Jigsaw of the Mind

Breaking apart 

Pulling self in 

Having hope 

Wanting something 

To overcome the doubts 

To conquer the nafs

Bring me close

Do not dismiss my spirit

I want Noor 

To conquer my heart from the dank darkness

That suffocation bliss

Can I breathe? 

I want nothing but happiness

Having hope, holding on to sanity

Love self, but fated to hate self

60 percent of love for me

40 percent of hate the rage that consumes the light

Breaking with me

Slightly more understanding

Of the situation that be's 

Destined for the good 

Hoping for the rest to fill with love 

Here I am broken, but rebuilding 

Taking the jigsaw of my mind 

Pull me close, follow the light

To bring in Peace 

Having something more

That is right

Will he accept me 

Broken but rebuilding 

Remodeling the spirit

To bring me close to Allah

That is Hope

Something that is more

So much more

Allah save me from this disassociation 

Of the mind that is destined to fail

Only with you Allah can I truly hope

You conquer the darkness 

Keeping my Eman to my heart

Actions beyond me 

Boost me up, bring in hope 

Embrace love

100% of bliss

Worshipping the Lord

Following the Deen

Upon the days to come 

Having truth is far better than hate

The jigsaw pieces are finally fit 

Having true hope 

Truly this will save me 

So break free

Tear-shaped emotions 

Tripping down the cheeks 

Up up to Cloud 9 

Does this define 

What serenity is? 

The falsehood of the solitude 

The monster beyond the bend

Comprehending hope 

Beating the chest 

Holding the fear 

Having something more 

Here we go, upon this time

Suffocation to the max 

The good old H2O 

COPD the best of me 

Can I finally breathe? 

Ever so softly, will there be peace 

Within my soul 

Conquering happiness 

To allow the flood lights to consume 

The gates be open 

Where to go from here? 

This time will tell 

What will happen? 

What will come? 

Here there everywhere 

Screaming for sanity 

Basking in the light of insanity 

I am finally free, to breathe those lightly breaths 

Holding on to something 

That is Hope

The Rift within the soul 

Holding on to something 

Wanting something more 

Unable to comprehend 

The pain that be's

Stolen from the heart 

The beat is on the bend 

Shall be some mend 

Kaleidoscope vision 

Pitter pattern here and there 

Conquering nothing 

Seeking help 

Having nothing 

Bringing solitude 

Hating self 

Wanting to love 

Having hope 

Wanting to end 

This world 

Kaleidoscope 

Pitter patterns 

Where to go from here 

Upside down and all around 

They stare so lightly 

So safely, let me wear the vest 

To invest what might be 

Full of insanity, just let me be 

On the bend about to mend 

Up down all around here we go right now 

The loss of something 

The game of Chaos 

Burdened is thy soul 

Perhaps this is what is destined 

Are these the deeds that be? 

Breaking away from the insanity 

Running on light 

To conquer the darkness from within 

To bring hope to something more 

To something more 

To something more 

Something more....

Upon tyranny

The cries call upon today 

The skies are littered with chaos 

Shooting within the sky the missiles want you to die 

Upon this time to tell 

The cries go on silently 

Pounding the ground wondering why 

Calling upon the Lord 

Unable to find refuge 

For the heart is twisted 

From the chaos around 

Hoping for tomorrow for the war to end 

Wanting nothing but peace 

Finding solitude 

Hoping for something more 

Upon a time to tell 

We will find serenity 

But first we must bleed

Tarnished here 

Burdened so 

The sky is littered 

With the souls of those gone 

Blood soaked hands 

Shame on the enemy 

We shall rise 

Upon this Day 

A new one 

A New beginning 

Where will we find peace? 

