its Come

Here I am pondering
Upon time to come
Do hath has
What is here this time
But a sunken ship deep within
In the solitude to be
Stuck
Lost
Twisted to turn around the bend
here I come
What is next
Do I scream?
WHY
must it be this way
as the emotional stress
cuts and burns the flesh
Scarred beyond the star

Do I sit and ponder
into the abyss
beyond the bliss
What is next?
To fight
To be bitter
Always here
Near the edge

Rock Bottom

I scrap and climb the mountains of the mind

Here I am
Star stare at me
They glimmer so lightly
are they right for me?

What is next?
To slice
To Burn
To Scream
so suddenly
I'm near the bend that's by the end
what is next
Breath....

Stay

I'm stuck
in the bust
Have I lost the fight
Unbalanced am I
Bending to my desire

Dare I say this

I am here lost beyond the mend
Until then I depend on what to do
Shall I Reap till the end?

I reached to the stars
do they defend the mend?
Does this mean its the end?

In this reality I am me
Free
To
Be
Stuck in a drift
at the end
of the abyss
shall I miss?

Ruptured heart beats
time to mend
beyond reality
Soaked in crimson bliss
blood soaked bliss
Shall this be?
I am me
Does this depend on me

The Question reaps
Do I mend?
To defend the heart
So lets mend

To be within the reality
beyond the heart
to feel again
to be
why must it come to this
do I miss

Time to stay

My request

Perhaps it's time
To mend
To breath those breaths
To free the mind
Addiction is far from the mend
But drifts in this abyss
Will I surface from the haze
To conquer
To be defeated Beyond Repair
To trust self
That i will conquer the desire to be stuck in sanity
The feelings will hurt me so
Will I take the blade
Burn the flesh
Determined to fight
To flush the light out
I am me
Is this my destiny?
Following the heart
Is best for me
True to self
Forever free

How to Mend

Here I am
Here Again
Perhaps she is right this night
That is why I feel it
its sunken without bliss
Do I dismiss?
For the bliss
Im here pondering

Twisting Turning around the bend

Here I am
stuck in the insanity of my mind
Ripping down a session
to turn the mood
Deep dank depression
move from me
I dont need this to be
As i stuck beyond the bliss
do I dismiss
for the bliss

Here i am
Pondering upon time
All I have
is me
here I am
almost out of the mist
near the bend
does it depend
how I mend

Rtythm to Mayhem

Here I am in this Everlasting Light
Pondering where the outcome Maybe
Stressing on the world wonders indeed
When I go about stressing on you stressing on me stressing on everything you see
It's the balance of insanity
The hallucinations are here
The glimmer and glimmer so nothing can show but them
Tiny slanted faces as they say they be
Whispering just whispering as they stare so Stanley
It's strange to be in a type of hallucination as this
My vision is flawed all I see this them
They be the faces
Ever staring Evermore
I don't know how to conquer these
One Med to med 3 Med four all don't care to mend anymore
I'm stuck here in this insanity
Wanting nothing more but to take the blade and let the Crimson blood flow as I gasp for air
This is irrational thinking
But what's better fit for an irrational being like me
Here I am stuck in this cycle of Chaos
Go up up up up to Cloud 9
As we stare back at our body we drift and move with Society
but here on cloud nine there isn't a expectations
Some people say why don't you just believe in God
Why do believe in God
but I'm still stuck in this Insanity of my mind  and not the proper serotonin 
God made me this way
I beg and cry and ask God to Save Me From Myself
But never am I saved
I'm here to wrestle my reality
1 pill 2 pill 3 pill more
That's the sanity
No Cloud 9
Not with these
No insanity no emotion no depression
Zombify me
Dare I say
That insanity is me it defies me
It is me the insanity in the membrane
There is no stopping me
Unstoppable undroppable
I challenge you to come to me with your sanity and show that it's with me
In the end I'm here I mean forever in this insanity

Sands of Time

I am me
Stuck in the insanity
of thy mind
do I ponder upon time
Whats next but a muck
stuck within the dank depression
my mind expands
beyond the circle of humanity
Dare I ponder into the nights sky

As I drown deeply into the nights sky
do i ponder upon time
what is next?

Time is all you need
its part of my destiny
shall this be the fight
to the night
as each emotion touches the surface
I face a ruptured heart
bare this feeling

To twist to turn
What is next for me
Upon a shooting star
this is my dream to be

I stand within the sand of time
in the everlasting hourglass
is this right
I ponder
Only to wonder....

To not care

Panic has set in
Some sort of mania
Is that what's to be
Just a hollow shell
Coping to the max
Written here and there
I am me
Stuck Beyond the Bliss
Unable to suffer
To ready the blade
To scream
WHY!
Must it go this way
Have I don't harmed myself enough
That the flame burns bright
To touch the skin
To feel
A controlled substance
To mend
Beyond what meant to be
I scream
Stuck in the abyss
I'm suffocating
To the max
Watch me die
During this dire time
Do I care
So let's prepare
To Care