now

Here I am

Wearing my badges rightfully

Truthfully

You may look at me

Saying what a freak

Damn straight I am

Free to be me

In this insanity

Care for me

What's meant to see

Beyond our illusions

We have them all

Insanity has set me free

To think in the box

Hard to say

But there I am

I did

Spread your wings

Follow eternal knowledge

Think it out

Ponder

Is this right for me

To question so

Why not

We are learning as each stone is casted

To the ripple that causes bigger ripples

Will I finally be free

From insanity

Yes that's I'm no longer thee

I am new

Look at me

I am finally free

Beat this

More to vent

Slice Am I free
Cut burn deemed for me
Is this serenity?
Chaos of the nafs
Will this be reality once again

Reach out
Why?
Is it worthwhile?

I scream
As the blood drips down me
So silently
As the crimson bliss
IS ready for me
That's right
Get Ready

You old dirty devil
I'm hell bound
Will his snicker and roar wait for me
I that whats meant for me

I thought I was right in my haq and deen
Will this dunya save me
Quiet
As one recites true serenity
Is meant for us
Lost long forgotten and forsaken

Only one is meant to be worshiped
Even in times of deadly deeds
As one takes a blade
To go down the river

Fuck that
Zig Zag
Deep
Rip and tear

Oh God
Save me
From this insanity

I want love
To love me
Is it possible
to go
7months with one cut nor a burn to claim

Noor is waiting
On another side of the bliss

Fear
But love conquers all
His love for his creation
Bismillah ar rahman ar raheem

Yes its ready
Finally
Free to be
What is next?

Lets close our eyes
Ready for a new canvas
to blend and morph
Yes something old and forgotten
Remember the good and forget the hurt

Its pending
My soul deemed for thee
Am I ready to see?

Finally
Am I free?

Next let Go to be Free

Falling in to the well of doom
Drowned in emotions to assume
It dank and dank down here
So something long forgotten lurks here
I thought I was free
Silly me
Far from thee light

I'm drifting
Wandering upon the dreams that come to thee
Here
Do you see
Beyond whats needed
Outside the box

Soaring upon the bliss

Wait this is but millisecond
I can hardly breath
Puff Puff Pass

Why cant I be free

Does the depression conquer the heart?
OR have the lungs die?

Both are the killer

I am me
Stuck beyond reality

Illusions here there everywhere
Visionary Yes its Scary

I am strong
But even weakness is here a tad to dear

Something is wrong
Within the nights mist
Snowing bliss

Here I am
Puff Puff Puffing
once again
for something other than the so called medication
Time to say
What needs to be said

I scream within my illusion hoping it to be my reality

Are you listening?
Do you hear me?
What is next?

Beyond the deadly deeds

I scream as insanity is what is clear to me

So let it be
Even within this destiny

Reckoning

Burnt to a 1000 degrees
Is this meant for me?
Reckon this may be the light I truly need
To just be
Star sprinkled light

Time is running out

I am me
Even within this destiny
Shall I just be

I feel broken
I cant pick up the pieces
Glass shattered shards

Blasted into the sand in the hour glass

It me
Sanity
Ready
Start
Go

I know I'm not alone
I feel as though
This solitude
Reckons
My heart

Will I conquer the shadow?

update

im playing a game with  a varity selection of topics this does not reflect my faith I am still following the deen and raising my eman always inshallah

Rhythm

Why must you hurt me so

To create Havoc

Perhaps a rip in reality

Are these emotions mine?

They feel like they are mine 

They want to be mine

Being stuck on a dime and it's time to rhyme and will it be in time.

Reckon it's right

Back right at the emotions

Don't let them conquer your heart

This alien source beyond comprehension

A skill to feel to rhythm

To flow to the way

Where you feel peace of mind

This is where you find that the illusion is not beyond reach

Is that possible?

Running on sanity

Where did we go from here

Are we lost

Suffocating on what is deemed for us

To run to max speed

Going no where on this cycle machine

What is next for thee

That myself can conquer anything thrown at me

Even those damn razor blades

That slice that flesh

To form laser beam fathom badges

Wearing my heart on my sleeve

Shouting

Is this bliss

Cannot be

Is that sanity

Open for Me

Sun soaked bliss

Ever lasting serenity

Yes please...