Those cries whisper into the night 

Silence is here 

As we mourn our family and friends 

Only to live another day of hell 

The fight goes on, surrendering not 

Standing tall, with this day 

We shall have victory 

In the end 

Triumph the upon destiny 

We shall finally breathe peacefully 

Or will this be our last breath 

Family, friends, and the enemy 

Blood soaked hands 

Guilt upon 

Bringing in Destiny 

Breathing in Hope 

The tyranny is here 

Burdened are we by this world 

Shall fate be in stone 

Perhaps it can change for the better 

Bringing something close 

Close to the heart 

Peace is found with Allah 

Surrender yourself 

Comfort is there 

Seek the Lord 

For Hope is near and dear 

songbirds of dawn

Sing the little song bird

Lovely as it seems 

The sweet melody 

Calls to me 

As though the athan does 

I am called to pray to Allah 

I follow the way of the sunnah

Little birds sings a song all The way 

They offer the songs to the Almighty 

The most beneficial the most loved 

Allah I love you 

Even though I don't love myself very much 

I strive on in this world 

Wanting nothing but to conquer my nafs

Little birds you called me to pray 

As you sing as the dawn comes to you 

Nature's athan

Pulls me towards the light 

Not knowing what to do 

I'm stuck in insanity 

But I do my Dua 

For my supplication is right 

For I love Allah 

Sing little songbird of the Dawn 

Call the Muslims to pray 

We offer our Salah 

To benefit ourselves 

To worship the Almighty Allah

Sing little songbird 

Tweet all you like 

I hear that you call me to pray 

Pray away the insanity 

Pray away the hate 

Pray to worship Allah 

That is our purpose

triumph of the day

Raising the flag 

Triumph on the way 

Where are we going? 

Upon this Day 

Terror here and there 

Lost within the whim of war 

Ceilings collapsing buildings demolished 

Cries of the babies that are lost 

Wisps of the night 

The missiles are coming 

Wanting to break free from this chaos 

As the world seems to be full of insanity 

To let people die in a genocide 

Not knowing what the truth is 

From the river to the Sea 

Palestine Shall be free

Free from what, the tyranny 

To have hope 

To keep on striving 

That is what the people do

In times of Chaos 

There's but brief moments of bliss 

We shall not dismiss 

Small whispers within the night 

Don't tell anyone, perhaps we shall fight 

What is right? 

In this world we see nothing, but insanity 

To seek something more 

Follow that light 

Bring in the peace 

Surrender your soul 

You will be free 

To worship thee Almighty Allah the most gracious 

Hurting feeling pain eternal despair what to bring but hope for something more 

For a Dua is needed 

For Palestine well forever be free 

As I stand I remember 

This world is but disaster 

Allah makes it bearable 

That is peace

break chaos equal emotion

To lose something close 

To go beyond the breaking point 

As the streams go down with the insanity 

Glimmering chaos that brings nothing but despair 

Am I free? 

From this insanity 

Can I finally breathe 

To lose something that ruptures the heart 

Holding on to something 

Hoping for a better outcome 

Screaming so silently 

Disaster here and there and everywhere 

For the patterns stare

Ever so plainly 

Trying to be calm 

But nothing seems to conquer them 

To stay strong 

Do not let the dangerous out 

I feel so destroyed 

For the patterns conquer me 

Vision / blur 

All I see is patterns here and there 

Embracing the emotion 

Only for destruction to break free 

Hoping for something more than insanity 

Hoping to break free

The fool

Unable to hold

To the hope

That the bearings bring

Once the fool said 

I am free

Not to the means 

The demand to understand

Chaos stricken bliss

Where to go? 

Once upon a time

There was but darkness

The nafs drag my heart

Through the hardship

To come, finding hope

Wanting something more

Wanting to fill the voids

In my heart, will I be free

I just want to strive to survive 

To conquer the darkness

To hold to hope 

Letting the Noor in

Feeling something

What next for this fool...

To Conquer

As the stars collide 

A time to come 

Need for more 

To conquer the nafs

To seek the hope 

To conquer the darkness 

Consuming the light 

Bringing hope near and dear 

The mind is complex 

As each minute passes

Breaking point 

Where to go from here? 

Hoping for something more 

Wanting, needing, having. 

