my life to talk my life tick tock

What is my life

I asked myself

I asked my doctor

The answer you see

Why am I still alive

The answer that I received was unsatisfied

I demand to be satisfied to an extent that I can be content

The disaster of deeds that's destined to be

Full of life this insanity

But let it be let it be

Full of bliss maybe next time we'll see

Why am I still alive

Doctor says because you're fun

Fun I say oh yes oh fun fun of insanity fun fun

Confusion to the max with no answers to be heard no answers to be thought of no answers ever

I be knocking at death's door begging for him to let me in

Put the light keeps dragging me back

I just want the darkness to win

But the light keeps knocking

Keeps rapping at the door

Quote The Raven nevermore

On the Enders of the game

Will I ever be sane

Within this destiny that be

Perhaps this is not meant for me this sanity that I seek

Stuck within the chaos of the deed

Am I tarnished as they see

Am I the worst of the worst

Are they right those voices in the head

Here they're here there compliment there insult here here they're here there, there insult more

When will this Insanity be complete

Holding my breath brisking to the end

I am at edgewalker

Am I broken

Do I need fixed

Shall I give up

Or shall I dismiss these feelings

And hold the key

And that is the light

Because one is not afraid to stand alone for Allah is by my side

defeated?

I may be broken but I am not defeated

Fact being I'm far from broken

I am constantly rebuilding

For everyone has struggle in life

For one has not walked in another shoes for not to judge that person for they do not know

Wise words for one who said so

If only one before they judges

Remembers the wise words of those before us

That we all have strife in life

That we all struggle

And to some point we will succeed

Even in our broken chaotic state

We are not deemed for disaster

Even if the disaster has come to a phase of mania that deems it Bliss

With this Bliss be enough to consume you

To bring your heart strong

To rise to one another shoulders

To build to rise to need to help

It's better to constantly build yourself

So that you may pay it forward

Make that what matters a fact

I am broken I am free to be flawed even within this chaos Deen

I am broken but I am not defeated

maybe again

I scream within this insanity

Let it be

The chaos that deems my soul

For the anger is here

Biting down onto my flesh

My heart is burning

I'm melting

I am lost

Where to go

But in the cycle of chaos

Let it be even worth a bit of sanity

I scream so everlasting silently

Let me bleed

Crimson bliss

Let the Chaos flow

Why

Will I ever be so

Happy with out going manic

Here I am being

Cutting burning feeling

Stuck in traffic

Of the heart and soul

I scream so silently

Will I be free to bleed...

I am here

I love you

To the moon and back

For the stars fall in line as we ponder 

With this corruption of life

It's not just

But justice shall be served

I am shining with the light

I am a warrior

I strive on

Shall you follow me

I will protect you

For I am the white knight

Within ever girls dreams

Dance with me

With in the moon 

Lovely indeed

Losses

Where to go

Falling into the abyss

Failing to hope

Wanting nothing but the emptiness to control

Running on the fire

These coals burn my emotions so

To breath is but a burden

Wanting nothing but to end

As hope is lost

Unable to comprehend what hope can be

Thinking I could find it

Such a foolish move

Darkness sweeps in

Taking my soul

In these times

I Trek

Only to strive

To succeed

To want

To believe in Hope

Only time will tend

I am but a burden

To this world

Corruption to the core

The monster inside

Letting it go

Not wanting to stop

Wanting to feel but one emotion

Unfortunately

Hope still Wonders within my mind

That can be found with faith

So speak to your heart

To breath as God said be

So here I am

Being free to be me

beating dead beat

Crumble at the base

Here you stay

Unable to hope

To bring happiness is but a wish

That will never be in the midst of my life

Here I am, empty

Emotions flow, burning so

Rapid unlimited emotions

Ripping through the flesh

Am I breathing?

I feel I'm suffocating

So many burns

To cut to tear to reach

Wanting nothing but ruin

These burning balls of energy

Shine so brightly

Hoping for tomorrow

Wanting it to just end

To fall into slumber

Catch my breath

Only to hope

For the beat to stop

To set me free

As the emotions burden me so

For Chelsea

As the time

Bears witness

To a date

To ponder upon Time

To wander into the Galaxy skies

Devastation in the mind

Hopelessness narrows here

Here there everywhere

Upon this time

I hear a call

The Angels sing

Wanting nothing but peace

Peace of mind piece of soul

Pondering what will come in this night to be

Wondering what is wondrous indeed

To not give in to the darkness

To fight that darkness

To give yourself hope

For the light is knocking on your soul

Screaming to let it in

Will you open the door for it

Perhaps peace will find you then