings

I don't want to feel this 

It burns not so softly

Whisper here and near

Perhaps we shall escalate

Hoping for sanity

Hitting rock bottom

With my emotions

They say to heal

To speak

To share

Perhaps it will get better

I twist so violently

What is next for me

The emotions breath within me

For I am being

Following the leader

Harden soul meets the end

Falling through them looking glass

Follow that white rabbit down that hole

To the most of the abyss

Falling, screaming until no end

My heart rhythmed to the beat

Empathy for all, but not for me

I want happiness but it never comes

Down and what not

What will become of me?

Wondering if this insanity is meant for me

Is this Destiny?

Let me breath, I'm suffocating from all the rapid emotions

Ready set go

Up up up to cloud 9

Blissful deeds

Energy for me

Smile once smile twice

Happiness is that what I need

To fight on

Too break the desire

Devouring disorder

Will it end?

Unthinkable

Let us ponder

here we go

As the mind is created

Bursts of emotion is full of expression

Vibrant vibrate throughout your cells within your mind your body your structure

Has each anxiety builds up as you enter this world

1 2 3 the years go by one by one 

Four five six

It's time for school do not dismiss

Smile for the camera smile for everyone smile like you have no care

And care to share so grade 1 2 3 are nothing but a mediocre choir of Hope

Four and five ready you for Middle School

As the snakes get ready for their breeding ball of hate

As young minds twist and turn as puberty hits them

The hormones are going crazy you see

Grade 7 entering teen Hood

And parents get ready for this is the time that your child will hate you the most

8 9 we're in high school now

All those conscious feelings

The anxieties that you felt when you first entered the schoolhood

And we find ourselves entering high School nothing but a freshman ready for the butcherer to get the sausage ready in the Hall of Doom

For you'll be studying and studying and studying for what a piece of paper to tell you that you graduated school yippee for this is your destiny after this

You will hit adulthood and you will understand that you wish you never grew up so fast

Because this is when depression comes

And you'll find yourself locked in a solitude of your own fortress

Biting away each time by time

at the clock that feeds you the milk that you need

So blessed be within this destiny of us humanity

Just be

Be happy be great be the best you can be

And hopefully your destiny will be right for you and you won't have to tread through disaster

Keep your chin high and Almighty till the end