Sriving for uncertainty

Creating chaos at The rim

Unable to comprehend what worthwhile hope is

Am I valuable?

For I feel worthless

Stuck in the abyss

Wanting to dismiss

Despair reading its spear

To pierce the heart ever so

To devastate

To create chaos

Calculated chaos at the brim

Bursting at the seams not knowing what to do

I Fall to my knees calling to my Lord

Reckoning that the light will save me

Perhaps this is right indeed

The Noor is here

To follow the light

To know the light

To want the light

Wanting to strive on in this world of despair

Anxiety to the max, an old familiar feeling

Uncertainty that I will win

I strive on always

Stronger at every moment

Around the bend I go running from the darkness

Hoping for light to come

Finding that with my Lord indeed

For he is the light that I seek

Allah The Almighty

Blessed Be

From you to me

To bring serenity

To want happiness

To bring the peace

Stopping destruction

Wanting more

Striving on

Will this be it?

Here I am

Walking my path of destruction

But always striving for the Noor

Upon tomorrow to come

Rise each day blessing thy Lord

Bismillah to start

Alhamdulillah to end

What must I comprehend?

That be hope

Hoping for today 

So tomorrow doesn't fade

The haze is here

I am but lost, not no more

For the light shines on

Shining through the mist

Of my heart and soul

Shall I dismiss?

Perhaps time will tell

What the heart seeks

For the light is near and dear

For the darkness is familiar

So seek the light for you will find hope there in 

defeated?

I may be broken but I am not defeated

Fact being I'm far from broken

I am constantly rebuilding

For everyone has struggle in life

For one has not walked in another shoes for not to judge that person for they do not know

Wise words for one who said so

If only one before they judges

Remembers the wise words of those before us

That we all have strife in life

That we all struggle

And to some point we will succeed

Even in our broken chaotic state

We are not deemed for disaster

Even if the disaster has come to a phase of mania that deems it Bliss

With this Bliss be enough to consume you

To bring your heart strong

To rise to one another shoulders

To build to rise to need to help

It's better to constantly build yourself

So that you may pay it forward

Make that what matters a fact

I am broken I am free to be flawed even within this chaos Deen

I am broken but I am not defeated