Fall into my knees 

As I plea with thee

Who but Allah the Almighty

Help me breath

Taking deep breathes 

To center my soul

The stars collide 

Causing a climax within the mind 

Upon time to tell 

Another story is on the mend 

Hoping for now 

Taking something, something more 

Finding peace 

Destruction on the bend 

I shall conquer all 

For I am free to be 

Fully maniac schizoaffective being

Is this the meaning of life? 

Only time shall tell 

What will hope hold...

To keep the faith

To hold sanity 

Is this deemed for me 

Insanity is near and dear 

Unstable on the mend 

Shall I defend 

Against the najs desires

The times that be

We are free to believe 

Free to hope

So never lose self

Hold into the Noor 

lucid hope

A drop upon time

But a moment so lucid

Feeling content, feeling lost

Hoping for hopefulness

Losing self

Comprehending what is happiness

Is it but an illusion

Happiness leads to mania

A drop of time

Demanding what is mine

Upon this Day, insanity as it may

Maniac upon the bend

Truly I cannot be on the mend 

Up down all around

The glimmers that be

The patterns that stare

On the mend?

Shall I depend

1 2 3

One pill two pill three pill more

Holding on

Wanting more

Seeking something

Unable to comprehend

Shall I leap, upon the deeds that be

In this wake of insanity

I truly shall be

A shine through this world

Hoping for better days

Before disaster ends

Holding on to anger

Where to go from here

The rage burns on

Wanting something more

Shall I ever find?

I wonder upon these days of insanity

Only to fall down to breathe final breath to hold them in to let them go upon this mend

Truly I shall depend

Lovely as I can be

Finally shall I be free

Is this what is destiny

Fuming

Hitting the match on the mark

Pulling in the deep breath

Fuming to the box

Bursting at the brim

It calls me, the rage within

Unable to comprehend

Fall into my knees

Devastate my soul

Unable to believe

Wanting nothing but the flame to desire more

Ready myself

Taking thy right, striking is insanity

Freaking out, wanting the mania to consume

The rage goes on

This is not me

I am conquered by my nafs

Jihad against the mental illness

Where to go from here?

Broken beyond the mend

What will I recommend?

To have skills to acquire

Are worthless unless you inquire

For it be skills before pills

But can these skills overcome the rage

As it goes on within my heart

I want nothing but to die

But here I am with my jihad

Fighting against my every being

Darkness is here and near

A light may come knocking

Open that door

Bring in the Noor

Serenity is what is needed

For God to grant me serenity

So I can have the courage to change

Knowing that the wisdom will bring me far

To conquer the Nafs

To bring in light

To fight the rage

To sip on serenity

For I am free

To choose my destiny

Upon Reality

Upside reality

Dare I dream upon

The Stars that's cast across the sky

As a shining light drifts, with chaos

Coming to an end

Shall I bare what seems to drive my soul

Upon insanity drifting within the heart

What do I see?

Shifting the patterns

They stare, wanting nothing but to break

Break reality

Is this what's destined?

I breathe finally

Will I be free?

Or

Will I break!

Thought in mind

Where to go?

The sky is falling

Disaster here

Delusional upon the mend

Hopeless within the heart

Confused with what reality is

Is this what a dream?

Upon what we think what reality is

Knock knock who's there

Faith, lose not hope

Scraping to the surface

To finally breathe, what's destined for me

Paranoia on the bend

The illusions will truly mend

Losing self to the end

Where will I go?

I'm low and I'm high

What does that define

Within time shall I die

Unknown is the world this time

Up and down and all around

Insanity on time

What does it mean?

When will I be free

Stuck in the infinity circle

Infinite emotions that hit me midnight ponder on time

Wondering within the night

If I should've fleed from this

Stuck in the best

Sucking in all the hot air

Blowing out the candles, make a wish or two

Hope for something more

Hope to be on time

The emotions are set

What shall be next?

Upon time shall tell

Currents of Emotions

The current moves

Flowing within time

The current moves

Wishing and washing upon the sky

Emotions spread out

To let them flow

Seeking hope, finding absolute disaster

Wanting, and needing

Finding what, but the solitude

Fallen to the ground

Weeping upon the hourglass

The sand moves, glistens, and sparkles

Catching my nafs

Leaving the najs at Bay

To hold onto sanity

Is this greed?

Wanting nothing but peace

Looking for all the medication

1 2.....something more

To take the deadly deed

To be full of insanity

What will save me from myself?

I'm trying to conquer my desires

Trying my best

Truly I am but a mess

Disaster here and dear

Feeling emotions on the spot

Surely I shall not dawdle

To reach for the Noor

Grasping what sanity is

Well I finally overcome

Or shall this be my destiny

To be content

To be happy even within the darkness

To find the light

To acquire hope

Wanting something more

Seeking something

That shall cure the emptiness

I'm so empty inside I want to die

I just want to feel alive

Not letting the mania take control

Schizo to the max

Well I overcome such

Seems to be a lifetime thing

As time goes on, the insanity flows

With the current that goes

With all the emotions that flow

Finding something, that is peace

Finding self to acquire hope

I am me

Free destined for insanity

The chaos is amuck

Allowing the light to consume

I can upon light, hope, charity

Who or what will answer me

To hold onto save

Finding nothing but Allah

The authority of all

He answers all, even when you have no words

Having hope

Not losing self identity

Muslim perfectly imperfect what am I but humanity

So pray, seek another day

bound to collide

Motionless in the timeless space

Stars collide, tearing the Galaxy into pieces

Frozen unable to comprehend

Ripped in two

For the Jekyll in the hyde

Surrounds my bearing

I am but motionless

Bearing nothing but emotion

As they collide with one another

Ripping my soul into pieces

I am but lost 

Dare I say on the mend

Casting the first stone

Causing the ripples to disperse

The chaos is deemed

What's right for me

I shall not give in

To the darkness that knocks

Dragging your Eman

Knocking at the shackles

I am but free

Free to choose

To conquer the light

To hold on to the darkness

To keep it at Bay

To let it slumber

To let the light in

To bring the hope

Wanting something more

Reaching for sanity

Surely I will breathe

Bringing nothing but lovely deeds

To strive for good, conquering the darkness

Blessed be full of insanity 

I am but me

the chaos of confusion

Drifting upon a time to tell

Chaos of the heart

To find peace in serenity

Only for something to boil over

The lava within the soul

Swells within time

As the anxiety seems to be

Bringing nothing but confusion of the mind

Unable to comprehend even words of serenity

As I Fall to my knees 

Pleading with the Lord 

To save me from this chaos

I'm overflowing

The emotions that bear

Anxiety to the max

Depression to the blade

Wanting to cope

Failing and falling for destruction

Where shall I go?

Upon a time to tell

As I stand at a fork at a road

To follow the darkness

To drift with insanity

Is this what Destiny is?

I strive always

Resulting in disaster

I am but chaos

But a dreamer of this world

Where to find Bliss?

Where to find serenity?

To fold my knees, bowing my head to the ground

Seeking the truth

The way

The hope within the hour

To save but a second of a moment

To be free of the insanity

But for the moment

I shall pray even when the confusion

Penetrates my mind

I am but a glass shattered

As millions of emotions bear me

I scream ever so silently

The tears run down my cheeks

Burn my soul

Am I broken

Beyond repair

Used goods

Worthless

 Useless thoughts these are

Broken not but rebuilding

Construction of the heart

Blueprints to the light

Seeking serenity

Finding the one and only

Allah I call upon my Dua to you

Where to Go from here?

I breathe only to find depression

Breaking point

Start again

The serenity is the end

That is Peace of mind

To hold onto hope

Fovever more

Against the tide

Let there be peace

To the chaos of the heart

As the shadows collide

Shimmer here and shimmer there

Pitter patter and get at her

Patterns here and patterns there

Up and down all around

Shift gear shift there

On a collide to the Stars

I just want to die

But here I am striving on

Against the tide

Ripping the current into my soul

Undoubtedly the best way to do it

To ponder if it's right to be

To be free of insanity

But the shadows have collided

The patterns are here

The voices seek an audience

What to do?

But seek light

Find peace

Strive against the tide

Emotions rise

Perhaps it's time

To define

What I need

That is clarity

So do the deed

The smallest are the best 

We truly need

To humble ourselves

To not give in to the insanity

Is it time to let go?

Time to plead to God

To let me strive on

To pray on time

To never waiver within the deen

As time has come to tell

Another story to come along

Forevermore nevermore

the words that be

Words to keep me from solitude

Words to guide me

Lost ones

Hoping, wanting, and needing

The light shines bright

A path towards sanity

The words that call me

Bring peace

Save me from my nafs

Daring to survive

What is Peace?

Bringing hope

Words that call me

To Kingdom come

Happiness attainable

Sadness with despair

Near and dear

Striving to hope

What will come?

What is next?

Actions before the reactions

Deeds for the Dunya

What we need

That is Islam

Finding hope

With the words

That turn my heart

Words that love

Where to find?

From someone's tongue

From the scripture

We have perfection

That is the Quran

The words that guide

That is what is needed

To bring peace to the mind and heart

To lighten the mood

To worship one

The glorious, the mighty, the great

Allah

That is perfect harmony

Spur of Time

 we be crazy

 not knowing what do 

here we are all over the place

 all around wandering the night sky, until the time has dropped 

unknown is tomorrow crazy is this world 

unable to  be full of bliss

we shall dismiss

the darkness up and all around

 crazy for the time what to do

 lets go 1 2 3

 here we round and round all around crazy too 

what to truly do

Break slightly

Something's breaking

Unable to comprehend 

Grounding upon the time

Stepping on the millisecond

Ripping around the bend

Falling to the ground

Following the Dragon

Moving with the river

Against the rhythm

What will come up this?

Unmanageable to bear

Upon this time to tell

To the extreme one must go

To lose hope in all

To scrape to the surface

I'm wrecked beyond the bend

Well I truly be on the mend

Can I break free from this insanity?

As I try and try

I am a disaster

Upon a time to tell

I am but me

Full of this insane insanity

I truly breathe

Breaking from the braces that be

Holding me so slightly

But to break free

Shall save me for my sanity

Without it, do I truly matter

Well I overcome?

What will I do?

To hope for another day, so tomorrow doesn't fade away

something more

Running on the highway not knowing what to go

Unable to cope

Wanting nothing but to die

The Galaxy's collide

Causing chaos to divide

Calculated to the best

Unable to cope

Like explosion in my mind

Up down all around here we go

Hallucination here and there

What is reality?

The illusion of the delusion

Wondering what to do

To fall to the ground

Worshiping the one and only

Seeking refuge with the Lord

Unable to cope 

Walking on the bend

Bursting at the brim

The emotion over bears

Unable to cope

Take the blade where to go

Take the flame right here now

Unable to cope but seek refuge

That God is on your side

The devil is the Redeemer perhaps he is the deceiver

Up down all around

Mania on the mend

Unable to cope

But to seek refuge

In the one and only hope

Where to find they say

Look into your heart

Follow the Noor

Conquering the darkness

Unable to cope

Here I am

Ready to be

Full of insanity

Is it time to bleed?

Hoping for freedom

Wanting something more

Hoping for something more

Receiving hope

Where to go from here

A Pondered moment

A leap for peace

To demand honor

To bring hope, to the despair

Wanting something more

To seek the deed

What's destined

To be free, that brings peace 

That is what, I need

Something that destined

Hoping for paradise

For but a moment

Finding peace with the corruption of the heart

I breathe so lightly

Screening inside my head

Wanting the voices to be silent

Pitter pattern on the mend

What to do?

Shall I depend, on the cloud?

Wondering what will come

Of this hope 

That is peace

Harmony right for me

That is Islam

The right way

To follow the Deen

The best what I can do

Is but hope for action

Over the nafs

To redeem myself

To be free

To confess

I am me

Full of insanity

Let me breathe

For Allah said, Be

Striving always

Hoping for freedom from the desires

Wanting

Getting

Receiving

Hope

Love

Calm

Finally Peace